Logic #6

 A lot has been changing for me. It has been quietly doing so. It is interesting to watch this change happen. As human beings submerged in egoic consciousness, we don't realize where truth leads us when it deeply opens up. We have many notions of what this awakening is, and what it means for us. I think what I am trying to say is a lot of what awakening is, isn't centered around us as an individual. It is an awakening of that which is transcendent of our humanity, that which is the forbearer of our humanity. I think it is very difficult for us to imagine what reality is like outside of a perception centered on the ego. Because it most often is, we tend to imagine truth in an egoic landscape, when enlightenment is really the end of our identity as a separate individual. Enlightenment is also not centered on a human perspective, it is transpersonal. This is our true nature, not our individual personal lives. Enlightenment's main effect is not an improving of the state of our personal lives, but a transcendence of our personal life. It truly does not happen to us because it shows us with finality that there is no us. We have no life save our life as God in God. This is not tied to any John or Jane Doe. This erases John and Jane Doe and leaves God. God has always been there and God will always remain there, here, as reality. As humans we do not realize how far enlightenment will go. I think only in a much more awakened society would this understanding be commonplace. To me what all of this means is how definite it is that we are not ourselves, how seriously we should consider what we choose to do with our time, because we do not know when the time will come again when we can skillfully apply ourselves to freeing ourselves from delusion. Not only ourselves, but each other. Our personal folly is apart of the net which ensnares human beings in delusion and suffering. It is only the truth that can set us free, even if this means by losing our self to gain our Self. I do not think we can be fully human until we free ourselves from delusion. I think directly seeing God frees us to become fully human, fully ourselves. I don't think we can do this until we recognize what we really are, which is God. Otherwise we are not pointed in the right direction. Here what we pursue will only continue to cloud our vision. Anything else is egoic. What is egoic is logic, rational, or wisdom that is missing the point. God is the only true wisdom. God's wisdom contains all lesser paths. It is the sum total of all of them and much more. God gives us the attitude necessary to successfully employ any lesser truth or wisdom. As long as we remain attached to what is partial, our attitude and aim will be imperfect and we will continually fail. We will continue to have difficulty. We cannot use God for our own interests, not to serve our own egos, because this is still a life ruled by ego, which is still misguided. As long as we serve ourselves we will lose sight of Him, and if we lose sight of Him, we will not know what is right, or where to go. We will not be able to fully realize His purpose, which is for us to fully realize and carry out His will. This is synonymous with fully realizing Him and fully giving up our self. There is no way around this. Cleverness will always be selfish, it will always be a lesser intelligence compared to the wisdom of selflessness. He is all that is real. There is no place for anything else in Him.

 What we are realizing is this, that alone He is, and I AM. The path to this is renunciation of the worldly life which is the cultivation of the life of the soul which ultimately realizes and merges with Him. Worldliness is perception and experience generated by thirst and attachment. Renunciation is realized through non-attachment. This is a way of living and being that we adopt personally. It has to do with how we behave in the world in addition to the attitudes we hold in our mind and in our heart. Renunciation is both a mental and heart attitude. Mentally we are renouncing ignorance for the sake of enlightenment and in our hearts we are renouncing worldly attachment for the sake of fully receiving and awakening to God's love. The more clearly we realize and mentally perceive the Wisdom of non-attachment and see Him, the more readily we can reject what the world has to offer and turn to Him in our hearts. Similarly if we do not turn to Him in our hearts, we will not be able to see Him in our minds. We will lose sight of Him. We must remain steady in both heart and mind to find balance along the path. The mind helps us navigate the path, the heart is essential to walk it. The mind helps us see who He is, the heart helps us realize His will. If we see clearly who He is, we can learn to love Him in our heart. Through Love we can fully realize His divine will. 

In my path I chose Wisdom first and then Love. Wisdom has helped me to see the virtue of selflessness and of becoming a devotee to God and His way. Without wisdom, I do not know if I would have been able to set down my desire. God gave me wisdom so that I could see Him and realize the folly of my ways. He allowed me to see Him so that I would renounce my selfishness and turn to serve Him. God knew I would turn to serve Him when I saw clearly enough who He is. He knows that I follow wisdom, even when it does not serve me. For this, God loves me and graced me with a vision of Himself. I know that I can only keep it as long as I serve Him, so I will do anything He says. Because I love Him more than anything else. 

The Lord is supreme. There is no higher path or way. He is ultimate. Therefore, it is wise to serve Him. To seek Him and to know Him. Through this wisdom, we can attain Him and find liberation in Him. He is the key to salvation. His wisdom is essential to be successful in all things. We cannot breathe without him. Thus, to reject Him is insanity. To reject Him is to reject life. Without Him we are nothing. God asks us to learn of Him so that we can see the wisdom in serving Him. He wishes us to serve Him so that we can fully carry out His will. We wish to do this because His will is our own, it is the truth. His will is our human will fully unraveled, fully released in the infinite, which is Him. We seek self- actualization, this has it's fulfillment only when we release the self in Him. Self-actualization is the bringing to life of the full power of of our will. Actualizing it's potential in the universe. We seek to actualize our true nature which already exists, is already here. Awakening means awakening to what already is, who we already are, the Self that already is. It is equally remembering and forgetting. That I AM, the dream that is the ego-fantasy dissolves in the light of the Self, and I AM remains.