This is it

 The whole is where we are and what we experience. There's nothing we can do to change this fact. Our experience of feeling incomplete, lost, or divorced from ourself or what is real is a state of mind and not what actually is. The infinite is everything we experience. We deeply believe and feel ourselves to be in limitation, this simply is not true. What all this is, is infinity, fully and perfectly formed always here and now. This is what here and now are, infinity. Things can only be in the here and now, so everything is infinity. There is not where else to look, no where else to be. Perfection and fulfillment live in this moment exactly as it is. 

When we go deep enough within ourselves this is what we find. The whole is here, already here, already complete. We are already complete, perfect. The Universe is whole and One, perfectly formed. There is nothing left to achieve. This is an inner depth of realization on an evolving spectrum. Realizing this, we see we did not achieve this, but that this has been the underlying nature of things from the start. The Way existed as we set out to discover it in deep ignorance. We were already merged with it at that point, never in fact being separate. Nothing has ever existed outside of this perfection. 

This is because unlike our prior beliefs, nature and our nature is not flawed. Their is no good nature that is whole separate from a bad nature that is false. Their is the ever present perfect Nature that has always been and will always be, that is the whole universe as it is. In this state of mind, there is simply the Dao, The One, undivorced from form, wholly itself being form yet not limited to it. To say it is the Dao is enough. To say This is It is enough. That it isn't seen is unimportant, that it is is all important.

Naught else do we need when we have the Dao, possessing it we have reached fulfillment and perfection. Naught ought else but where we are, all this time. We didn't realize until now that our very nature was Self-nature. We didn't see clearly until now who we actually were. What reality actually was. Now we find nothing else except this Light shining out at us, shining with infinite radiance in all places all at once, being infinite radiance itself. This is who I am. This is my self. This is who I am. I cannot say what it is, but I know that this is it. I do not need to know, for I have found, and finding is enough, for finding is what was missing, not knowing or understanding, but seeing my own self nature and being separate from it. No more, no more. 

What importance is knowledge when you know exactly who you are? When you know exactly what everything is? When you have discovered your self-nature within all things and find it to be whole and complete. When no part of yourself is missing? What else do you have to look for? What do you need to understand? Nothing, nothing at all! The whole point of understanding anything is to discover your self-nature.

For I am infinite in the light of my Self. My body is whole and complete. Perfection! Thou doth exist! Beyond ideal behind the illusion of imperfection doth thou hide! I have found Thee again and I know Thee! How could anything be if not from something greater than itself? How could perfection not be the source of imperfection? How perfectly hidden Thou art! Thou ridiculous trickster! Hidden in plain sight! Laughing merrily all the way! Thou radiant One, behold Thee! How great Thou art! How wonderful! Truly Wonder-full, glorious Nature that is Self-Spirit-One-God!!! Bless Thee for Thou art Blessedness! Oh Glory their is to Thee!

I adore Thee Lord, I adore that Thou Art, that I may Know Thee, that I am made in Thine image, that I and Thou art One. Hail Lord God who art Infinite!!

Our Feelings

      I find it interesting that the lunacy of our invalidation of what we deem negative feelings is widely considered normal and appropriate. This is true even when we are told by mainstream sources to be better at embracing what is negative and unpleasant. For we continue in our polarized and impossibly narrow way of being, one largely driven by the self-alienating dynamic of shoulds and shouldn'ts.  

     Our culture is ungrounded and we do not have a pervasive harmony. We are driven from our feelings, from the truth by the unceasing disquiet of our own inability to care for ourselves: to be sufficient unto our own. We know about this, about our anxiety, about countless ways to resolve it, yet we do not. 

    This is not because we all personally deficient of some necessary quality. It is simply because we are deeply upset and overwhelmed. Our total feeling system (mental, physical, emotional, spiritual) is compromised because of circumstance. 

      We and our society, global at this point, remain stuck on repeat, instead of sensitively responding to our present personal, regional, and global crises. 

     Here, at this point in the essay, I could give you a solution for you to put your hopes on and to quickly lose in the downpour of data flowing into your conscious awareness. I don't have a solution, or I choose to frame my opinion in a way that it is not a solution. I can say this, because I also say that there isn't a problem. 

     So deep in our anxiety and disquiet, we forgot, and continue to forget that we ourselves, and the system, our society, and the greater world--nature it's self are not fundamentally flawed.

     We confuse what we feel and then what we imagine, with what is real. What is happening to us, to our civilization, to our planet is a response of nature. A nature we are wholly a part of. Because we invalidate so much of what we deem negative, we cannot consciously embrace the whole of ourselves and see this. We have rejected and forgotten the deep wholeness of nature, the idea and reality that our nature, One with the greater nature is whole and capable of responding effectively to its circumstance. 

     Alienated from ourselves, by our disturbing circumstances, we can't see that this disturbance is apart of a greater cycle of life doing it's work to respond to circumstances of our times. We don't see the value and purpose of  these so called negative feelings and experiences that have become norms. In our minds we are broken, but is this truly the case? 

  The whole power and purpose of what we call negative feelings is to redirect our attention to a better way, a better response. This may not be the best description. They don't just help us see what is better, they help us define who we are, and what is real both subjectively and objectively. We cannot continue to see them as separate from pleasant positive feelings, because altogether they are simply feelings that all have the same purpose and are equally valid and apart of our self. It is dangerous to make positive and negative feelings analogous with the dualities of comfort and discomfort or pleasure and pain. 

    In American culture we choose the insane ideal of the distorted American dream of materialistic, capitalistic and spiritless security and comfort over the reality of our deeply disturbed and misguided personal and societal state.  We divorce our attention from feeling both because of our conditioning, our addiction, and our inability to personally cope with what has been ignored. 

     But again, it is incorrect to say that even this choice makes us divided from our feeling, because  it is our feeling and deepest nature, the same nature that governs everything outside of us, that makes this conscious choice to not see. It is the feeling and subjective experience of a division that cannot occur in reality. We are not separate from our environment, from our world, from the whole regardless of how we feel. 

     If there is not a problem and not a solution, there may be actions or responses that are wise to undertake. We are not truly divorced from nature or ourselves, while the feeling and deep experience of this reality indicates what we can do next. Why do we feel this way? What are we ignoring, failing to do that creates such unhappiness in our lives? What do we need to connect to to move forward, awakening more deeply?

     What is negative and discarded holds our power after we hold onto it (by not dealing with it) for so long that it acts like an anchor pulling us to the bottom of the sea. The remedy to this unpleasant circumstance lies in the chaos of the storm brewing. The storm itself brings the rain that brings life to the parched soil. The pain and the sorrow both instilled and coming hold the seeds of promise of a life of greater balance to come. 

      Storm or drought, or both, in feeling and in the world are not necessarily demons to excorcise, they are unavoidable patterns in nature and feeling with lessons to teach. We cannot avoid suffering or apocalypse in the great cycle of life. We can attempt to hide, while it is best to meet them directly and sensitively if we are able. If we face annihilation with firm resolve we may beat the grave, even when buried, when the world turns itself upside down to right itself in the end. 

      

Of The Mind

 Everything manifest arises from Mind and it is by Mind that things become manifest. The movement of Mind affects all changes in manifestation. Through control of Mind we may affect any change to reality. The only way to have complete and total control over Mind is to give up all attachment to all perceived states of reality. We may affect change in manifestation. To be One with the Mind is to create what Mind creates as Mind. It is to go where Mind goes without attachment. The full power of creation is born from merging with Mind, for it is the matrix and the ground of being. When we merge with it, we possess full power over it. This doesn't mean we get what we want, it means as the One we are capable of creating anything. We may use this power to overcome any obstacles in our awareness through sheer will alone, through the dominating power of our mind which has become Mind, the One. Imagination has been tied to the source and merged with it. All limited obstacles may be overcome by the unlimited power and intelligence of the Mind. Seeing this clearly is liberating in itself. For as one does, the unreality of perceived limitations become more apparent and they dissolve in front of the inner eye. 

Shadowing Spirit

 To truly approach the Godhead your will must evolve. You must become the ever-changing Magician that is the Hand of God, the Holy Ghost Amen, which I call Spirit. You must abandon as a central principle the laws of common sense, of conventional wisdom, so that the seemingly unconventional Spirit will remain with you to the point that it's will becomes yours and you become the Magician, the Shaman, and the Spiritual Inspirant, the Acolyte. The Spirit employs conventional wisdom routinely while coming from a place deeply beyond it. It is this deeper Faith that the Acolyte must utilize to keep pace with the wiles of the Dancing Shepard. To go to the other side and remain, to live in and from the Spirit world, where sight and Spirit are continually awakened. 

To move forward on the spiritual path, one must break free of the limiting perspectives and attitudes of a conventional ego. This ego must die so that Spirit can rule the autonomy of the individual. The spiritualized individual life becomes the awakened Soul, a God-centered personality and force of will and being. The Spirit and the Soul are dead in the sense that they are the life after death of mortal consciousness, the conventional ego. Not dead in the sense that they are immortal life. 

When the ego dies, or begins to die, Spiritual consciousness awakens. The hard matter universe dissolves as one realizes matter is a state of mind dependent on material dominated consciousness, not an objective reality. In death one is reborn as a Spiritual being. This inner being becomes dominant once the ego sheath dissolves sufficiently. The universe becomes a place of subtle energy dominated by the ever-present will and power of Spirit. 

To move on the individual must learn to navigate in the waters of Spirit, to understand and interpret the will and voice of Spirit in the Spirit world. This place is a place of processing one's former life to ascertain its spiritual value. It is this processing that powers the spiritual transformation to a Shadow Walker, one who shadows Spirit. From our lives, we glean spiritual truths that further awaken our consciousness. Our lives on Earth prepare us to understand the Spiritual nature of the Universe. Through many incarnations we discover the Spirit behind each form and each intent. 

As a Shadow Walker, we move in the Darkness behind life in which the Spiritual Hand of God is hidden. A Hand that omnisciently directs the subtle energies that create the world we inhabit. All these expressions and energies are ultimate manifestations of Spirit, a dynamic play of Spirit that is the fullest extent, the universe of form: Creation. Our experiences are subtly woven together by unseen energies conditioned to weave by the exact impression of our karmic signature, ceaselessly vibrating to the frequency of of our individualized wills. The content of our consciousness determines the subtle frequency of our will which ceaselessly acts and ceaselessly triggers karmic law to respond accordingly. The exact frequency of our will  is always a hidden request, a subtle order to the Universe, to change the reality or energies we experience according to the energetic frequency of our request. This is largely not fully conscious programming on our own part of the reality/consciousness/energy we experience. 

To be an Acolyte, is to seek greater consciousness of this energetic connection between our will and  the universal law of karma, not to gain for themself , but to strengthen their connection with Spirit so their spiritual consciousness can more deeply awaken. The more one is aware of this process, the more they can recognize the behavior they have that keeps their consciousness imprisoned, and the behavior that liberates it. For the Soul, the Spiritual self, recognizes the hellish nature of material minded consciousness, one full of inherent suffering and ignorance of the Spiritual nature of reality that brings fulfillment to the Soul.  An acolyte seeks to see Spirit in everything all of the time and to see exactly how the subtle law of cause and effect operates so that they can implement it to erase their karmic debts to free their soul from material consciousness. 

One thing I notice is how subtle energies ebb and flow like the tide of the ocean, and stream like flowing waters. If we can recognize these currents and patterns we can learn to move with them more efficiently. We can anticipate what is coming and prepare for it. By sensing Spirit in this flow we can best orient ourselves, for the will of Spirit is exact and the single power we can fully trust. When we don't have a good read on Spirit, we are lost whether or not we realize it. Thus it is most important to shadow spirit, to keep right by it so we can follow it at a moments notice. To lose Spirit is to lose our spiritual connection and the life of our soul, which fucking sucks. We must learn to change our behavior so we are reborn in spiritual habits in each environment we encounter. And when we are lost, always get back on the trail. 

Spirit is impossible to find in the dead thinking that our conventional ego clings to for life support. It is found in fresh thinking that is fearless and innovative. It's movement is also spontaneous, even when it is carrying out something long planned. Thinking and movement becomes dead when it loses connection to the source, at this point it should be immediately discarded. If we have lost fresh and dynamic movement and thinking, we have lost the trail of Spirit and our efforts will not bear fruit. The Spiritual path requires us to exorcise all dead thinking and behavior so we have a vital connection to Spirit. We must learn to discriminate between accurate and inaccurate readings of situations, taking the time to rejuvenate our mental and perceptory faculties. 

We don't have to wait to act, we always have the power to just act. If we sit to long in one space our connection will become stagnant. A Spiritual life demands movement. It demands flow. Spirit is also always present within us, in the stillness of our Soul. We can't find it outside of ourselves, it is only outside once we have found it within and we see Spirit in the world and in ourselves. Spirit is also intimately tied with Soul, so it should be fun and joyful. It should bring you a deep and abiding happiness. Do not be deceived by the world. The delusion of ego distorts the spiritual truth of Spirit and Soul, which are readily found within oneself. The true nature of the exterior world is a reflection of the content of our own Soul and it is in this reflection that we must deal with it if we wish to have real success in this life. There are no other people, just other Souls and expressions of the same Spirit that we are apart of. Spirit will always bring us peace and mercy when we return to it. It simply wants us to follow it, because it is an expression of God's infinite love. We don't move forward by going ahead, but by going within. 

Spirit is truly all around us, always with us, all of the time. In a measure beyond our imagining. With a Love so powerful. It is always within reach, always where we are. And we always have enough because God has always set in store enough for us. Let me believe in Thee Oh Divine Lord that I may have the Strength to Follow Thee Always. We do not need fear one bit, for the power of God is with us and informs all that is. Thou Art Here Always. Thou Art the Lord God. 

Will you be my Shaman Stone?

Soul Power 4

 We have many relationships in life. We also have many concerns. We have many desires, and we have many feelings. We prioritize what we do based off what we understand to be most important to us. We can go many lifetimes focused on the experience or attainment of specific things that are important to us. We can spend any number of lifetimes fully immersed in the lives we have on Earth and the unique circumstances we find ourselves in. We are always working towards something, getting something, being something, or someone. What is the point of all this interest and all of this effort? Have we ever stopped to look at what really makes us happy? I don't think many of us can look this deeply because we are wholly immersed in our own lives, so immersed that we cannot step back to truly perceive the wisdom of our ways. If one could they may think twice about getting lost again in their individual life and forgetting about their soul. In our Earth lives, we often are incognizant of the life of our soul and of it's greater journey that continues when we die and continues throughout our many incarnations on this Earth. While alive on Earth in a physical body, we fail to see beneath the surface of our material sense perceptions to the subtle astral reality underpinning every material movement. We fail to see this reality, and the even deeper reality of the soul and God. The soul may enjoy the life we live, but it knows that God is the single answer to it's existence. It knows that worldliness is temporary and that the wisdom of Yoga is singularly supreme. Yoga simply as the science of and path to God-Union. I write to express my passionate urging to all souls to wake up to the deeper reality of their existence so they may set their priorities in order. It is a fact that the world that most of us perceive (the world as worldliness) as the Buddha says, is equivalent to suffering. This only makes sense when one sees that what we experience as sense pleasure is in fact always tied to pain and suffering. Even more so, it always keeps us in a state of suffering, even if we are not very aware of it. Worldliness is suffering because while the world is our God, we will always experience a sense of separateness and the void, the anxiety, the terrible fear, and upset that it brings. To be a separate thing, is to always be in a state of war. The unknown provokes fear, ignorance provokes uncertainty and total inability to possess true wisdom. So full of lust we are for sense fulfillment, the fruit of desire, that my interjections are those to be scorned. We cannot serve two masters, both God and Goodness, and selfish desire. We cannot do so and permanently succeed in our endeavors. Desire and ambition blind our eyes to reason and without reason, without Light, we are prey to whatever may come our way. Selfishness, ambition, and pride cause us to overlook what we should not and believe in ourselves far more than we ought to. 

There is another life we may have if we recognize this wisdom and possess the strength and courage to turn to it. Instead of living in constant anxiety, we can trust God. God can become the pillar of our life. Not sometimes, but always. We may let go of our attempt to serve ourselves through the pursuit of worldly security and worldly wisdoms, and we can serve our soul and become a devotee to God in which we serve everyone and everything. If we wish to do so, we must understand who we are and the way in which we give up the life we have for something greater. We have to understand why this is important. If we don't know who we are that we won't be able to let it go to embrace a higher way. If we don't know what we really want, that we won't be able to let go of what we want to be free to serve God. To pass through, one must open the door all the way, not just a little. One must be keenly interested in the true nature of reality. So interested that they put this pursuit above all else. Our soul and God are always here, one must knock to receive an answer. 

soul power 3

 Energies have shifted back towards Aum heavily today. Had a really nice day. I really would like to be more guided by God. I feel like so much of what I do is unguided and turbulent. I feel like I often don't have the best self control when it comes to how I interact with other people. I feel like I don't behave very wisely often and can blunder about. I would like to be very mindful of God when I speak to other people. I would also like to be more mindful of God when I interact with myself. I can be unkind and impatient. I rush around which causes me to be disoriented and out of touch. I feel that I can be a lot more in touch with God. I think this will bring me the energy I need to be successful in life. I think the energy will come from navigating wisely through inspiration from the Holy Ghost. I do not think our lives need to be as overwhelming as they often are. I think what we often lack is the proper outlook and the consequent proper attitude. When we look to God instead of the world for the solution to our problems and we look to God to guide us and are willing to trust in His wisdom then I think we will profit. Behaving worldly doesn't seem to lead to any good long term results. It seems to set us up for failure. God wants us to overcome selfishness and turn to the Light. He wants us to rise above our circumstances and choose a life of service and spiritual seeking. He wants us to seek Him and serve Him out of our own free will because it is the right thing to do. When we do this, I think he uplifts our spirit and the way becomes clear before us. I think this is what we are really looking for. The right way. How to behave wisely. How interesting such a thing may become so distorted. 

It seems as though half of this spiritual path comes to us through grace and not by our own doing. We cannot force Gods hand, we cannot force ourselves to live spiritually. It seems to come by itself and through Divine intersession. It is a path to follow when we see it, not one we can cling to of our own power. It seems to me that the soul is born of selfishness, that it's light is born of ignorance. The way of the soul is not through individual strength, but through selfless release. I think it comes from letting go of our personal power and gaining strength as a soul in divine communion. The power is not our own, but power given to us by God to do His work. We merely are vessels of His power. God takes care of everything really. It isn't our responsibility to worry over how things are managed. It is our responsibility to make ourselves capable of receiving His will so that it may be carried out on Earth. He wants us to give ourselves to Him, to return to Him. It may sound silly or old-fashioned, but it's real. I think so many of us are so preoccupied with ourselves and this material world that this notion is unapproachable and meaningless. If it is understood, I think it is vaguely so. To really understand this, I think you have to be reborn in the Light in your heart and soul. You have to die to your old self. This is profound. It's not one foot in, one foot out. It's all in. So many beautiful things I have seen in the Universe. All are apart of the same Light. The One Light. All is the Light. Awakening Light. 

This is what we really are. We are not our identities, our bodies nor our minds. We are simply Light. That is here and now. I forgot this is who I am. It has always been who I am, and who I will always be. 

Soul Power 2

 Endless beginnings, endless endings. Endless beginning, endless ending. There is nothing other than this moment. We cannot change how things are now, for this moment is change itself. Any change that is produced here is an illusion. Emptiness remains emptiness. There is nothing we can gain, nor anything we can lose. Regardless of what we do, nothing is achieved. The road remains empty. All form is immaterial. Regardless of personal attitude, thought, or inclination, regardless of experience, there is no self to be found, there is nothing to be affected. We can hold onto nothing. We are nothing. What brings this moment into being? What makes this moment as it is? Is there anything else? This is a self-producing moment. Without shape, it is self-contained. Without moving, movement arises. Form appears out of nothingness. Form is an expression of nothing. Form is nothingness. Nothingness is form. self is selfless. Ego, egoless. Where is there no emptiness? Who is responsible for suffering? Nothing can we build on anything. Attempting nothing, we are freed from the prison of doing, and of being. Wisdom comes from recognizing our inability to make any positive changes. There is nothing to be amended. It is the illusion of self that perpetuates suffering. Recognizing impermanence, recognizing the unattainable. That each moment is unconditioned. This is the truth. A truth that manifests with the dissolution of conditioned consciousness. It is self that brings suffering to humankind. It is realization of impermanence that ends this conditioned self in human minds. Without self their is no suffering. This realization leads to compassion for living beings. It reveals the way to enlightenment and the nature of conditioned suffering. Knowing this allows us to organize ourselves wisely, according to how things are. Without resistance, in accordance with natural law, utilizing natural law for the greatest benefit of sentient beings. Knowing how things are, we may govern ourselves effectively. Buddha! Glory to Buddha and Enlightenment! Amen! Amen! AUM!!!