The Rain Behind the Clouds

 Behind the clouds, it is raining. Behind the clouds lies the sea of dependence. It is filled with the rain from the sky that lies behind the clouds. Here the dharma is clear. Not one drop commands our attention, we know it is raining and that the dharma is that of rain, falling from the sky into the sea, and the sea that is what all that we are depends on. We depend on this sea so much that we do not exist. The tears are so powerful that they consume us. What is known is raining beyond the clouds. We are extinguished. Drops falling from the sky melt together seamlessly into the sea...

I am not anything in this world. I am not of this world. There is no world to be of or from. I cannot depend on anything here. I cannot depend on anything at all. What can I see to depend on? The dharma stands clear without bearing, I find my refuge here, in this absolution. 

The human heart is a feeling heart. I do not depend on these things, but it is through them that I realize who I am that is beyond what we call the world. It is not by denying them, but by fulfilling them that I realize who I am that is beyond all of this. It is not by denying life that I realize truth and fulfillment, it is that I live that I know who and how I live. That what I see is not truly who I am, but a part and a flake of who I am. A flake which upon consciousness of the deep has no existence. No form, no way, consciousness is born. From everything without depending on anything I spring into being. Denying what is uncomfortable is not the way, the way needs no crutch, it carries everything within itself and is fulfilled step by step without dependence on anything. Unless it depends upon everything, and everything has no place here because it is not consumed by anything. What stands does not stand upon anything. It does not stand no where, it stands no where at all. This is where I am, this is where everything is. The whole world and the whole universe stands upon not a single thing. How could it? Where would anything end if you could never find where it began? Having no beginning, it needs no ending. It needs no particular qualities because it has no particular qualities. This is the only way it can be the way it is. If it was limited in anyway at all, it wouldn't be anyway at all, because no way that is limited or that depends upon anything exists anywhere at all. 

As a human being, I depend on everything that is here because everything here is apart of who I am. My breath is the movement of the whole universe expanding and contracting throughout itself. No particle lies outside this. There is no end to this movement. Yet everything here is not what it appears to be. Everything here appears to depend on everything else, and here it does, but what it is is not what it appears to be. This dependence is not the nature of my being. All of these things are not what they appear to be. They are not divided, not set apart. There is nothing set apart. And for this what can I depend upon? If nothing is set apart, what is better than anything else? What can be identified from anything else? What has different quality, or different worth than anything else? What can be pursued apart from anything else? What has unique special quality that is desirable above other things? There are no other things, there are no choices. No path, no life. I cannot find my way here. No separate path will lead anywhere profitable, it will end in snares. I cannot find a separate path. I cannot find a way. I do not depend on anything here. I do not depend on anything at all.

I owe my existence to something which we cannot cling to. I cannot deny it. I cannot deny anything. This thing is like water springing from the ground without any trace of where it comes from, it in fact like everything else does not come from anywhere. In trying to cling to this springing of water we restrict its flow and become thirsty. In clinging to life we become lost and blind. When we recognize that the water does not come from anywhere in particular and in so does not depend on anything in particular, we stop trying to exploit it, because we know we can't. It is impossible to cling to the water, just as it is impossible to cling to ourselves. Both ourselves and the water come from nothing, depend on nothing and are truly nothing. This is not a nothing that we wear that is the antithesis of something. It is a nothing that is a nowhere, not here or anywhere at all. Just because it can't be pointed to, doesn't mean it isn't anywhere to be found. It just means that how we see things, is not in fact how they are. Things are not really things. Because things are things because they stand apart from eachother with different qualities. I am saying that none of this is real and that what is real is what lies behind all of this apparent seeing and being that we call reality. This is impossible for you to comprehend because it is beyond comprehension. We say, "I understand", to communicate what is beyond what we call our world, that which is beyond what our knowing is. All of our knowing, culture, beliefs, and identity to me is largely meaningless in the face of truth. It obviously and definitely has meaning to us, but to me, all of this is not what it appears to be, and ultimately lacks any substance whatsoever. Because, what we believe is substance and has substance, does not in fact exist and cannot anywhere be found. When what we call substance is substanceless, all of this appears meaningless in the face of truth. 

When we depend on things, our heart becomes distant from us. We become dependent on things and encumbered by them. When we recognize truth and abandon clinging in recognition of truth we can be free from dependence and darkness and clinging. These things are apparent manifestations of truth that are undesirable and unpleasant for human beings.When we recognize the truth deep within we can abandon all forms of clinging, all dependences, all binding laws, and be free from all forms of suffering. What suffering may be is belief in the power of a law of nature over us that is disproportionate to its true degree of power over us. When powers are put into proper perspective we recognize that we don't need to be slaves to any power, to any belief, to any form. The natural power of our innermost nature is sufficient to dispel all conflict and trouble. In relying on this power we remove ourself from the sea of contests and tribulations in which powers are set against eachother in constant war. Until we realize the true nature of things, we will desire to obtain what we may from this roiling sea because we believe that it is worth pursuing, that it will grant us peace, fulfillment, satisfaction, security when the truth is nothing in this place can. We will do everything in our power to root ourselves somewhere in this sea of chaos. We do not believe that we can truly escape it, we do not know, and we do not see the truth of the power that lies within us. Beyond this place is an untouched landscape. Low hills and plains, wetlands filled with water from the sky. The Earth is untouched undefiled. Clean and pure and good. The water falling from the sky allows everything to grow, there is no one or nothing here to despoil it so it increases in plentitude without disturbance. Religions call this Heaven, but it is not a heaven anywhere to be found by anyone of us. It is not to be found by anyone for it is only found by those who truly lose there self. Not to find a new one, for this self does not depend on flesh, bone, blood, soul, or substance. It does not depend on any form we could call human, me or mine, person, people, right. It does not depend on knowing, attaining, consisting, being. When the strength of the sun's rays disperse the morning mist, the mist no longer exists. The sun does, but the mist has not become the sun and the sun is not mist, the two are entirely different things. If we think that we can continue to exist in some heaven forever, we have entirely missed the point. When we see that there is no point whatsoever in clinging to our individual existence and that in fact pursuing such a path is the heart of suffering, we will willfully abandon such clinging. In time, as this realization unfolds, the truth will become ever and ever apparent until the sky has been completely besmirched of clouds. We cannot attain this by clinging to our individuality. Selfishness breeds selfishness until it breeds the selfless light within that leads to the realization of that which is totally beyond this world. 

This power is incomparable, undeniable, and ultimate. It is True when everything is false. It is real and I believe nothing else exists. It is the God of our religions unmasked from ages of struggling to understand. It does not belong to anyone, anything, nor does it reside anywhere that we can find with limited human consciousness. With all this being said, it is here, it is now, it is all. 

Each power that we cling to is an orb in the subtle spiritual sky. All of these orbs make up a vast subtle spiritual universe. Each of these orbs are one point in the infinite blaze that is the power of God. All powers are truly the undivided transcendent God. In truth, there is only one power and it cannot be grasped by our mortal consciousness. This consciousness see things in terms of dualities. To see God, we must look beyond a divided universe. We have to look beyond this way of seeing and understanding, we cannot find it here among these things. It is not in this spectrum of looking, understanding what this means is the trick, finding the edge of what is our mortal consciousness and what is beyond. Easy once you discover it, impossible until you do. This is what we should bend ourselves to achieve. Not to acquire anything here at all, but to see with crystal clarity the distinction between what is real and what is false, so that we may step out of the life that we have that by nature is unfulfilled instead of fruitlessly trying to use what is irrevocably broken to sustain what is infinite. 

What we discover is that God and His nature is abiding. That we do not need to attain it, or even discover it, because His nature is the only nature that permeates all realities. Our mortal existence and it's complexities have no legitimate power, nature, or substance. Everything is the infinitie abiding presence which lies beyond all things. Truly beyond everything. Realizing this, we refrain from striving at the expense of this truth to make gains on Earth. Our human priority becomes Spiritual and our human lives become secondary. It is good to live well, but not necessary. Pursuing personal gain at the expense of the wisdom of the truth of God is deeply flawed and unwise. Pursuing the wisdom of God through the renunciation of worldly pursuits via realization of God is the highest way to attain personal fulfillment on Earth and anywhere in the universe. Such a path is Yoga, is divinely inspired and is the highest good. It is unparalleled. Such is the way of liberation from the limited and confining powers of a mortal universe into the full realization of the infinite transcendent and highest power that is god. It is God's infinite power that frees us from the lessar powers of our mortal universe. His infinite wisdom that clears a path for us. God is a spring of wellness within the heart of our lives and of this universe. A spring of liberating power and wisdom. There truly is no other path and for us human beings, this is the only path to liberation and fulfillment. It is singular. We must become singular so that God may enter us and we may recieve Him. So that we can recieve Wholeness and find completion. All things must come together and unite, this can only lead to one synthesis and one body that is the synthesis of all things. There is only one way in which all these things fit together, a way that we discover is already established and already complete as the transcendent infinite abiding nature that is God. All forms, mortal consciousness, weaving together become this as they penetrate into the abiding field that already is this now. We only believe they are separate, that we need to unite ourselves. God already is, and already is seamless. What is broken, unformed, disparate, is illusory. The seamless body of God only resides in and as the universe. There is no universe apart from it. 

In this way, as the path is clarified and as we intensify our pursuit of Him, we relinquish our aim of succeeding in Him and as Him, for we realize we are Him in that He is already Here Now as This. Clinging to nothing life unfolds before us, one thing no better than another because in God all things are one and alike, illusory forms floating in the Sea that is the Mind of God. God is Infinite and Eternal and nothing can change this. 

Saying this, where do I stand?