I have been very overwhelmed by life over the last month and sufficiently overwhelmed over the last year. It's funny how I can feel this way, be this way, regardless of the profound understanding I possess. It is true that last year I lost my center of gravity and found myself extremely disoriented in my life here on Earth in this Universe. It is true that this happened also regardless of the incredible vision I possessed. I see now, I believe, perhaps much clearer, the scope of everything that constitutes what keeps us afloat in this Universe. We try to stay afloat using what understanding we have, making our best choices. This is based off of limited information. It seems quite clear to me that as long as we depend on limited information to make these decisions, we will be in jeopardy of sinking under the sea of stability, our consciousness and livelihood vulnerable. You may find it ridiculous to consider any reality in which we can guarantee stability for ourselves, an ultimate stability, I would agree if this self in question is limited to the self which is our mortal consciousness. I may also concede that regardless of the definition of self, this is impossible. But, in a way, in a powerful way, I believe we can insure the stability of our very being through the Promethean, in the most divine sense, feat of fully processing all of the content of the universe, a feat which I feel is most appropriately labeled, Yoga. Or the undertaking and fulfillment of yogic science. We may believe yoga to be a moral and spiritual path. It is these, but if we categorize it as some distant and removed saintly, sagely pursuit, we miss its fundamental nature and design. This is the unifying of mortal personal consciousness with infinite universal consciousness, which is not limited to a moral path or our dualistic notions of spirituality. Objectively it is simply downloading the file whose content is the data that constitutes the makeup of the entire Universe. Every detail and every structure seamlessly interwoven into one permeable body. You may find it difficult to comprehend the notion that the entirety of the universe is living consciousness. Seeing it this way helps us realize that every component from micro to macro, is subtle energy that all interdependently is and generates universal consciousness. If our human mind is a part of this infinite field, and our mental processing is a part of a universal mental processing that is shared among all forms, and human beings have the internal capacity to expand our limited consciousness into forms beyond what is commonly perceived to be the limit of our consciousness, then we can process the entire universe of data. We would have to be internally capable of processing dimensions of the universe vastly beyond what is commonly believed to be possible. We would have to be built to expand in such a way, which internal mechanisms designed to function on every dimension of the universe. The miracle I continually encounter that I must constantly strive to remember is that we are designed in such a way, and we have such a capacity. If you knew you were capable of this, what would you do? If this was the heart of every pursuit of humankind, and the highest good, and that which fulfilled all desire, function, and purpose, what would you do? If this was the most practical, most compassionate, most fulfilling path to pursue, what would you do? I don't think this path is about living forever and avoiding suffering. I think it is about awakening to truth and finding real fulfillment as a human being here and now. It is not distant and removed, it is at the heart of everything that we do. It is not snobbishly or impossibly moral, or anti body anti-desire, it is not anti anything, it is simply wisdom that comes from seeing things clearly. A wisdom that doesn't separate us from our peers and make us otherworldly, but comes from our hearts when we see clearly the consequences of what we are doing. It appears to be impossibly distant, impossibly other from our regular existence when I see it as what anyone would do if they possessed a great clarity about how they and things are. This path doesn't ask us to instantaneously give up what we desire. It asks us to question if what we desire is good for us and to seek to be better than we are by making choices that bring more light into our lives. I believe God is infinite, but also very narrow and very limited, belonging to the way each of us sees the world. We don't reach God by compulsively abandoning our narrow limited humanness. We expand to God through this narrowness through the courage of being a human being with limited options and minimal intelligence. The drama of this interplay is magnificent. We sense we are divine, yet we are horribly disfigured by our limited consciousness. We can't escape, we can only continue, suffer, endure. We slowly learn moment to moment, life to life. Our hearts are so full of this drama we are all always I believe very close to breaking down in tears. We try to hide this from ourselves and others, this impossible road, but it will not go away. Seeing this, is God not a gift to mankind? A true way to free us from suffering? What other option to we have? I do not see anything else. Nothing else will work, everything else is bound to fail, bound to end in confusion and misery. When we can see this clearly what choice to we have?
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