Nothing else but this

 I was thinking that a big part of striving is striving for what we will gain in the future and then how the future doesn't exist. How there is nothing but this whatever the hell it is. I think this is a huge flaw in our reasoning. Doing all this work in anticipation. I think we can be a lot better off if we realize clearly how there is no tomorrow, not even a today. Just now. There is no way this moment is, it is simply how it is. No way it will be, simply how it is now. What it is the next moment, is the now moment. This now is all that exists. I think here is where life is, and when we think about tomorrow we lose sight of the reality of this moment which is the only reality. I think without clearly seeing here, we cannot reason successfully. Because this is it. There is nothing outside of this. Our minds tell us there is and we believe them, but are they telling the truth? I think we spend most of our lives avoiding the reality of this moment. We try to save enough to save ourselves and maybe someday we'll look. Doing this just pushes us further away from what is. It is the opposite of what we want to be doing. We are just confused and doing our best, but this doesn't succeed in fulfilling what we want to be fulfilled. Unfortunately it cascades into boggy boggy poopy poopy. No fun, not really good. We don't have to live this way. With one hand in the shitter and the other on the driving wheel. We can free both hands and then employ them consciously in whatever feels appropriate. I think it feels so good to stand apart from the world, when the world is a world that is distracting from our true spirit. Which is just being free from all of this in this moment and being all of this exactly as it is. Seeing the fullness of this moment is seeing who we are and who we are is everything that is arising now. I think this moment is always full, even if we don't see it. We don't need to, but we can. I think the truth is that we are always totally open to it, Buddha just includes not feeling a whole lot like Buddha. This is why I think that this is it regardless of what is going on. I think personally we can learn to not depend on anything, but we don't need to. I think the reality of everything is unconditioned. I think conditioned reality and conditioned being is an illusion, a part of the full expression of fully transcendent being. I think the truth is that everything is one and the same and we are each the full manifestation of Buddha. This makes a lot of sense to me. Because the universe is complete, Buddha is here. And it is our nature as we are. There is nothing wrong with anything we do, we are already perfectly awake perfectly fulfilled, this is why striving is undesirable. Everything is truly that and that is this exactly as it appears. I don't think there is anything wrong with the world or with anyone or anything. All of this is Spirit, fulfilled fully manifest Spirit. I think we get caught up in things and think otherwise, we get caught up on particulars and lose sight of the untaintable truth that abides here. Not even the victory of Spirit, but the fully present reality of Spirit that is all that exists. Buddha, Buddha, Buddha. Not seeing, not knowing, Buddha as a smiling child covering his eyes. Buddha is home and home is where we are. All things, all places, Buddha. Buddha is the infinite universe. The infinite universe is apart of the expression of Buddha. It is apart of the infinite. I don't know if I can say it other than this. I think it is simply how things are. I don't understand how it is possible for part of the infinite to be concealed, perhaps this is simply the unsolvable mystery of being. Because it is concealed, but it is not really concealed because the universe of form is illusory. We experience this illusion, yet we don't...because it's not really happening...yet it does happen to us...or does it?...I think the truth is that it really doesn't happen to us because we are not really us, we are Buddha and everything is Buddha. I really believe this is true. Somehow I think the experience of not being Buddha is exactly the same as full consciousness of Buddha as Buddha. I think what is going on is that I think of Buddha being separate and different from non-Buddha, which is obviously impossible because everything is Buddha. Duh lol