Ego and Devotion

 Just sitting here. Having some thoughts about my ego resurfacing. About being downright bastard. I feel that I have been, and that nearly everyone is, in part a downright bastard in their core. I think a lot of us don't have the strength to face that part of ourselves. Perhaps largely rightly so, for it could consume us and our society if not handled carefully enough.  I think we do mature through this egotism, but now I think it may be dangerous to handle it without some higher guidance. I think through our mortal egoic consciousness we can discover our inner divine being, but it feels reckless to the extreme to allow it to be as it may if we have the option of also living a life guided by God. I think in lands with wide Godless spaces many unfortunately must deal with the devil before they come to the Light. I do not think it has to be so, nor is it a prerequisite that an individual  must fall into extreme darkness in this lifetime in order to mature. I think what keeps us from liberation is not lack of fulfilling our desires, but lack of wisdom. Specifically the wisdom of salvation through guidance and dependence on the will of God the Father. Now I wonder if the natural unfolding of human evolution is unnecessarily tedious, whereas the path of the devotee may be expedited It seems to me now that my infatuation with fulfilling mortal desires has kept me from clearly seeing this wisdom. Satan is the former, Reason the later. Satan belief in infatuation, Reason the wisdom of renunciation. Reason is the wisdom of God-realization and knowledge of the true nature of the universe, which is God-consciousness. This I believe in practice is the turning towards God in each moment, from the World to Him, from Satan to Light. Satan is the power that pulls us to our desires, to create more karma that binds us to the experience of our mortal consciousness in which we are separated from the universe and our source, God. This so called worldly consciousness is not limited to Earth and what is gross, it extends to any an all apparent forms in the universe, it's essence is the duality of man and environment which is and perpetuates egoic or mortal  consciousness.  This environment can be gross/material, subtle/astral, or causal, subtle light. The ego is only undone in realization of the Absolute, the transcendent beyond the World or Three Worlds. The World is truly the vast Multitude, or Maya, illusory perception of an infinite universe of separate forms. You could probably equally deem this Creation. Devotion is the dissolution of this illusion, following the wisdom of our senses and sense desires is Satan, it pulls us deeper in the darkness of the illusion that we exist in a universe full of separate competing forms. Devotion and Faith lead the realization that all is He and Him alone. He is the Father, He is Truth, Here He Is, Here He remains

We come into Creation for a time, through devotion to Him we can have lasting peace and security here amid the inherent turmoil. I believe we also come here with divine purpose, and Faith and devotion are the ways in which we carry out this purpose.