Glorious Morning

 Sun is back! Room is warm. I feel good inside. I hope someone is reading this. 

Feeling enlightened lol. It largely resonates with the Oxherding picture from Zen where the man who has been riding the ox finally arrives home  and quietly without need to do anything. I've been here before, perhaps in a different way-like 5 years ago. Still confounded by all the changes happening. It's true that enlightenment is not what you think. It's as simple as a bowl of porridge. It doesn't have to make all your troubles go away. It just puts them in a different perspective where they are not as threatening. It also changes your attitude toward them, towards suffering, towards what is perceived as negativity. It all just is and doesn't need to be resisted in the deepest way. All phenomena, all behavior, is apart and One with nature, which is a kind of good that is beyond the duality of Good and Evil. Things just are, and so are we. The big picture is what we see because there is no division between us and the world and there never was. If you peel back your skin, your fat, your muscle and sinew, you'll find bone. 

We think enlightenment is something other than ourselves, something to be attained. It's exactly like seeing who you are for the first time, seeing a structure that was always there that you haven't seen before, when this structure is your most basic nature. When we grow up, we constantly discover things about ourselves that were hidden to us before. Some of these things are such apart of ourselves that we can't imagine ourselves being any other way, knowing that this quality or thing is me. We may be deeply passionate about drawing, or human rights, or going to the beach. Enlightenment is simply seeing the deepest part of ourself that we have always known to be ourself that we have somehow forgotten. 

Don't have anymore time now. Adios.