Your Privilege

Nature endows all life with a right to the land it inhabits. A right to use it as it will, even at the detriment of other life. This belongs to us, woven amid other Divine thoughts that bind our soul, because Nature wishes us us to make our own way. Nature gives us the power of self determination and creativity  because we deserve it as sons and daughters of the Divine. 

Within each living being burns secretly a Divine Spark of unmatched Virtue, Noblitity, and Worth. These sparks, clothed with many bodies, go out into Nature to discover their true identity and source. God also actively expresses its own nature in this undending exodus of Divine Light. 

Without the power of self-determination the depths of our inner nature remain unavailable to us. Growth eludes us, and with it the possibility of enlightenment and right knowledge. As children of the Divine Nature offers us a place to grow. Even in its most twisted environs, the Divine Spark burns brightly and the Comforting Power of Nature quietly nurses its inhabitants. 

The epic contrast of Light and Dark within Nature and her varied children depends upon their ability to go absuletely anywhere they desire. Our privilege and our right give the Universe its color, fully expressing the Nature of our Infinite Father-Mother-Source.

The deeper we go into the Universe and within ourselves the more we reflect the original nature of our Creator. More than a warring diversity of disparate parts, we exhibit a cohesiveness among our differences, a thoughtfulness and sensitivity, and an intuition of a much greater Unity. Love dominates through gentleness and our identity expands far beyond where we began. 

The power belongs to us and with it our right to this land we inhabit. We may destroy, create, sustain and shape as we will. The land returns what it receives and by this we learn if we wish to continue in our ways. If we want peace, give peace to the land. If we want war, give war to the land. 

Thought the desire to do Good eventually dominates in living souls, this path continues to perpetuate the delusion of the separate self. The upward current of Goodness moves in tandem with the downward current of Evil. They both equally maintain the illusory play of Creation. Interestingly, our consciousness goes beyond this veil and we find our character within Creation ultimately unsatisfying. 

Unsatisfied we drop the mask of our persona, our ego, to cross the threshold into the land of Spirit. 

Happy Halloween

 The soul builds its power alternating between the poles of strength and mercy. Through deep feeling it sifts through the content of its own depths to generate its vision for self realization. By this self-actualizing power it eventually merges with the Divine becoming One with all the Universe. In doing so it releases all of its stored power, manifesting all of its inner nature. The inner power of a seed contains the whole of an ancient tree with roots buried deep in the Earth and its branches extending far out into the Sky. 

This potential within us, within our soul, when actualized, when drawn out and meshed together through the masterful alchemy of yogic circle-seeking activity, perfects our will and our being so that we succeed in our life's path: our destiny. This inner power of latent soul-awareness contains all that we need to succeed. Misguided, seeking power elsewhere, we undoubtedly fail, time and again. The spring of Eternal Life flows within us, within all things, and presents itself to us when we learn how to look within. 

Our spirit seeks the deepest Harmony with all existence, with Nature from its Heavenly heights, to its Earthly roots. The same nature flows within what we call Evil and what we call Good. To find the deepest Peace, the spiritual energies within our inner soul reservoirs must flow out completely, released from the prison of false dichotomies in the human mind. The soul needs to escape from both animalistic hedonism and divorced spiritual puritanism in a natural expression that brings both the Heavens and the Terranic together. The soul easily navigates this new Spiritualized Earth or Grounded Sky finding the same common nature among all things, a nature neither good nor evil, but soulful and true. Until the mind overcomes its search for Good and its exile of Evil, the soul shall remain in the bondage of that mind. A soul must go beyond a world of ideas to fully spread its wings and live. 

The soul lives in a spiritual or spiritualized Universe. Not a Universe divorced from the horror of Darkness, but one that belongs to the horror and the beauty of both Light and Dark. It saddens me how far away this truth lies from our thoroughly lost and distracted society. Yes, we have discovered much, in both mind and feeling, while we actively experience little of this land beyond the dry crust of conceptual thinking and living. In many ways, as we move forward into more liberated thinking and more advanced technology we lose the activated potency of the subtle psychic and higher spiritual dimensions of existence. As we collectively merge in a single planetary society much of our attention shifts towards the material and material mindedness. While no general use of the soul in the recent past (last several thousand years) led to the widespread liberation of many people, it seems like today our society is much more spiritually and psychically dead. The feelings informing these generalizations are so difficult to pin down and accurately describe that I hesitate to write anything about them. It seems that generally our range of experience now only includes a deadened flatland of the conceptual mind. Whereas in the past we knew less, and less about what we knew. we perhaps felt more, or felt more fully because our minds had not yet suffocated our spirit with so many dead ideas. 

Today in many ways we feel much more and much more deeply than past generations, but might find ourselves crippled (and our society) by the psychic weight of a common reality divorced from both body and soul, entombed in the gray and endless shithole thinking of the conceptual mind.

Our personality dies in this miasma of anxiety and speculation. Yet it surrounds us, as does rampant materialism. In our minds, our feelings, our homes, our neighborhoods, our relationships, our society, and our civilization this psychic weight oppresses us. I realize now, much of this deadened tissue comes from upward paralysis: the inability of our species to grow up and shed the conventions of the last age. So much creativity remains stifled. The thought we need to rebuild sits grounded by the active powers of that which no longer serves us. Interestingly if we call this general growth of human civilization a biological occurrence, we currently exist in a typical state of decay quite common to a natural cycle of life. Decay follows activity and regeneration or metamorphosis follows decay or paralysis/dormancy. In this frame, we now experience a beautiful stage of decay between two different points of activity. The exhaustion of one and the simultaneous blossoming of the dormant potential of another. From the outside it looks hideous, from within, marvelous. 

The psychic death our civilization currently experiences opens many doors to new vistas, though largely leaves the conceptual mind in tact for most of society. It revitalizes this and grounds it as our society begins to blossom again. I hear the soul calling us to move even further ahead over the course of the next thousand years as more and more minds reach the gate of death between two worlds. Yet, part of this great death now involves a minority evolving past this lonely door, out of the realm of man, into the realm of Spirit. We listen at the gate and today set stones for the foundations of cities of the future. 

Our Crystal Tribes evolving outside of the general trend of our civilization in pockets of Divine Sunlight that knit together the deeps wounds of our collective psyche. 

Soulll

 The soul animates the Universe. It flows into all things giving them life. Standing behind the form, silently flowing into it. Most feel it much more than they understand it. Seeing it as mine, belonging to the ego, rather than simply soul. While soul individualizes in the manifest world, it all remains the same soul substance or form. Many unique individuals, but the same soul essence flowing through them, all being different reflections of the same spiritual light. 

When the conditioned mind falls away it reveals the life of the soul. It flows like a constant inhale into all life and a constant exhale from its hidden wellspring. It appears to contain both lifeforce and sentient feeling or awareness. These appear to me now as one indivisible form: the flowing waters of the soul. It seems that we experience the soul as feeling and as willpower.

 This makes the soul the creative force of life. Behind all apparent dictation of individual will, the feeling of soul informs all active creation. It flows according to a Universal Pattern, or cosmic structure and a Universal Law: karma. It operates within this pattern and law perfectly, for all Creation falls within it. When I look for a difference between this depiction of soul and the Word, Amen/Om I find none. The Word at least creates as much as this soul force I describe. 

As the soul flows into creation it endlessly feels. As it flows and feels, it lives. As a single entity it remains unconcerned with anything that transpires. It simply wishes to continue to flow, to continue to live and feel as a whole. 

Reaching out into the Ether

 The soul makes its way by reaching out further and further and reaching within itself deeper and deeper. It reaches out and into the ether to manifest the conditions it needs to grow. The weight of its own luminosity compels the ether to obey its will. The soul wishes to expand, to fully manifest its own infinite potential. With its ability to compound energy, the rate that it expands accelerates with the passing of time. 

The soul reaches for God, Eternal Life. It senses that it came from God and wishes to return to that Source. It senses that God contains the answer to all its problems. Above all it wishes to re-unite itself with the Source of its own being, fully merging back into Divinity. The soul also reaching out through the ether to God by the power of its true love and desire for God gains the succor of God that in like reaches back to the soul. 

The soul discovers the Divine through reaching deeper within itself and out into the ether as it seeks to expand its own nature. Eventually it recognizes clearly that its own infinite potential comes from the living manifestation of it: God. So its goal transforms from simply accelerating endlessly to returning to its Source. 

It sees that while it may utilize its great powers to fulfill its own wishes, these may distract it from its greater and greatest purpose of reaching and uniting with God. It senses that intuiting and following This will brings about that end. Intuitively following God's will and sincerely and lovingly reaching out to God accomplish the same task. Loving God wholeheartedly naturally and spontaneously brings us into harmony with His will. To follow Him we must naturally and spontaneously turn our heart to Him. In doing so we make God the object of our will. Continuing in such wisdom the object of our will manifests into our life. 

The soul needs to reach out into the ether and within itself to grow and operate in the Universe. When it makes God the secret desire behind all of its activity it optimizes its ability to succeed and moves most quickly towards its deepest desire: Unity with this loving God. 

Leaving body-mind behind

 Consciousness for most people participates wholly in the shared conceptual narrative of the body-mind experience. From a young age humans learn this conceptual narrative that defines human experience and comes to limit it extensively. Through this structure consciousness evolves and the narrative deepens and widens with increasing complexity and breadth. Yet it remains tied to conceptual imagery, a fragmented understanding with hard limitations. It also remains tied to the dominant experience of the self being an individual body-mind.

This individual believes in this narrative wholly. They fail to see that this identity comes from incomplete powers of processing and understanding. This creates an incomplete picture of the self. The fact that the self image continually evolves and continually contains deep ignorance and uncertainty remains almost entirely overlooked. So deeply imbedded in the mind, so central to all experience, the body-mind self concept at its core never receives conscious examination. Not at least until this concept begins to fracture. 

We fear the death of this body-mind concept, not the actual passing of the indwelling soul from the physical body. We fear the darkness of the terrain enfolding this concept rather than the actual terrain that the superconscious soul inhabits. The soul and its environment remain invisible to us because we fear to leave the habitation of our own mind. We fear to leave the comfort of the illusory security of our conceptually produced body-mind self image, the content of this mind.  Remaining rooted in the mental/conceptual and remaining dominated by the limitations of the perceiving faculties of this domain, the clear perception of the subtle superconscious reality immediately beyond this remains almost completely out of sight and for all intents and purposes, non-existent. This tragedy plagues any society that loses sight of the truly spiritual dimensions of the Universe. 

Truly, we die to our body-mind narrative, and awaken in the birth of our superconscious soul. The soul remains alive through the death of the physical body and the body-mind narrative. The physical body needn't die for the soul to awaken, but the body-mind narrative must. This death marks the transition and evolution of the mental, largely conceptually rooted identity, to the subtle superconscious intuitively driven body. The difficulty of this transition comes from the need in this transition to leave the life dominated and delineated by the mind, the mental, behind for a wholly new body, the subtle superconscious soul. Instead of moving to a new neighborhood, the individual must move to a new planet. The fish must evolve to leave the ocean to walk upon the Earth. Or the chick must make its first move to leave the comforts of the nest for the potential dangers of the open sky.  

These changes merely point to the difference between the mental/physical and subtle/spiritual. The actual difference between these two worlds adds up to being far greater than all of these examples combined. The reality of the soul transcends mental or conceptual understanding. It must be grasped through the intuition, through the psychic intuition. Where subtle energies replace the networks of patchwork images formed by incomplete concepts. Where experience and identity comingle with the living energetic field of ones environment. Where all souls lose the mask of persona and stand naked in the face of karma actively and acutely unfolding everywhere. 

Our whole collection of self-concepts hold no water. They stand precariously on the brink of Death. We cling to these masks out of desperation, not of any vital need. They serve us for a time and then the time comes to take them off and discard them. Let them fall to pieces and turn to dust. Let the wind carry away the dust leaving nothing behind. Nothing except the soft light of the superconscious soul. 

Psychic will

 How do I use my will to psychically affect change? -Through the feelings. Through feeling.

-You feel the Universe with your mind and apply your will to change it 

I would like to apply the spiritual principle to all my psychic will power

- Attune your will to the vibration of the Holy Ghost so that you use your willpower in Harmony with God and the Universe. 

What would I like to do with my will psychically?

- Open my life to receive abundance and move into that abundance. 

How do I do this?

-Through your feeling. Feel out into the universe and sense the possibility of manifesting that abundance

-Lean into that feeling until it begins to grow and the possibility feel more and more likely.

- Find opportunities to lean into this feeling and make decisions that are in alignment with these feelings. 

-Make leaning into these feelings and making decisions in alignment with them second nature and a single effort of mind and will... So as you lean you are applying your will consciously to manifest this reality

-Stay away from things that bring you down

-Avoid them at all costs

- Change your habits to support this positive feelings

- Find things to dwell on that uplift your spirit, then apply your will and thought with positive affirmation towards the end you seek to manifest. 

What is positive that I can dwell on right now?

- I am a being of infinite consciousness and infinite intelligence. I can utilize this intelligence right now to manifest whatever I desire. I make this way with God, for He is the Truth and all Righteousness. 

- I am infinite. I am infinity. I recognize the darkness within myself as an opportunity to utilize my will to become a freeer and happier version of myself. Within the darkness is the potential for Light, for resolution, and new creative possibilities. The darkness is my ally, my friend, not my enemy. 

What do I want?

- The ability to trust my feelings. To trust that they will lead me to deeper happiness and lasting security. That they will lead me to material, mental, and spiritual positive development

- To remain in contact with these positive feelings and to have reoccurring and frequent opportunities to act on them to increase the stability of the positivity and it's power to manifest positive change- abundance in my life. 

- To see the world and the many circumstances I find myself in through a positive light in which I am very capable of navigating

- For life to be a lot easier and friendlier. To be able to enjoy it deeply and cultivate a thoroughly friendly relationship with life. 

- To be at peace and ease. To live in a deep and abiding bliss. To love freely and openly. To give love freely and generously. To help people to awaken to their own inner peace and bliss. To love people. To love with everything within me. 

All doors and all ways open before me. The blue sky shines within each of these passageways so that everything is open and accessible. Everywhere I look I find infinite positive potential to succeed and overcome any fears I have. I am infinite. I am boundless. Nothing can contain my spirit. There is only openness before me. Only Peace. Only God. My life is changing. I am not finite. I am infinite. The world will meet me to provide what I need, to bestow infinite abundance upon me. I am infinite now. I possess infinite abundance now. I possess everything right now. The shell that has contained me is cracking, crumbling apart. The infinite within has broken free and now soars high in the blue sky of Heaven. All doors open before me. The blue expanse opens before me. I am forgetting what it feels like to be a limited being for my infinite soul awakens. I can only move forward into this openness. This openness, this infinity is the substance of everything in my awareness. All around me all of the time. Through this Infinity I pass and into it, through it, I travel. I live in this Open Sky. So that I never truly touch the Earth. Earth and Heaven have become One. This extends into the future and the past, purifying and revivifying them so that all things become open and free. So there is no err and no place to err. 

Only the infinite electric sky. 

The One

 Everything we look at contains everything else both within it, and in the way it appears. Each thing is a manifestation of the whole Universe in a unique and particular way. Because of this, we can learn of many different things simply by looking at one thing. 

Each thing is a manifestation of the One so the same nature runs through everything. In dealing with different things we actually deal with the same thing. The difference is entirely superficial, which is probably hard to believe. Not just superficial, but illusory. From the perspective of the One. The same thing is happening everywhere. The same nature and power unfolds evenly throughout the cosmos. It is the cosmos. 

We don't need to become completely free of identifying with limited form to realize this. There is no need to change anything about our experience or self to realize this. It is already our nature, for we are this One. It is all that is, it is independent of conditioned form. No thing ever really became conditioned. Nothing ever lost its infinite nature. The idea of limited conditioned form simply became dominant in particular areas in the Universe, and that infinite nature felt that it was falling into Darkness. This never actually happened. So we don't have to change, because we are irrevocably Infinite. 

Our mind does not have to change because we are not our mind. We are not our self as we know ourselves to be. We will know our true self when we see that who we are and what all things are is of the same nature, and that nature One and infinite. Here, we and all things are Infinity.  

Here we do not have a self as a self is known. It is like being a person  without a face. A mirror has replaced the face and it simply reflects everything that shines on it. Our personhood is empty of substance. 

Greater than Gold

 Weakness is strength, and strength weakness. 

We seek something that will last. Yet no thing anywhere will last. Not one thing the mind clings to is permanent. Chasing ideas is like chasing water as it runs between your fingers and splashes on the bare earth. You can't pull any substance from them. Even health and enlightenment, wisdom, we cannot possess these things. They are gained through the death of that which possesses if at all. Are we drowning in an excess of external pressure, or an excess of inner restlessness? Is disease caused by the world, or by our own mind? 

What we truly need, we already possess. What we cannot find is already in our hand. 

What if what we are looking forward innately belongs to our very self-nature. What if we already possess the solution to our problems? What if they are already solved? What if the root of the problem is not in the world, but in our state of mind? In the way we are looking? What if we are already perfect? Flawless? What if we are already whole? What if things are exactly as they are supposed to be? What if nothing is out of place? 

There's no where we can go, and nothing we can do to fundamentally improve the Universe as a whole. It is already perfectly One, perfectly expressed, perfectly complete. 

A mentality that depends upon conflicting forces fails to see the reciprocity of opposites. An eternal balance exists between the dualistic expressions of nature. No opposing force exceeds its opposite in virtue. The greatest virtue lies in the balance between the two. With clear eyes the common nature of both opposing forces appears. What appeared as opposition now looks more like a dance. When one realizes this they can position themselves to allow this dance to unfold rather than wasting effort in the vain attempt to manipulate something natural. 

Internally, balance can only be achieved when one positions themself in such a way in regard to the natural relationships between the opposing forces within themself. Not one is greater or lesser than the other. Our societies philosophies and our personal inclinations often keep us from this enlightened attitude. 

Balance is not so much achieved as rediscovered. It is more relational than personal. It is how we relate to the Universe, to all things. 

Apart of this enlightened attitude towards what is dualistic is change in the way we use energy and resources. Instead of building a great storehouse only for ourselves that we can consume at will. We instead refrain from collecting energy solely for ourselves and access energy through the relationships we have with the Universe. We acknowledge that the Universe is a place of constant energy exchange or flow and that we are apart or One with this flow. We open ourselves to this vast network of energetic exchanges as we participate in the diversity of life and our particular personal circumstance, using energy from the whole as it flows to and from us. This philosophy proposes that true security lies in Harmony with the greater Universe rather than being a result of outcompeting it or your surrounding neighbors.  It draws from the Infinite collective pool of Life instead of it's own personal reserves and places the importance and interest of this greater body above its own. 

This perspective becomes valid as the individual themself begins to identify more with what is common between themself and the greater Universe than what is different between their self and the Universe. As this identity shifts so does the nature of that individual: from animal to human to Divine. 

It is very easy to react out of fear and to cling to what we know or believe or instinctually feel is appropriate. This does not make it wise to do so. The longer and more difficult road, though the road that brings you back home, is one of deep introspection and study into the nature of things and of one's own being. Regardless of the difficulty, perseverance in the path is what brings results.  Perseverance through both inclement and favorable weather. That does not yield to time or space, yet continues until the goal has been met. 

The Universe is balanced. It is One an Whole. We are a part of this whole. To such an extent that we are It. All the parts of ourself hold the integrity, the quality, of this Whole. To treat any such part as less than that means forgetting who we are and where we came from. Each part is an expression of the whole. It lives in balance with that whole. It lives in balance with the Universe. 

Our very mind is the One. Our thoughts are the One. Our fear and pain and success and happiness are the One. Already One. Already Whole. No thing to do. No one to become. Remain with Thyself and Thou shalt have Peace. 

Where we are, what is, is infinite. What we do, who we see is infinity. We cannot fail because we have found who we are. The Universe, this, is not finite. It is infinite. We don't see the connection between the good and the bad. We don't see that they are One, that everything is One. We live in a world of lack failing to see a world of infinite abundance. It is not merely infinite in quantity, it is infinite in quality in content. Everything is available right now. Everything is open right now. Everything is perfect, flawless right now. We don't believe it, simply because we don't see it. That doesn't mean it isn't there. Not only is it there, it is the only thing there. I am of this infinite nature. I am infinite. In every way, I am infinite. 

This is my life. This is where I live. This is who I am. 

I am One. I am all. I am free. 

I am One. I am all. I am completely free.

I am One. 

I am One.

I am One. 

This Oneness is infinite. It is Infinity. I am Infinity. 

My consciousness in infinite. I am infinite. This world is infinite. There is only infinity. This nature is my self-nature. There is no limit to what I can do. No limit to what I can achieve. I have infinite power. infinite knowledge, infinite potential.  

My mind is infinite. My body is infinite. I am infinite. Everything we experience is infinity. It is all perfect, flawless, One. Infinity of all directions. Infinity of all kinds. 

Infinity means complete openness. Complete freedom. Perfect Love. Perfect safety. Perfect everything. 

The Soul part I

 It's strange to see perfection at work in the world. Lost in the confusion of the mind we grasp for patterns among turbulent seas of chaos. The perfect order among the chaos, inseparable from it, eludes our perception completely. The perfect order that creates the re-occurring trouble and small victories. That animates the constant fog of ignorance clouding our awareness. It is not at all by chance that these things happen. A supreme intelligence guides every single movement in the cosmos, with perfect awareness and perfect understanding. It knows exactly what will happen and when because it orchestrates and it is the movement. 

We miss this master at work in the weariness, depression, and hypnosis we suffer as beings partially evolved in Spirit. Our task involves cultivating mental understanding an ever expanding personal feeling as humans in this time. Here we live among the scripts of our own thought and our limited feeling forever boxed in by the insurmountable walls of ignorance engulfing our consciousness. We glimpse the edges of the beyond, yet seldom traverse that space in a waking state. The obligations and demands of present society provide a additional set of walls to buffer our experience and awareness. For those destined not to fit in, this mental and material world provides little amusement and often zero inspiration for the soul. It is inescapably flat and we find ourselves grounded and oppressed by the weight of the psychic shackles pressed upon us from birth. The traditional narratives and those expanding outward from the traditional still do little to feed our luminous souls. The mental will always struggle and fail to adequately provide for the subtle nature of the soul, which subsequently will always feel lost until it is found. There is a world outside of the endless conceptions of the mind. One that begins to provide for the infinite unknown inner space of our being. 

When one awakens to the life of the soul, the soul appears in everything. So much of it remains unseen by most. Employed fully in the demands of personal experience the subtle forces surrounding and shaping life do not exist. All the possibility for anything different does not exist. Karma largely controls experience. Outside of the confines of the narrative mind, the conceptual thinking-feeling self, the severe limitations of this prior existence stand out like bars of a cage. Where once before one found comfort they now find a coffin. How could such a life be sustained? How could I ever come to live like that? 

Even though soul remains hidden, it exists aplenty. Even though we experience what feels like less than it, we still experience it. Even though we feel like less than it, we are it. All of creation unfolds according the the Mastery of God's perfect will. Even thousands and millions of years as slowly evolving sparks of Divine Light inhabiting the material universe. 

Awaken Thy Soul Song

 The conceptual mind cuts reality into so many parts. It looks for deeper understanding of these parts as they relate to each other to find meaning and to walk well, This conceptual mind lacks the ability to see the real fluidity of the world that defies the sword cuts of thinking and the sharp edges of conceptions. If you must cut to see, then you break apart something that cannot be seen as it was once broken. The soul awakens here where thought and feeling become Feeling, becoming the life of the soul. 

As good as dry thought cuts wood, living trees have so much more to say. It cuts until it cuts itself to pieces. Not leaving nothing, for the cutting mind builds as it destroys in an attempt finally to build something that will last. Or outlast it. It attempts to understand the world, the Universe. It builds a connection between the mind and the heart until they unify as the single soul that sees directly without cutting, without probing, simply by looking. It does this, and the feeling heart does this so they can go out further and deeper than ever before. They do this because the separation between them was a facade and they both knew they were something greater. The self here recognized the world it identified and digested to be the reflection of something greater, and that it's journey ended not in what it could find in the world, but what cast the shadow that was the world. Looking within itself, cutting and cutting deeper and deeper until it found and formed the reflection itself. It became the reflection and left the world. To go out beyond. 

The world becomes consumed by the mind and that mind dies. The world most know has less dimension that believed. We miss that the narrative of our mind is not reality, the world, but only a description. We lose ourself in the idea of what we know so that what we know is merely an idea. We feel and experience so much more than we consciously understand, but we cannot fit this into our awareness because we depend on notions to perceive and experience. This is the limitation of the thinking mind. It must undo itself to move further along the path of Enlightenment. 

And it does come to an end. The self we know dies and a germ of God awakens. 

In this vast Sea the crying wind tears open my chest. Beneath the shattered bone and torn flesh lies a soft luminous light. Blood spills out into the wind, rain, and sea. Light spills out into everything. Beyond Death. I am born again...

Baptized in the blood of life and the white Light of God I come yet again to sing my song. 

Light and Darkness

 It's been a while. Like a month since I've posted, though I wrote a few unpublished drafts earlier this month. I was really busy with a work project. Overall I have been doing well. I am finding more balance though I still struggle regularly and I am getting a better hold on my ego. My hair is longer. I have been letting it grow for the first time in a couple years. Also I am moving towards vegetarianism. I tried to go nearly completely vegetarian, but my body still wants a moderate amount of meat. So now I am happy to simply eat healthier, more home cooked meals, significantly less sugar, and nearly entirely sober if not sober. I have been sober for at least a year. I had a beer a month ago. It was kind of nice, but the next day I felt like my connection with others suffered. So I don't think I will be drinking that much if at all. I think when I am healthier, it will have less negative effects and i will be able to be more balanced while drinking. Not that I want to a lot. It's just nice to have a beer with a meal and friends when you go out somewhere. I like the taste a lot. But I need to be really careful because my family has a history of substance abuse and alcoholism. 

I have been working on a new schedule and plan going forward over the last month. Since finishing the last  work job, which I didn't really want to do, I have been working less and less, finding myself slowing down with the seasonal changes and become somewhat worried about this. 

Over the summer I had more energy to push out to some extent and I was pretty consistent with work. I have been working through some significant chaos since last Fall around this time. I still don't have the best grip on my energies and my willpower. But I have moved in the right direction in a lot of ways. My partnership with my long term girlfriend is a lot more solid after some difficult spots and is moving in a spiritualizing direction, which was long needed. I have been eating better and gaining a better understanding of what my body needs. I have been meditating a lot more. I feel more mature and steadier even if still somewhat unsteady. Rome wasn't built in a day and neither will be the Kingdom of my life's lasting Harmony. 

I'm realizing more clearly that I can't rush through things to get to Peace, Balance, and Security. You have to deal with the cards you have been dealt, with the way you are and the way the world is. Trying to rush through things, is half avoidance, so half-foolishness and folly. It's very difficult to slow down in an accelerating world. Accelerating in a great part towards increased distraction and insanity. This is the great distraction, to get caught up in this hysteria and forget to listen to our inner being. To forget there are other ways of living and being. 

We can only work with what we have, so the best way to proceed is with as much care and consideration as we can muster. I think above all it is best to remain open to the Spirit, to God, to His guidance and It's blessing. If possible, to restrain ourselves from excess, to concentrate upon the purifying and uplifting power of God as to improve or perfect the ways we behave. There is a limit to our personal ignorance that is erased by our increasing ability to walk upright. There is a way out of suffering, of the chaos of our inner energies and the outer world: the shining star of Spirit located within our own consciousness. 

For those of you who struggle deeply, who suffer immensely, know that there is a way out. Know that God has never left you for a single moment, instead has shared and continues to share in all that you go through and is ever available for comfort and consultation. Freedom exists within your own mind and your own feeling, not outside of yourself, not in any idea, person, or thing. Rather it is the inner Kingdom within your consciousness, within the very heart of your egoic identity, awakened by the superconscious energies of the soul, available to you in this moment. This ground of being extends infinitely in all directions, is ever present and all-knowing. It is your very inmost Self and Being. We possess this power now fully. 

Through God-contact and understanding of the Spiritual Principle and its relationship with material-mortal-egoic consciousness, and with a clear and compelling understanding of the favorability of God-consciousness and the complete unsatisfactory nature of mortal-egoic consciousness, a sentient being or soul may retrace their steps to the inner Kingdom of Spiritual Light, the Fountain and Godhead of Transcendent Immortal Being-Bliss that is and remains Ever-Present and Eternal. 

This hardship is an opportunity to awaken. It illuminates the incredible folly of selfish pride and ignorance born of excess self-indulgence. It clearly establishes that the folly of a people may topple the foundations of their society and the same of others. It clearly identifies the solution as the careful planning and attention born of they who recognize the Spiritual Principle as the root of all personal, social, and material security.  When things go well as they have for many in this country for several generations, it is easy to lose yourself in comforts. It is easy to forget that security is born through vigilance and that actions in the present beget the consequences of the future. Hiding in ourselves, we forget about the struggles of others and of our responsibility to them. We forget about our responsibility to ourself, to be more than an intelligent animal, to be a human soul living with Dignity and seeking our Eternal Home in the Divine. For we are not content here among our comforts, we are increasingly sickened by them, plagued by them. They boil our blood and gouge out our senses. They feed on our life force and destroy our relationships. They will be taken away and we will be left with nothing. For we have not prepared ourselves for what is to come.  

As we move forward into the coming manifestation of Darkness, know that the individual connection with Spirit is paramount. The only solution will come from collecting ourselves in the shared allegiance to this Spiritual Light in communities of Light and Liberty. The more we can do this now, the better we will fare, the less suffering we will all collectively endure. 

In this great Death we all face, is a great opportunity to change ourselves and our communities for the better. Many of us will succeed in utilizing this transformative power, many will not. We will rise from the ashes of widespread destruction and we will rebuild a greater civilization than we have ever known in current memory. We will continue upward and upward over thousand of years in this current ascending arc of mankind.

All the parts of our life fit together

 The outer pieces of our lives are symbolic of inner movements. They are the superficial aspects of dimensions of our inner being. We become attached to outer arrangements, when it is the inner experience that matters. If we look at our lives with our spiritual eye instead of our eye of ego or delusion, we begin to see how each aspect of our life represents part of our soul, where our soul is trying to bring itself together. Each different aspect and each different piece fit together to form a whole that is the sum total of what is meaningful to us. It is the solution of all of what we call life. 

I believe we each have a specific life path to follow and although this can be very meaningful to us, the specificities are superficial. What is most meaningful is what happens to us when we consciously follow that path. Our soul, apparently split apart and divided, becomes One again. I think the best way we can allow this to happen is to see through the surface image and recognize the core structures as they are unfolding. We allow ourselves to be immersed in the image of our human experience, but we let go of attachment to the reality it presents, recognizing the inner awakening that is of principal importance and principal reality. That I believe is the sole reality. Ultimately there is only Spirit dreaming itself being embodied as a human being or soul, which ends up being simply Spirit. As wonderful as the dream may be, it is ultimately, truly, immaterial. 

We discover this and practice it. On the other hand, within samsara, the dream, we practice mindfulness and skillfulness in being a human. To awaken to the deepest spiritual truths, we must master our own nature as a human being. This is the outer expression of spiritual awakening, the surface. Somehow each of our lives is an expression of Spirit and in practicing mindfulness and right action, we contemplate and meditate upon the deepest truths. I think everything we see and experience must be wholly that perfect truth of Spirit. 

Each aspect of our life is equal to the next for the difference between any aspects only exists in our mind. Every aspect must in fact be the same, One. When we treat things differently we are indiscriminate in our judgement. We are deluded in our perception. Neither should we favor nor disfavor anything we encounter, for all parts are truly the same. It is our mind that tells us otherwise. There is one thing happening and One experience. 

Through the practice of Yoga, of yoking all the parts of ourself together, we unlock our inner potential and its reality through the complete mastery of our self and our activity in manifestation. We cannot simply renounce the world and activity outwardly, we must master action and outer activity. We must learn to fully apply ourselves to our reality, to our self and the activity that falls under our responsibility. The combination of action and meditation and contemplation brings about the full fulfillment of human consciousness. We must fully apply the truth in all its mundane and material and personal applications. This is the only way to fully access Truth. 

Perspectives and Feelings

 I'm starting to have more clarity with my feelings, which is why writing this is so easy now. I'm seeing how challenged I have been over the last several years, probably more like 5 years. Or even more like 14. I haven't been in a position to create general peace in my life. I have thought I have been many times, and I have had considerable power to affect desired change, but my heart and head have not really been in the right place. I'm at the point now where I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I find myself in somewhat doubtful circumstances. 

This time around it seems to be moving slower, probably for the best. Because I tend to fuck things up when I get excited...Which is in hind sight kind of hilarious. I believe Merlin is coming back. Oh ya. But not in a hurry to show his Face. I'm noticing more clearly a lot of accumulated sludge in my soul. It's like dirty...and I'm like fuck...it's not going away. But, it is. Just slowly and probably steadily. And I actually kind of like this pace. When it isn't kicking my ass. 

What I'm noticing...

It's not as important to have outer success as I have believed...Reframed- The outer world is merely a reflection of our inner being, is not really real, and doesn't really matter. It is always changing, ephemeral. Being attached to it, does not bring about wellbeing. We should strive for balance while refraining of being overly attached to the results of our actions. What really brings us peace is the relationship we have with our self, and the awakening of our soul. The path of our soul is primary. It is most important that we pay attention to it, regardless of what is happening in our lives. The value of this inner-life is becoming more apparent to me. 

One more detail: Wisdom comes from all of the different parts of ourself. They are like fractured fragments of glass. They all fit together to form the bigger picture that is wisdom and right action. It is through integration of all our feelings, all the parts of ourself that we achieve mastery, not through the dominion of one or more parts over others. This is a key insight into the path of awakening and of the success of an individual within themselves and in the world. Seeing this, perseverance is necessary to push through to greater unity and understanding. Somehow dignity comes from this. Or humility that breeds dignity. Nobility...Somehow it makes us taller. I think because the end goal becomes more clearly in our sight, and we are attuned to it, this gives us virtue and grace. Because we give up more of ourself, much more freely, to get there. And we see with much more sympathy, the same struggle in others, the spirit within that struggle, and our common cause. We draw strength through these connections. In connecting to others and to life in this way, we connect more deeply to Spirit. May the fool in me become more Noble in spirit. 

Feelings and Awakening

 Never underestimate the value of your feelings. Through them we awaken. To grow, our feeling must expand and deepen. As this occurs our ability to process the content in our consciousness increases. The more we process, the sharper our insight and general truth sense. Feelings pass through the content of self-centeredness to selflessness. From initial God-contact to the fullest God-realization. The power of feeling deepens consciousness, expanding life, until it makes this God-contact. 

Through feeling we reach out to the infinite potential of God and draw from it to supercharge our consciousness. This liberates consciousness from sense bound awareness, from the suffering of mortal consciousness into the transcendent and infinite consciousness of God. Not expanding to God, the ego dissolves as soulful God-consciousness awakens. Not I, but the supreme I. Fully manifest Self. 

The world with all its obstacles transforms into an interactive embodied play of our own consciousness. We realize these obstacles come from our mind, from our karma, and instead of overcoming an external force through competition, to overcome these obstacles, we must realize the solution to unravel them that exists within our own consciousness. Ignorance, not external enemies keeps our success and wellbeing at bay. 

Through feeling we come to love God. By this love alone the load of negative karma lessens. It draws God's grace and mercy that free our soul. Through our relationship with God we awaken to liberated consciousness. 

God directs all activity in manifestation. When we yoke ourselves to Him, we let go of the resistance of egoic willfulness that generates darkness in one's consciousness, and in doing so, awaken to the Perfect and Infinite Will of God. Yoked to God, sharing our consciousness with His, we live in accordance with this Will and by it we receive Divine Blessings. His Will perfectly embodies Wisdom and Virtue. It perfectly embodies the uplifting principle of Spirit: pure positivity itself. Pure positivity goes hand in hand with perfect harmony, so when we yoke ourselves to His Will, to Him, we embody this uplifting  principle within ourself. 

The practice of yoga-God Communion establishes this principle as the centerpiece of our consciousness where its uplifting power naturally corrects our habits and attitudes freeing our soul and life from all forms of disease and disorder. We must feel God to know Him, and through our feeling persist in knowing Him. 

Through the feeling of our soul we learn of the Lord God and  of His Perfect Spirit. By this Spirit, we attain God-consciousness so that our consciousness dwells in Heaven even while our body appears on Earth. Through feeling or soul-intuition we come to know His Divine Will for us in our Earthly incarnation. We come to know what He wishes us to do with our lives and by living in accordance with this Divine Plan we are freed from evil while here on Earth. For only One perfect way exists through the miasma of Earthly consciousness. 

His is a way of Love. Of unconditional love and unconditional surrender in the Bliss of God-soul union, Self-Realiztion. It is a way of Wisdom, Virtue, Excellence, and Indomitability. It says, "I know I am Infinite, and I will not yield to any delusion of maya." I am the Supreme Soul, the Infinite Spirit. I am One and All. There is no other...

We are One with Him. Through feeling we awaken to this ultimate realization. Through communion with Him we gain conviction in what is true and by persisting in this conviction, in these feelings of soul and God and God-consciousness, we attain the Highest Goal. Ever-subtler, ever-deeper, until not one floating mote of dust exists between Thyself and the Lord. 

Beauty in this World in the face of Epochal Upheaval

 I think what is beautiful in this world is how open so many things are becoming. With this world and this age I see so many possibilities. It just feels like the Universe is opening up to us Terrans. I just think its wonderful to participate in this. It's not by any means perfect, but it is awakening, we are awakening, to deeper human potentials. I think how are hearts and our souls are changing, how they can change, despite all the conditioning that tries to keep them collapsed in a smaller space. To me it feels like the soul of the world is awakening despite all the shit that is happening on the surface. It just doesn't care. It is going to change. We are going to change. We just don't understand how far we will go over the next several hundred years. It's so beautiful, we are so beautiful. It's also sad and terrifying that things don't stay the same...It can be difficult to keep up with the change, disorienting. But I think our heart is at the center of it, our big beautiful world soul :) We have been waiting for this for so long. Working toward it for so many years. And it's all Divine Light guiding our way, guiding us forward, as we move out into new terrain, it is God and awakening God consciousness, our consciousness reaching for the infinite, the soul seeking Light Eternal. 

I just can't believe this is happening in my lifetime. It's insane. Yet here I am, here we all are. On the same planet, in the same Universe. It's fucking crazy. I just want to fully embody, it, this dramatic change coming to our planet and our civilization. I want to carry it like a flaming torch into the future. Because we are going, one way or another, this is our destiny, happening right now. 

We are awakening soul. We are awakening Light. We are Infinity. We are the manifest Transcendent. I pray that you all awaken deeply to your inmost being and self. Change is upon us, before us.  

Waking Up

 The Spirit awaits those who die. It offers a second life. It opens the vault of Heaven to a Universe of infinite possibility. Where we continue to learn and grow and change. This possibility exists within us in each moment. To face our death and pass into it. To pass into it and go beyond it. Here, our eye is open and we see a whole new world. Our spirit has awakened. We must answer the call of our spirit to live in this world. We must do what it asks of us. We must do so if we wish to be wide awake. 

When we wake up we live a radically different life. It may not appear so on the outside. It may also be a very similar experience in many way to what others typically experience. The difference is that one person is awake, and another is not. 

We wake up to Spirit. We see that our spirit is Spirit. We know that everything is really Spirit. It is both the most obvious thing and the most subtle and imperceptible until you see it. 

I don't think it happens the same way for everyone. When I woke up, I was 19 years old and it hit me like lightening. I didn't fully know what happened to me. In an instant my reality had fundamentally and permanently shifted. I had a brief period of clarity that lasted for perhaps a week in which I discovered and knew with exact insight that this clarity would pass and I would fall into a kind of semi-darkness as all the unplayed parts of my life continued to play out. Though they would pass now like train cars falling one by one off a broken track into the abyss. I would come back to this clarity after my life had played out apparently decades in the future. I'm not fully sure what the extent of that life was. I don't think I have reached the end though. The train cars of my life continue to plunge of the track as deeper and deeper parts of my self peel away in the light of awakening. What I can see now is that I am awake, and I have been awake since that moment. 

I think waking up occurs when that deepest part of ourself stirs and awakens. What's peculiar is that this may not mean we have fully realized every part of our self. It just means we know ourself as Self. We still have much more to do and become we just know it is all completely an illusion at its core as the world passes before our awakened consciousness. 

Nothing that has happened to me is as significant as this, and I don't think anything else will be. I also cannot put into words the experience I have had since I have awakened, nor how meaningful to me it has been. 

The Ego v.s. The Soul and...Fulfillment in Infinity

I've been going in and out of soulful consciousness. I notice how the ego has an agenda when it is in control. It attempts to control things to benefit itself, to gain what it believes is good. When my soul awakens, it becomes clear that this is foolish. Wisdom comes from listening to the soul and giving it space to blossom. The ego is attached to things being a certain way, it manipulates the universe to maintain these conditions, or to acquire them. The soul reaches for deeper Peace and harmony with the Universe. It has faith in the power of Peace and in the promise of providence that comes through pacifying our consciousness and our self. We pacify our consciousness in the vibrations of God. 

The Soul has different values than the ego. The ego wants to perpetuate itself. It wants to attain immortality. It will burn anything to achieve this. The soul is transcendent of the material world and is more concerned about its relationship with the Universe or God than in maintaining the life of the material body or of the ego identity. It sees the life within life, the spiritual life existing within the superficial layer of what appears to be a divided universe. The soul sees this inner reality as paramount, while the ego doesn't. The surface is the ego's only reality. 

Awakening to the soul drastically changes our values and our outlook. It becomes clear that rushing to attain an end is reckless. It is most important that we stay connected to ourselves as we move forward. The pace is not important, the connection and way we operate are. The most important thing is that we are connected to our soul, to God, this is what we value most. We cannot advance if we do not have this connection and if we do not put it first. It doesn't even matter where we end up, it only matters that we are awake to our soul and to God. 

The soul does not value the superficiality of the ego identity. It becomes sick of this identity, this shell or old skin and it wishes to die to it, or to cast it off. The ego gets in the way of the soul being the soul, the soul connecting to the Infinite. The ego tries to burn whatever it can to find God, yet it mistakes every kind of thing for God. It is looking for the infinite in the finite. As soon as God is discovered, the ego no longer is the ego, it dies and there is soul. I can tell you with perfect confidence that the ego cannot be maintained permanently on the path of God-Realization. We only wish to perpetuate it because we believe in it, and what is seen through it's eyes. We value this because we do not understand clearly enough the nature of the ego, the nature of the soul, and the nature of God. 

When we have sufficient realization, we will find God infinitely more valuable than the temporary pleasures of the ego. Infinitely more valuable, and infinitely more a necessity for our wellbeing. The emptiness of the ego becomes more apparent, it's inability to satisfy us and the crudeness and meanness of its character. What is infinite is indescribably satisfying and wonderful. The ego is like dog shit compared to ice cream. 

What's more is that the soul and God fulfill the self when the ego eternally falls short of the mark. This alone is reason to abandon the ego and take up the soul. The soul is where we are going, where we would like to get to, the ego cannot take us there, in the end it becomes clear it is merely a devilish trickster, a distraction from our true purpose and aim, our only real aim in life. We gave eternity and infinity with the soul, we have scraps and hell with the ego. 

We look for Infinity, yet most of us do not dare admit this openly. For we are so lost, the thought of this makes us feel terribly insufficient and lonesome. Truly, all we want is God, yet we have no idea how to get there. We have no idea what that means. Most of us are so utterly lost, so hopelessly lost. We have forgotten that that's what we really wanted so lost are we in time and space. 

The ego is what we get, what we aspire to, when we have lost our way, when we have forgotten God and the soul within that connects to Him. It truly is the way of the Hungry Ghost, or the Angry Titan, the Enflamed Demon. 

Interestingly, these are too expressions of the Soul. Equally Infinite even in their lowness. We simply do not experience them in this way. The are the experience of incredible lack within the Universe of Infinity. I think they may too be beautiful and noble. Perhaps even wonderful. They are expressions and manifestations of Spirit. I think they are beautiful. Incredibly beautiful. That they would come into being, so that life would be all that more interesting. So that what is temporary could be so infinitely moving, touching. 

The Spirit is incredible, marvelous. He created this world, that is so horrible until you awaken from it. Then it becomes so Perfect and beautiful. It is sublime. 

Tracking

 It seems like I'm in between worldly and established soul-consciousness. It's kind of a slog, but I feel like my head is starting to pop through on the other side. I've been seeing egoic-worldly consciousness very clearly. Seeing how it is rooted in my subtle body. Seeing on this level helps to consciously be able to detach myself from it. Instead of trying to handle a vague sense of the ego in the mind, I am beginning to see how it forms in the mind and then is embodied when we act upon it. It first creates tension or disturbance in the mind and feelings, then if we act upon it, it creates tension in our whole body. We essentially become possessed by it. The breath becomes restless and conscious awareness falls into darkness. It is being possessed by the madness of desire for sensory gratification. It completely disrupts clear thinking and ethical judgement. 

Where I've found myself, I don't have the levity to move completely out of it into sustained Peace. So I'm left playing a game of give and take, attempting to move in the direction of Peace. This is often considerably frustrating and agitating. I'm learning that it is only my ego that feels this way, and it is apart of the problem. I don't need to get there. What I am is not what I want. I am not my ego, I am, at this point, the superconscious soul or witness. The determined effort for me to get there is wholly rooted in ego and is or appears at this point to be for lack of a better word, evil. Evil, not as something to be held in deep contempt, but something that by its very nature creates suffering and trouble. Evil is evil because this is it's only nature. This is all that it is, or does. So this is why we call evil, evil and why I call the ego evil. When you look at it clearly, it really just pulls you down and makes you suffer. Its a fucking demon. 

I have a lot more ego than I anticipated. So I have to root it out more deeply than I thought. So I am learning this and working on it instead of being well established in Peace. You can't just power through to Peace. You have to really wake up the superconscious soul or Witness and move beyond ordinary striving. The ego is saying fuck you the whole time too. It doesn't want to leave. The soul awakens, and we form a new dance with the Universe. We open up to the subtle flow of things occurring underneath what most perceive as the concrete material reality. Apart of this new dance is the development of our conscious communion with the Divine or Spirit or God. There seems to be a Divine Plan behind our lives and the process of our awakening soul-consciousness. It is essential that we work with this Agency, this Process, in our efforts of awakening. For it truly is the Master that we become when we first acknowledge it, and then yoke ourselves to it. It is this special relationship at the center of every soul's spiritual awakening. This is paramount. Truly it is everything. 

I think it's important for me to remember that that Peace is still here. Even if I can't live fully from it, it is here. Even if I don't see it, this is it. The Way is here, and it is open. It is available. Accessible. Things aren't as bad as they look. I think a lot of that is my mood, not what is. Not who I really am, nor how I wish to be in this moment. We dwell in Infinity now. We always do, even when we're fucked up. 

This is because we are not really fucked up. This is an illusion. In a way, it can't be. All the fucked up things that happen to us, they also open us up, they help us to see. They are equally God happening to us a much as the good stuff. It's all good, it's all the same. So, things aren't fucked up, they are ok. This isn't real, it is a dream. 

All of this is just our expanding mind, our expanding consciousness, operating on unchanging Universal Law. I think if we can take a step back from it all, we can see how things are being created by mind, by thought, and with wisdom, we let go of what goes against that law. We see how Peace exists within what is Good, and that we are free. We are awake and One and Whole. 

What if we are not broken? What if we are not struggling? What if there is nothing wrong with anything?

We can't fully overcome negativity through resistance. We have to reframe our outlook to see that negativity as part of the whole. Yet also through resistance, Peace is born. Peace will break free. There is no division between Good and Evil. They are one. In them there is no good or evil, simply the One. Resistance occurs when we are at war with our self. When we fully accept our self, there is no room for resistance, there is no war, there is only Peace. Peace is alive in the present moment. It is eternally awake now. No good, no evil, no war, only my self. 

Sorry for any confusion this essay may bring. I believe I am dealing with two separate areas of development in my self. One I believe is moving from ego to soul or Witness, where there is a clear distinction between Good and Evil, right and wrong. The other is moving from the Dominion of Presence where good is in charge, though still at odds with evil, to the Already Existent Fully Established Oneness, the Perfect Form and Reflection of the Unmanifest Formlessness. 

I don't fully understand the interplay of these two developments so my descriptive language is imperfect and I believe I often confuse fundamental structure with each other in my writings. I'm not even sure if I've correctly identified the two areas of development I listed above. They appear so similar at times that I go back and forth thinking they are the same and then that they are different. 

The Witness: Disidentifying with the body-mind

 This is something I have been experiencing over the last couple months. It is changing my perspective about myself a lot. I think I have identified heavily with achieving lasting personal success, including my spiritual goals and I'm seeing now how rooted in ego identification this is. 

Wanting to continue in that way makes me feel sick now. I think I was so infatuated with desire that I wasn't able to see or value what lies beyond it. It's strange how hollow that ambition is. We become so insane for something that does not bring us peace or fulfillment. Yet we hold on so tight that we can't let go. It seems like most of this is do to the inertia of our society and the way we are conditioned as we grow up and beyond. We are taught something inane and it is all anyone knows so it is taken as common sense when it in fact imprisons us in hell. It is just bizarre how ignorant society can be and how different this is from the truth. 

It's strange to see so many people blindly pursuing egoic satisfaction with little to know real understanding of Truth. This loses its weirdness when it becomes clear that there is no they or them. There is ever expanding and evolving consciousness that takes the form of embodied souls or beings. And truly there is only Consciousness. There are no people and there is no self. Or there is only Self. All of what we call this world is maya or illusion. It is unreal. Lol. 

The fulfillment of our little self is its lasting success, but in it's upward dissolution eventually into pure consciousness. The Witness state is the middle of the way between identification with the ego and pure consciousness. It becomes very clear here how transient our world is and how much it is not who we are. It has considerable power to pull us deeper into ourselves going much further than we probably imagined. 

One thing I am curious about is how this state relates to the soul, to Amen, and the path of the shaman or yogi.  I think the Witness is the soul...The awakening of the soul and its superconscious energies. I'm not quite sure how it relates to Amen though. Amen as the lower form of the Trinity of God.  I experience Amen as Peace...It seems that contact with Amen is the catalyst that awakens the superconscious soul, the Witness. 

In my experience this Peace is distinct from the Pure Witness. This Peace leads deeper into itself and I think eventually to Christ Consciousness. I am wondering what happens to the Witness as it deepens. Is it apart of the path of Peace to Christ and beyond, or is it a separate line of development? Does the Witness merge with Peace to form basic Oneness? I'm really not sure. It kind of seems like both of them develop in tandem. 

I think I can use the witness to be less moved by negativity in my life that I don't have control over. I don't have to fight as much, I think I can just let it pass. 

You don't grow just cause you want to

 I had a week where things didn't go as well as I would have liked. I think I wanted more progress than I got. When I sat down about an hour ago I thought about how spiritual growth doesn't come for free, it comes due to the energy that goes into it, that we cannot force into it. As much as we may wish to end all our habits that create suffering, this most likely won't happen over night. Peace comes through peace, not through our aggravation at the conditions of our life. This peace and path is a cooperative one where we learn to work with life and the transrational path of spiritual awakening. And honestly, sometimes the door is open, and sometimes, maybe most of the time, it is not.  

So maybe while we're learning, we just have to wait for things to mellow out, doing our best to get through with as much dignity still intact as possible. Learning to  keep a look out for opportunities to do some good, or make some progress, strengthening our connection with the uplifting power of Spirit. 

I'm learning more about the grace of God or Spirit that comes out to us who are or may be ready to leave the world, the world of matter bound consciousness, behind. I think in this grace we can find our calling by intuitively listening to what it asks of us. I truly think we can find our singular divine purpose here. Which synonymously is our way and path of awakening. I think perhaps God and our soul have a plan for us. 

Hearing this grace is like hearing a chorus of angels with our inner intuitive ear. It doesn't have to be an intense mind altering experience. It can be profound in the force of the truth that comes to us. In the clarity and purity of it's message. A Truth among truths. 

As much as we'd like to make this happen for ourselves, we cannot do it alone. It comes through the angelic bond we consciously form with our own soul and between our soul and the Universe, and within it at its center, God. 

I don't think we enter Heaven without being humbled, because we are not as great as we may think or believe we can be. Not our egos. They are truly nothing. The way upwards only comes through the surrender of these egos, and the Divine support, grace, of what is transcendent and of Perfect Love. The way is His, as much as it is Ours. 

The Whole Banana

 The Infinite whole exists in this moment. This is it. Everything is it, it is everything. Nothing can add to it or take away from it. It is One, complete and whole. It is things exactly as they are. It does not require perfect peace or perfect disposition. It includes all the flaws of the Universe. Perfection is things as they are, not how they could be. The whole is imminent, manifest. It abides. 

It contains all change, all transformation, and as all it changes without changing. It is the nonduality of stillness and movement. It changes endlessly without changing at all. What a beautiful light. 

Here, we have no where left to go, nothing left to do. We have arrived. We are home. It is exactly where we are. Always where we are, it is all that is. The door opened and we entered. 

We have infinity in this moment. We have always possessed it, as it always has possessed us. There is nothing we can improve on. For perfection already exists. We are perfect in it. Perfect and fully formed. I am perfect, and I am fully formed. Perfect as I am. 

The Universe is Perfect. It is One, and it is Whole. What exists is perfection, it is what has always existed. Perfectly existent. Perfectly present. Perfectly formed. We are whole, we are One. Oneness. 

Release from egoic identification

 What an ego dominated consciousness does not understand, is that the desire of the ego unequivocally produces enslaved and tortured consciousness.  As individuals we wish to have all the fruits of the ego, without all the barbs, all of the terror and suffering. We wish and delude ourselves, we wish and delude ourselves, we wish and delude ourselves...and we continually suffer immensely, never attaining what we wish for. We are never satisfied by our ego. We are continually dissatisfied by it. Until we become disenchanted and until we clearly understand how consciousness becomes ensnared by it, we will continue in this way. 

What we don't understand about our soul is that it's basic form is completely different from the ego. It is free of the warlike striving of the ego. It is free of egoic consciousness. The ego doesn't understand this, only the soul can understand this. We don't understand how we are not a we. We are not ourselves, we are simply soul. Our understanding of who I am is severely limited and incorrect. We are not conditioned beings. We are unconditioned awareness. We don't understand the fullness of the limit that we are not who we call ourself, to the point that we are not an ourself. There is no Jake, no Rebecca, no Sergio. We don't understand how deeply and fully spiritual awakening dissolves our identity and reshapes it as something completely different. We don't understand how unsatisfactory is the world and how uniquely and singularly satisfying is God. We don't understand how everything we perceive is unreal except the reality of God. We don't understand how everything, everything is God. To the point that there is only God. 

We don't understand this until we deeply die to what we call our self. Until the world crumbles before our eyes in our inner awareness as it becomes our only awareness. The path is not what we believe it to be. It does not go where we expect it to go. Yet part of us is familiar with what does happen, with what does change. It is this part that becomes stronger the further we go along. That slowly becomes the dominant aspect of our being. What we claim to know and love is a facade. Who we really are is far beyond disturbing. 

When the soul awakens, we renounce the world, because it begins to disappear. This is not a dramatic or heroic personal choice, but the reality of worldly consciousness dissolving in our awareness. It is the choice of someone who recognizes profoundly the unsatisfactory nature of typical human consciousness, the mentally disturbed, physically ill and endlessly suffering conditioned ego. Someone who recognizes the wisdom of spiritual release through soul awakening. Someone who is at the threshold of this change and is capable of passing into it. Someone who knows that without inner peace, what is the point of life? 

Taking a step back

 Progress on the spiritual path is unnecessary and nothing to be attached to. All positive states are equally as undesirable as neutral or negative ones. We should seek righteousness and skillfulness while learning to detach ourselves from identifying with them. Our attachment, desire for, or personal identification with positive states can be a great obstacle from reaching them and perceiving truth. Our personal identification with the condition of the body or mind perpetuates ensnaring karma. All identification with conditioned states perpetuates dukkha or conditioned awareness. 

What's strange is that in the sense that most of us know, there is no us that is saved by spiritual effort or grace. You could say that the soul is saved, or even our soul is saved, but this is the witnessing within us, not really the us that is the conditioned being which is identified with numerous conditioned states. The consciousness of the witness or the soul is released from conditioned awareness and then I believe it too passes as the dominant center of awareness. 

The awakening witness within has the power to release awareness from identification with transitory states. This isn't a numbing or a psychological disassociation with parts of self that are identified with conditioned states, it is rather an internalization of consciousness that results as the natural passing or death of the conditioned mind. It is a deepening or maturing of the general structure of consciousness rather than a lateral movement in the range of the typical egoic conditioned mind. 

This also expands rather than eliminates personal experience. It opens the personal to the transcendental, to the infinite, with it's inexplicable variety. It deepens the personal to the depth of the intimacy of the soul, the petal like softness of the witness, and beyond. While the personal appears to be simplified in this general movement, and is, it equally becomes something vastly more complex and subtle. This deepening speaks of the maturity of being, what we can note as our being if we do so wisely. No loss of feeling occurs. How we feel changes, and our total feeling takes on subtlety, depth and greater intensity. 

This release marks the end of what we knew, not the end of who we are. It means the fulfillment we deeply desire, yet find impossible to communicate, to directly know. In knowing, in communicating this with our self, we do experience death. In death, we go beyond, remaining alive in a way we forgot about. A way we keep without seeing, that in its own way died when our ego began to dominate our awareness. 

So in a way taking a step we take a step forward. 

The Door is always open to Him

I shall carry this pain for Thee if Thou asks it of me. I shall bear this burden because I love Thee. I know Thou art great and what Thou would have us do is Good, therefore I trust Thee and believe in all that Thou art. 

Give us the strength to welcome Thee into our hearts, that we may know Thee and all that Thou art. Thou art the Lord God. Thou art Infinite and One. We are wholly free in this, what Thou art. May all welcome Thee, Lord God Infinite One. May we welcome Thee and be with Thee forever. 

I am not broken, I am whole. In the Lord, I am One. I am One and Whole. I am Peace. There is not but Thee and the perfection of Thy being, which is Infinite and Radiant. 

Oh Blessed Peace Father of all

I am not any of these things, nor these thoughts. I am the radiant soul which is One with God. I am none of these fears, or these likes. I have them, but they are not who I am. I am infinite and eternal. I am beyond all conditioned form. I am Supreme Spirit. 

One must change their mind before they can change their life. If they try to change their life with the same underlying mentality, they will recreate the same conditions they are trying to change. In order to change one's mind, one must recognize the pattern of their thoughts clearly so they can step outside of them. In doing so, one must become a different person. One must recreate themself. Truly be someone different. 

One can only change when they are ready to change. If one truly at their core wishes to change. Otherwise one merely flirts with change. 

If one changes, the Universe must change as well. It must become different. As different as the person is different. One must not merely change themself, but the whole Universe as well. For one and their mind are not separate from the Universe, they are One with it. 

I am no longer myself. The Universe is no longer itself. Some things grow and some things die. I am the Living Death of all things. I do not have to continue doing things the same way, nor do I wish to. The death of the creature will brings forth the life of the soul. 

Change comes from Darkness as much as it comes from Light. It is bred in Darkness, in the shadows of our self. As it matures it takes on form and becomes known. What will come has from in the Unknown. All that will be dwells there. 

The Mastery of oneself also lies in the Darkness. The Master is the Union of what is Good and Evil within ourself. Or what is accepted and what is taboo. One's self concept must perish for this to occur. 

This Doom is carried on the wind. It hits us like hammers hitting stone as the foundations of our being split apart. This Power of Death exists within us. It is what allows us to keep on living. That we are dead allows us to have life. 

The death of our old self allows our new self to rise. Imagine there are new pathways waiting for your conscious attention. Imagine a world waiting for you to enter it. A world next to this one. Imagine that change is possible there. Possible and happening all the time. Imagine we are no longer the person we call ourself. That person has passed and is now foreign to us. We now are someone new and much more familiar. Imagine that the world we know, no longer exists, and is inaccessible. Imagine that a door to this new world is open and we have already walked through it. We already experience this new world, we live there now. It is in fact the world we are in. Imagine we are different and we can never be who we were before. Imagine there is no going back. Imagine that we really don't wish to. 

I am not who I used to be. I am no longer myself. I am someone different. These words are enough to crystalize the change. They fill the can to the brim and now it can be sealed. It is sealed and it is shelved. The process is complete. 

I look out and see a world that is both completely strange and completely familiar. I feel at home here. I am not bothered by what happens here. I am not bothered by anything at all. In this place I see how the same force makes everything occur and that the same unchanging principles govern this force. This force ultimately allows us to see and to awaken. For this it is Good, although a strange kind of goodness. But this strangeness does not both me, I rather like it actually. I find what is strange and peculiar fascinating. The force that moves things, moves me as well. It is soothing and rewarding. I have great purpose here, even though it is often vaguely known. I can see that what I do matters. I am apart of the unfolding of this great teaching. Here I am allowed to truly be myself. This is a great relief. I am no longer worried about what others may think of what I do. I am unconcerned with the world. it will always be the world. It will always be what it is. However it is, I am in it, but not a part of it. 

I don't know what will happen and I now realize this is the most exciting prospect that could occur. I truly live in a world of unending possibility, of unlimited potential. I am apart of what is Infinite and this is deeply satisfying. Above all, I feel free, truly free and truly alive even though I have recently died. 

The Power of Faith and Belief

Can I get a Amen? Amen!!! Thanks guys, you rock!! You're the best. No, You're the best!!

It is very very easy to lose sight of what's good. And become a Debbie downer. I often forget the invaluability of a wholesome positive outlook. We have got to go with God, and it is very very simple. When we fight this simple way, we stab ourselves in the back. We can't get ahead by going around it. We have to accept it, because it works. It is also good. It's hard to see it because our minds are so busy and full of so much trash. It is necessary to simplify our minds, and reciprocally, our lives to bring the peace of simple faith back into the center. This means not giving into fear and doubt, yet allowing room for fear and doubt, trusting that the good will prevail. This becomes more difficult as things outwardly look more and more like dog doo doo. But, this is the whole point of the practice and of faith. It's not how things appear, but how things are within you. I think if we break this covenant with ourselves and the universe, we're pretty much screwed. Not like disaster screwed, but like things won't work out well in general for us. We won't be soul-centered. 

We cultivate this through our relationship with Amen. We look to it, and it reflects what is on our mind. It amplifies it. When we look to it with peace and revelation, it will show us amplified peace and revelation. It is the door maker and way maker. 

The deepest desire of our soul is to merge with Amen, becoming it. This is what frees and fulfills it. Our soul is truly Amen trying to awaken, to remember its fullest self. Merging with Amen frees us from negative habits that produce ignorance and enslaving trouble. 

Cultivating a simple positive outlook and faith in the inner goodness of things builds an inner inertia of positive energy. This is possible when we remain open despite outward circumstances. When we hold onto our integrity even though common sense may say to step down. With worldly eyes we act the fool, while our soul says otherwise. Its says there are deeper laws at play, deeper forces. It says having faith is the ultimate power to keep the evil at bay and to produce positive results. It says what is unseen with our physical senses is very real, in fact more real than the world of matter. It says this unseen realm dictates what happens on the material. 

There is blind faith when you take someone else's word, and there is blind faith where you close your eyes to the world so you can see the world within. The eye of our inner world, the soul, follows the wisdom of the source of all things, follows its laws, which operate on the exacting law of karma. It knows that the superiority of Spirit is absolute and knows this is the way to emancipation from darkness. Thus it operates on the principle of self-sacrifice (sacrificing one's mortal will and psyche) through faith in the wisdom of the Infinite and it's ultimate supreme identity with it to make it's journey towards that ultimate goal. 

When we compete to gain we always strain against the world and the universe. Through faith, the soul opens doors to infinite potential, infinite energy. It harmonizes all its energies with all the energies of the Kosmos to attain miraculous summoning power. It is truly unbelievable what it accomplishes, especially coming from a long history of ignorance and severely limited human potential. 

With the soul, through faith, we tap into the power of God. Truly. With faith it is sustained because we are not using it for selfish purposes that have the power to destroy ourself, but through self-sacrifice for the release of Truth and establishment of Good in the Universe. 

It is awesome and incredible when one begins to clearly see the capacity of the soul. The fierceness of its spiritual blaze and intent to manifest the truth and the good where it has been forgotten. Its purity also inspires. The potential of levity it can deliver, of release from the heaviness of this world is truly Angelic. We get so accustomed to unmitigated grief and muddled experience, the reality of something of Light and Purity mystifies us. Yet it is there, eternally there, within our experience, manifested more readily in astral dimensions and beyond where the Will of God and His Spirit are tangible parameters. 

It is very difficult for most to break through to this inner Heaven, yet it does exist. And it is the power of faith also may make this so on our own planet. 

The Transformative Power of Faith

When we connect to the infinite potential of our soul through a higher faith, we unleash incredible transformative power. Through the soul's intuition and its ability to harness the omnipotent Amen our capability is boundless. The act of faith in the deeper spiritual nature of self and universe taps one into the power of that spirit and opens one's senses and abilities to the psychic nature of the soul.  

Faith based power through Amen and psychic soul intuition works so well because this type of will power is constructive and compounding. Unlike the mortal will, it does not depend on consuming resources or energies. Instead, at it's core it combines them together into a self-sustaining, self-expanding matrix of energy. Instead of operating by the need to increase resistance to gain power, it actually decreases resistance and gains power by increasing the levity of one's being. Instead of forcing life to work for it,  it harmonizes itself with life and generates success through deepening the harmony of the environment it exists within. Instead of exuding competitive force, it exudes levity. 

The energy matrix of the soul is able to compound itself like one's money in a bank because it operates through its intuitive connection with the Infinite Amen. Through this connection, its growth accelerates towards infinity and instead of burning more, the greater it becomes and the further it goes along this path, it actually burns less as it produces more. It is a star in the ether burning brighter due to its own purity. 

The expanding matrix of energies awakens the spiritual spinal centers of our subtle body. It is the lack of flow and the lack of harmonious operation of these centers that leads to every sort of trouble and malady available to humankind. The awakening of these energies and centers through communion with the Infinite Amen naturally harmonizes them, eliminating elements that produce negative karmic currents and stimulating and accelerating the activity of positive karmic currents. This works because our soul, a spark of the Divine, in constant communion with the Divine, possesses omnipotent perception. As it awakens, so does its omnipotent intuitive ability to psychically and instantly affect the Universe to produce positive outcomes for itself and all that it comes into contact with. This power is generated through the synergistic intelligence, will, and power of the awakening subtle energy centers.

So when one has the right idea about faith and soul, a lot can happen that previously was impossible. Ironically, it is actually the ceasing of thinking about oneself that leads to the greatest positive transformation of oneself. The selfish or worldly desire to help oneself, however constructive this may appear, keeps one in a state of competition and resistance against the world, which prevents the Peace of soul awakening from liberating one's consciousness from states that produce ignorance and disease. 

This great transformation  often takes us to places we did not want or expect to go because in soul awakening we go beyond our ordinary desires and expectations, where perhaps what we didn't want is exactly what we need. We often can have the greatest growth in that direction towards what we dislike, finding a vastness of uplifting freedom in that void. For in the darkness of all our dislikes, lies the same infinite Light and awareness, intelligence and understanding that exists in what we perceive as desirable and beneficial. 

We may never reach our destination, or attain all that we hope for, yet our soul may expand nonetheless. For as the soul awakens, it is not what we gain in this world, but how deeply we awaken within ourselves. When our world becomes our inner world and their is no difference between what exist outside and within, we will know Peace. For here, we will actively walk the Path of an awakened soul. 

The greatest transformation that Faith brings is to one's consciousness. For this transformation means the difference between a matter bound creature and a body of Light within Light. As the boundaries of ignorance dissolve, what is infinite becomes apparent in everything. The Infinite is not simply within ourself, but the fabric of all dimensions of existence including what we perceive as the material world. The clearer one perceives this Light in everything, including the mundane, the less they will trust to conventional wisdom to dictate matters of the soul. When the Light shines brightly enough, nothing we can do will keep us from it. 

You get what you put into the Universe

 The Light or Holy Ghost vibration creates exactly what we send out into the Universe. The trouble most of us have is that what we think we put out is not exactly what we put out. Whatever we lean into with our attention and will, the Holy Ghost magnifies in our experience. If we aren't fully aware of what we are asking for, we won't understand what we are receiving. If we fully see what we are asking for, then we will stop asking for things that dull our senses because we will know that we depend on communion with the Holy Ghost for our wellbeing: for balance and security. Operating without communion with the Holy Spirit leads to trouble one way or another. So even knowing we can get whatever we want with our thought and attention, we won't misuse it because it isn't worth the trouble it causes. 

When we lean into the Holy Ghost vibration with our attention and concentration, our awareness deepens considerably. It is the vibration that unlocks the inner chambers of our soul. It awakens our inmost identity that is only accessible through the vibration of Peace. 

Recognizing the wisdom of communion with Amen, we see for the first time the full error of our ways, the innate folly of putting self gratification above spiritual virtue, and the clear path to release oneself from the trouble incurred from a life led so far blind to this truth. 

Here it becomes apparent that worldly attainment or gain is of little to no value, whereas the stature of one's own soul is of ultimate importance. This stature is gained not through outer appraisal by ones peers or accumulation of wealth, but by the purity of our our being and the degree to which we depend upon God, setting our attention on Him. We achieve this through release of worldly attachment, acts of selflessness, and contemplation of and meditation on God. Most simply and directly, it is attained through communing with Amen and transforming our nature to that of Amen through communion with it. All wisdom comes through this relationship. 

When we dwell on fear, we generate fear in our lives. When we dwell on Peace, we generate peace in our lives. The Peace of Om is the liberating power in the Universe. If we dwell upon it, we will see through the world, understanding it clearly and fully, and transcend its limitations that are otherwise unsurpassable obstacles to personal fulfillment. We are troubled not because we they are too great for us, but because our mind and heart come from a place of war and we do not know how to step outside of this way of being. When we change our mind and change our heart, our circumstances change. They change because the Universe is principally a place of energy that responds to the changes in energy in our own being. Our troubles aren't really out there, they are in our own mind and whatever is in our own mind is under our own control. 

What we perceive as impossible is so because we genuinely both think and feel it to be so. We also don't believe it can be any other way. If we truly change our mind, we can change the world we live in. We can change our circumstances. 

The Holy Ghost wishes us to do so. It wants us to awaken fully to its power and to use it to free ourselves from delusion. God is here to help us become free. We simply cannot do so as long as we pursue states of consciousness that perpetuate ignorance, delusion, and strife. Freedom only comes through Peace and the consolidation of all the powers of our being under One supreme intelligent Will: God. 

He is not other than ourself. For we are not these Earthly creatures, we are beings of Infinite Light and Grace that are truly untouched by anything of this world. God is the Infinity we seek to manifest in ourselves, not something we can never attain. There is not One Christ, but innumerable Christs waiting to awaken in each living soul. God does not belong to one religion, or one understanding, but to the fabric of time and space itself. The religion of God is available and apparent in every aspect of Creation. It can be referred to in books, but it lives in the air we breath and the objects of all of our senses. There are varying truths according to the customs of different peoples, while the basic tenets of truth and morality are Universal. Do no harm, help and heal, serve and uplift, tend to and protect, expand and create, sanctify and sustain. That which creates Peace, deep abiding Peace is worthwhile. This Peace creates harmony and balance among living things. It crosses divides and heals them, then sustains the work it has done. It can be encapsulated by religious or party dogma, said to apply to this and not to that, but this does not fully represent Peace. Peace is an underlying force of Goodwill that knows no boundary man can conceive of. 

This kind of Peace is Divine. We know it by its fruits. We watch how it affects our lives and others and can testify that it is Good. We see its power in comparison to that which is corrupt, we see how it uplifts our spirits, calms our soul, awakens our energy and intelligence. Gives us hope and benediction, mercy and sustenance. 

No society can be sustained without it, it is both vision and the breath of life. Until it is understood in its Universal nature, no society will be safe from itself, for these societies will carry war with them that will turn to war against them in one way or another. 

When an entity turns to Peace, this Peace shows them the way to unlock their being and their lives, from the weight and trouble set upon them. In this communion, it will provide a Path, that they can follow. For it knows what they are capable of, it knows what they will turn to. It will give them the best for what they can give. It will do all that it can to lessen their load. For it comes from a place of infinite love, infinite grace, and infinite ability. When we look to Peace, we will see we are already on the Path. 

Lord, help me to see you in this world, so I do not have to stop so I can see you in myself. God will open the door when we open the door to God. 

When we put the vibration of Peace into the world, it comes back doubled to ourself. When we choose Peace over War, God uplifts our spirit and sanctifies our lives. He blesses us. For peace is the way to salvation, not war. Understanding and harmony, the effort for them, the steps of the path. Self-sacrifice and selflessness, the keys and gateways to freedom. 

God's hand already rests upon our shoulder. A life of Light is already carved in stone. The Light is here with us, even when we do not see it. Already joined are we to the world of Angels. Mercy, the Lord has Mercy for us.