Soul Power 4

 We have many relationships in life. We also have many concerns. We have many desires, and we have many feelings. We prioritize what we do based off what we understand to be most important to us. We can go many lifetimes focused on the experience or attainment of specific things that are important to us. We can spend any number of lifetimes fully immersed in the lives we have on Earth and the unique circumstances we find ourselves in. We are always working towards something, getting something, being something, or someone. What is the point of all this interest and all of this effort? Have we ever stopped to look at what really makes us happy? I don't think many of us can look this deeply because we are wholly immersed in our own lives, so immersed that we cannot step back to truly perceive the wisdom of our ways. If one could they may think twice about getting lost again in their individual life and forgetting about their soul. In our Earth lives, we often are incognizant of the life of our soul and of it's greater journey that continues when we die and continues throughout our many incarnations on this Earth. While alive on Earth in a physical body, we fail to see beneath the surface of our material sense perceptions to the subtle astral reality underpinning every material movement. We fail to see this reality, and the even deeper reality of the soul and God. The soul may enjoy the life we live, but it knows that God is the single answer to it's existence. It knows that worldliness is temporary and that the wisdom of Yoga is singularly supreme. Yoga simply as the science of and path to God-Union. I write to express my passionate urging to all souls to wake up to the deeper reality of their existence so they may set their priorities in order. It is a fact that the world that most of us perceive (the world as worldliness) as the Buddha says, is equivalent to suffering. This only makes sense when one sees that what we experience as sense pleasure is in fact always tied to pain and suffering. Even more so, it always keeps us in a state of suffering, even if we are not very aware of it. Worldliness is suffering because while the world is our God, we will always experience a sense of separateness and the void, the anxiety, the terrible fear, and upset that it brings. To be a separate thing, is to always be in a state of war. The unknown provokes fear, ignorance provokes uncertainty and total inability to possess true wisdom. So full of lust we are for sense fulfillment, the fruit of desire, that my interjections are those to be scorned. We cannot serve two masters, both God and Goodness, and selfish desire. We cannot do so and permanently succeed in our endeavors. Desire and ambition blind our eyes to reason and without reason, without Light, we are prey to whatever may come our way. Selfishness, ambition, and pride cause us to overlook what we should not and believe in ourselves far more than we ought to. 

There is another life we may have if we recognize this wisdom and possess the strength and courage to turn to it. Instead of living in constant anxiety, we can trust God. God can become the pillar of our life. Not sometimes, but always. We may let go of our attempt to serve ourselves through the pursuit of worldly security and worldly wisdoms, and we can serve our soul and become a devotee to God in which we serve everyone and everything. If we wish to do so, we must understand who we are and the way in which we give up the life we have for something greater. We have to understand why this is important. If we don't know who we are that we won't be able to let it go to embrace a higher way. If we don't know what we really want, that we won't be able to let go of what we want to be free to serve God. To pass through, one must open the door all the way, not just a little. One must be keenly interested in the true nature of reality. So interested that they put this pursuit above all else. Our soul and God are always here, one must knock to receive an answer. 

soul power 3

 Energies have shifted back towards Aum heavily today. Had a really nice day. I really would like to be more guided by God. I feel like so much of what I do is unguided and turbulent. I feel like I often don't have the best self control when it comes to how I interact with other people. I feel like I don't behave very wisely often and can blunder about. I would like to be very mindful of God when I speak to other people. I would also like to be more mindful of God when I interact with myself. I can be unkind and impatient. I rush around which causes me to be disoriented and out of touch. I feel that I can be a lot more in touch with God. I think this will bring me the energy I need to be successful in life. I think the energy will come from navigating wisely through inspiration from the Holy Ghost. I do not think our lives need to be as overwhelming as they often are. I think what we often lack is the proper outlook and the consequent proper attitude. When we look to God instead of the world for the solution to our problems and we look to God to guide us and are willing to trust in His wisdom then I think we will profit. Behaving worldly doesn't seem to lead to any good long term results. It seems to set us up for failure. God wants us to overcome selfishness and turn to the Light. He wants us to rise above our circumstances and choose a life of service and spiritual seeking. He wants us to seek Him and serve Him out of our own free will because it is the right thing to do. When we do this, I think he uplifts our spirit and the way becomes clear before us. I think this is what we are really looking for. The right way. How to behave wisely. How interesting such a thing may become so distorted. 

It seems as though half of this spiritual path comes to us through grace and not by our own doing. We cannot force Gods hand, we cannot force ourselves to live spiritually. It seems to come by itself and through Divine intersession. It is a path to follow when we see it, not one we can cling to of our own power. It seems to me that the soul is born of selfishness, that it's light is born of ignorance. The way of the soul is not through individual strength, but through selfless release. I think it comes from letting go of our personal power and gaining strength as a soul in divine communion. The power is not our own, but power given to us by God to do His work. We merely are vessels of His power. God takes care of everything really. It isn't our responsibility to worry over how things are managed. It is our responsibility to make ourselves capable of receiving His will so that it may be carried out on Earth. He wants us to give ourselves to Him, to return to Him. It may sound silly or old-fashioned, but it's real. I think so many of us are so preoccupied with ourselves and this material world that this notion is unapproachable and meaningless. If it is understood, I think it is vaguely so. To really understand this, I think you have to be reborn in the Light in your heart and soul. You have to die to your old self. This is profound. It's not one foot in, one foot out. It's all in. So many beautiful things I have seen in the Universe. All are apart of the same Light. The One Light. All is the Light. Awakening Light. 

This is what we really are. We are not our identities, our bodies nor our minds. We are simply Light. That is here and now. I forgot this is who I am. It has always been who I am, and who I will always be. 

Soul Power 2

 Endless beginnings, endless endings. Endless beginning, endless ending. There is nothing other than this moment. We cannot change how things are now, for this moment is change itself. Any change that is produced here is an illusion. Emptiness remains emptiness. There is nothing we can gain, nor anything we can lose. Regardless of what we do, nothing is achieved. The road remains empty. All form is immaterial. Regardless of personal attitude, thought, or inclination, regardless of experience, there is no self to be found, there is nothing to be affected. We can hold onto nothing. We are nothing. What brings this moment into being? What makes this moment as it is? Is there anything else? This is a self-producing moment. Without shape, it is self-contained. Without moving, movement arises. Form appears out of nothingness. Form is an expression of nothing. Form is nothingness. Nothingness is form. self is selfless. Ego, egoless. Where is there no emptiness? Who is responsible for suffering? Nothing can we build on anything. Attempting nothing, we are freed from the prison of doing, and of being. Wisdom comes from recognizing our inability to make any positive changes. There is nothing to be amended. It is the illusion of self that perpetuates suffering. Recognizing impermanence, recognizing the unattainable. That each moment is unconditioned. This is the truth. A truth that manifests with the dissolution of conditioned consciousness. It is self that brings suffering to humankind. It is realization of impermanence that ends this conditioned self in human minds. Without self their is no suffering. This realization leads to compassion for living beings. It reveals the way to enlightenment and the nature of conditioned suffering. Knowing this allows us to organize ourselves wisely, according to how things are. Without resistance, in accordance with natural law, utilizing natural law for the greatest benefit of sentient beings. Knowing how things are, we may govern ourselves effectively. Buddha! Glory to Buddha and Enlightenment! Amen! Amen! AUM!!!

Soul Power

 Me? Going through changes?? Still!?? Lol. Oh well. You get what you get and you don't throw a fit. I am going through what appears to be greater clarity and maturity, albeit in an unforeseen direction. I don't think I moved on in the way I thought I did from ego-impulsive worldliness. I definitely didn't. I was leaning into blue conformist, but it was still worldly. Then orange rational, though still worldly. I was deepening my understanding of Aum and then Christ or Dharma, but not moving into them as much as I thought. I don't think I managed to move my center when I thought I had. I didn't fully understand how I was changing at the time. I still don't understand those movements. I think largely I was looking into how the universe operated. I was studying how we evolve away form a worldly life. I think I do understand a lot of how this works now. To really progress, you have to become a servant of the Light. A true Yogi or Shaman. Whose master is God, I think expressed though communion with the Holy Ghost. This relationship is the essence of a Yogi and of a Shaman. One's purpose is the purpose that this Light reveals to them through their intuitive eye. In this way, purpose becomes spiritualized, uplifted. Life becomes the life of the soul awakening in communion with God as the Light and Vibration of the Holy Ghost within creation. One turns away from the worldly life in their very essence. I didn't understand this transformation. I think I am beginning to. I didn't clearly see the core of who I was. I was and am still moving into this clarity. This God is truly Spirit. The Great Spirit. That rides highest in the sky and is responsible for the play and change of life. I was an aspiring sorcerer of darkness, and I did not fully understand the Light. I tried to be both of the Light and the darkness at the same time. This broke me in two again and again. Spirit let me break my body on the rocks so that I would eventually see the truth. There is only one God and it is not Satan. The heavenly star points upwards. If you really want to ascend, you have to choose in your soul to become a servant of this Light which is only possible through sacrificing the life you have. Then God will truly become your Master, and the way will open before you.

I think God does have a purpose for each one of us. He knows who we are and what we have on our minds. He sends us where we go, to prepare us for what we will encounter in the future. Also to deal with what we have encountered in the past. He gives us the chance to redeem ourselves and choose a higher path. In this way He is the door opener. We relive the same moments, over and over again. We add new layers of experience and depth of feeling, that ultimately awaken our soul feeling, our memory of our origination beyond this world. God wants us to return to the Light and to our deeper purpose. He wants us to remember and re-awaken as we have countless times before. The perfect hand of God lies forever in the background of Creation, the hidden doer. It's chaos may be deeply disturbing and confounding, but only to the untrained eye. This is the illusion he casts that blinds the uninitiated. Behind the veil is the timeless peace and tranquility of a perfectly ordered Universe, a door that remains closed to those consumed with the thirst of worldly desire. The chains of sense desire and sense fulfillment. How few see while living that this is a prison of evil. Which corrupts all that is good. You truly cannot have a little of one and a little of the other. There is no such balance. A little desire will always have the potential to temp one into greater desire and greater darkness. There is no limit to the distance one can fall. The only security lies in total sacrifice of what we cling to. Willingness to let go. When we can let go, we are free to do God's work. This is according to the natural harmony of the universe. It is selfless and for the benefit of all. 

I didn't realize that I have been preparing for this path. I didn't see how. I have been slowly and steadily turning towards the Light, being prepared to carry it. All this pain had a purpose. Now it can be something beautiful. 

God wants us to move forward with our lives. So that our experience may deepen. As souls we are God continually expanding into life on Earth and in Heaven. God wishes to forever awaken to new experience. To reach endlessly outwards and expand itself. As we go up and as we go below, we are the endless experience of creative expression of God becoming the universe, discovering itself. This is what soul is. 

The Dharma

 Life is created out of thin air. The Dharma is the power that creates this life. It is life itself. We may have many ideas about what life is because life has many forms and qualities. What is the root of all of these forms and aspects of life? This is what life really is, this is what the Dharma is. At it's root life is an overflowing abundance of vital life energy. It is undivided and undying. Individual beings are born from this and are One with it. We forget our Oneness as the result of the formation of conditioned consciousness within the individualized being. When we can sufficiently still the mental activity of this conditioned consciousness, this inner unity of life becomes apparent. It is an undivided field of being, a Oneness. This is where we come from and who we are. This is what the Dharma is. A Oneness of all life, of creation. Life creates itself. The Dharma manifests and sustains itself. It is perfect: without flaw or stain. It contains all life forms and simultaneously is all life forms. It is One consciousness living in all consciousnesses, all minds as One mind eternally in this moment. If we look carefully at our own consciousness, this is what we will find wherever we look. It is the true nature and reality of every aspect of our being. Simply put, this is it. It is not something to be known through conceptualization, or through the intellect by identifying it among many other forms. One must step outside of the intellect to perceive it. To perceive it directly, is to know it. Attempts to hold it through mental processes will fail. The correct way is to quiet these mental processes in a way that we step totally outside of them. This is not prior to the intellect, it is post-intellect. So it is not discovered through depressing our normal consciousness with drugs or other methods. It is not animal physicality that is instinctual prior to thought. It is through thought it a way that fulfills thought so that it's processing is no longer necessary. Truly, the aim of all thought is to produce this consciousness or awareness. Although it appears that thought gets in the way, it is truly through harnessing the power of the mind that we discover our true dharma-nature. When the dharma is awakening within us, our aim is to properly direct our attention, which often strays because of thought. This makes thought appear to be our enemy. Really what we are doing when we properly direct our attention, is turn our mind, which is One with these thoughts, to something that is more useful. I find that it is healthy to be mindful of what I am thinking and to allow these thoughts to play out. This mentation eventually leads to the dharma. When we seek to annihilate thinking, we repress our bodies natural processing, which is unnecessary. If we are patient and allow this process to unfold, it will blossom into enlightenment. If we recognize where we are along the path, we can refrain from excessive control over our being. By allowing our self to be with non-attachment, mindful of the true nature of our being, we will pass through the various stages of enlightenment. Fixation and attachment are born of desire and delusion. Nothing is worth clinging to, not even the purifying of our mind. No state of mind is worth clinging to. All states of mind are equally Buddha. Cultivating this non-attachment is the highest dharma. Even as we are called to perform many things, this should be at the forefront of our attention. Nothing to gain, nothing to lose. No reason to be attached to anything. Non-attachment to whatever arises in this moment. What is arises within our consciousness is independence of Spirit. It doesn't matter who we are or who we become. Our true nature is independent of what arises in this moment. This independence is what brings us peace, not any particular thing that we can identify with. The conditioned sense of self wishes to build up itself with a host of things that provide it security and gratification. It believes these things are good and that this behavior is reasonable. It believes in this world very strongly. What truly makes us happy is not acquiring or achieving any of this, rather by ridding ourselves of all of these shells that cover up are inner radiance. The conditioned mind creates endless ways to perpetuate this. This is why this way of behaving must be dropped altogether to wake up. Until we understand this as readily as we understand that this cup right here is full of water, we will persist in distracting ourselves with dysfunctional substitutes. We will remain thirsty, regardless of how hard we try and drink from the cup. It will always remain just outside of our reach. When we think about the act of turning to Christ, we may think of this as a great feat of moral strength. This may true, but it misses the fact that turning to the Dao or the Dharma, to Jesus, is also just an act of simple practicality. When something doesn't work, try something else. 

Where has the Dharma gone?

 Where has the Dharma gone off to? Try as we may, we won't find it in pig pens. When we tire of toiling in the mud we may be ready to look for something real. The fresh air blowing in from abroad is much more pleasant than this reek. Emboldened by the act of looking up, we eventually resolve to make an exit. Linger as we may at the edge of what we know, the wilderness offers irresistible excitement and promise.

 To find the Dharma, we have to go out and look for it. This means going out from ourselves, going out from what we know. We have to put that life behind us and be willing to do something completely different. We have to leave behind our normal way of seeing, feeling and thinking. When we step outside of the box, we find ourselves exactly where we are. In some way we have to study the Dharma before we can step into it.  When we are acclimated, the door will open. 

What can we say of the Dharma? The Dharma awakes the mind and the soul to the true nature of reality. Self-centeredness closes the door while furious determination opens it. The Dharma is the true nature of our self. It is from where life springs forth. To know who we are and what is real we must give up our lives for the sake of this greater life. Once we step through the door we realize this is where we have always been. The Dharma is simply here. It is what here is. Whenever we go searching for it, we can't seem to find it. Whenever we stop and see exactly where we are, we find we have already arrived. Human consciousness naturally becomes dissatisfied with close-mindedness and begins looking for the truth. The truth naturally awakens within our consciousness and we naturally realize that it is already here. Nothing else exists. Pin the tail on the donkey! We do have to go and look for it even if the search is pointless. It is simply apart of the awakening process. As the Dharma awakens, the mind will naturally be cleansed of stupidity....😄🔫 There is no fucking point, but what can we do about it?

 The mind is addicted to striving towards an end. The Dharma doesn't blossom through this activity. It happens when this activity ceases. We also can't get to this blossoming through this mental chatter. There is no action we can take that we can guarantee will bring about this blossoming. Our behavior must be charged with the Dharma to bring about the Dharma. It doesn't matter what we do, it matters how we do it. This is why when we are looking, we have to step outside of the normal. Our normal way of doing things is impossibly infested with striving and is no good. It's only use is as fuel for change. When we recognize that the way we have been trying to go is without a doubt hopeless, we will be in a position to try something else. We will have exhausted all methods for striving and we will realize that at it's core, striving is simply not going to open up this door. At this point we want to open the door more than we want to persist in our habitual way of doing and living and being. So we take a chance, a very remarkable chance, and the whole world spins. 

This is it!

 

Everything is God. God is all around us, all of the time. When our ego is in charge, the world is hard and difficult. We constantly have opposition in our lives. When we turn to God everything turns to light, we do not need to fight so hard to be ourselves. We cannot have peace when we are determined to live in divisiveness. God is the solution to the struggle of our lives. This is not true for some and not for others. It is true for every single human being. There is no other way, no other path. This is not a belief. It is fact. It is merely how this universe is composed. It is not something that may be changed. Every part of who we believe we are is truly God. Our willfulness in opposition to the existing order of the Universe may appear to be something other when it is not. In our egoic fervor we are incapable of perceiving the subtle unity of all things. Every desire the ego has, everything we wish to accomplish all exists within the greater order of God. Nothing we may achieve for ourselves, no change we may make, changes this deeper nature in any way. It is an expression of this order, a flawless one at that. The ego imagines a chaotic unsettled universe full of uncertainty. The true nature of the universe, of God, is fixed and absolute. The ego does not operate on this level. The only way to go into God, is to lose the ego, to lose the self. So it has no power to affect it. The ego is also unreal anyway, with no power in any dimension.

The ego insists it is correct because it is bent on achieving it’s own aims. It is thirsty. It is maddened by it’s thirst. This madness blinds us from seeing things clearly. We are often so devoured by it that we don’t see much outside of it and we are wholly incapable of living independently of it. By studying the nature of reality through serious contemplation we may realize the immateriality of the ego and the absolute supremacy of Spirit. We may unravel the many dimensions of the universe that appear before us as our consciousness awakens from the stupor of ignorance. I find it incredible how incredibly wrong the ego is and we are about what really makes us happy. We need so little to find joy and beauty in our lives and the answer is always right before us. We are dependent on things and states of mind to be happy when the more we are able to exist independently of these the happier we truly are. True happiness comes from independence of spirit. This is not through denial of any part of our humanity, rather through the wisdom that comes from radically embracing who we are. When we can face the deep unhappiness of our lives, we free some of our attention to inquire why we are this way. We have to be brave enough to acknowledge how we really feel and who we really are in this moment. We can’t work with our feelings if we don’t acknowledge them. Only through acknowledging our feelings, who we are, can we have the chance of learning from them. By acknowledging our thirst and allowing it to be, we are more free to examine why it is that we are thirsty. By seeking happiness through self-gain, we can discover how it always leaves us dissatisfied, that it does not nourish our soul and that we must look heavenward for answers. True security in life does not come through self-gain and dominating aggression, it comes from listening to God and being His servant. The willful ego will always be blind to the immutable higher order of the Universe.  It is unable to have mastery over the subtle laws of the universe because it always seeks to manipulate them for it’s own gain. It only understands enough to serve itself and believes it can continue manipulating them if it stays ahead of the forces working against it. It believes it can because it is arrogant and imagines itself to be supremely powerful. It confuses it’s own nature with God, when it is always infinitely short of the mark. The ego believes it is the greatest thing in the universe and that whoever is strongest rules. So it vies to be the strongest force in the universe. The power within the ego is infinite, but the ego itself is not that power, nor can it ever be. The ego believes it can have this power through manipulation of the existing order of things. It never goes far enough to understand what this power is because it is not really interested in figuring this out, it is only interested in using it for itself. It fails to grasp that every act of manipulation creates an equal force of manipulation against itself, so it is forced to continue to manipulate more to maintain hold over it’s designs. It can never find fulfillment through this method because it is always warring against the universe and creating war against itself. It always has to have it’s guard up. As soon as it fully exposes itself, it opens itself up to be destroyed. It carefully builds it’s power from the shadows and only decides to come out into the open when it believes it is strong enough to dominate the field. The truth is that it never has enough power to dominate the field, it only believes it does, and can only have temporary success. It can never see the full extent of what is going on because it is blinded by it’s own ambition and thirst. It’s attempt is always a gamble, even if it appears to be a sure bet. The more it succeeds, the more it lets it’s guard down, and the more it is open to be hit by a direct hit from some unforeseen force that may easily annihilate it’s flimsy plans. It only succeeds as long as it’s good karma is in effect. Which it undermines by openly seizing power for itself. The only way it can maintain it’s power in the short term is to sink to deeper and deeper depravity. Even then, it remains blind to the true nature of power and the true nature of the universe, and it has no hope of succeeding permanently in it’s aims. This egoic mentality is a tool that the soul attempts to use to find fulfillment in the universe, to fully manifest it’s potential. We have to be present with this aspect of ourself if we wish to gain the wisdom that tells us it is folly to persist in this behavior. If we deny this life within ourself, we will not have the opportunity to grow beyond it. We have to find some way to allow it to express itself so we can discover the wisdom of joining in the existing universal order. Many people in our society are so afraid to live that they never get as far as cultivating their own ego in the open. We are so deadened by the world that all we can do is slavishly conform to the unnatural order that fills the air like the malignant odors of a ripe disease. I don’t advocate assholery, I advocate the courage to express how we really feel and who we really are. I advocate stepping into the shoes of a maturing ego as one step in a greater process towards fully integrating all of the parts of ourselves that have gotten so out of place because of the way the world is. I hope people can do this with wisdom and temperance, with the greater goal in mind. You cannot avoid a certain amount of assholery in this process, but even this is better than the lifelessness that plagues our zombie infested world. I am not sure where we stand because our development is so fucked up. You have to start somewhere in the process of cleaning it all up and awakening and integrating the intelligence of the body/human being. I think there is a massive dharma current floating in the same air that can lead us wisely to through this integration/awaking process. You do have to start from the bottom. That doesn’t mean that’s where you are at the moment. You may have already moved up some of the way.

In order to really bring yourself out of the madness you have to grow up. Even if you wake up, if you don’t clean up your life and take the time to grow up in your heart, you will be stuck in the same routine, and you will continue to be hampered individually. God’s answer responds to our entire being. It is not something to hold back from in any way. If we do, we do not yet understand the dharma in it’s fullest sense and we remain hindered along the path. If we have a keen sense of the dharma, and a fiery determination, we can cut through the veils of ignorance and arrive at the doorstep of the Buddha, who is both awake in mind and in heart. Behold, the blade of the dharma stands before you!