The Light That Empties Itself

This is an empty current. It is empty. There is no change in this current. Emptiness. There is no river. There is no way. Light. Light that does not move. Light that does not turn. Light that does not change. I cannot reach for it. I cannot do anything to it. I stand here wholly apart from it. From anything. There is nothing I can do. I am standing on a hill, looking down on all the people. Wondering what is going on. The empty Light moves me and I find I am standing no where. No where is where I am. No where is where everything is. Here is nowhere. Here is nothing. There is no thing here. This is what this is. A spaceless rock sitting on empty sand that has forgotten the current of all things. Beginning nowhere, being nothing. Resting on the damp sand, forgetting the tide that has gone out to sea. I know each grain of sand. I do no stand anywhere. This is where I am. Wherever I find myself, I cannot be anyplace but where I am. Whenever I find myself, Here is where I am. I belong because I am. I am belonging. There is no such thing but belonging. Whatever you find for yourself, it is belonging. Whatever you find is the Eagles heart of Courage, unbroken and unbeaten, dominating the whole sky of Heaven. You are unbeaten because you are who I am. My heart cannot be destroyed or beaten because it is impossible for it to know these things. There is only unrelenting courage upon my brow and beating within my chest. I am fearless. I live within the hurricane. I live within the eye of death. It rests within my abdomen. My life passes beyond all darkness where only Light prevails. I am the eater of death. I pick it apart where I find it lying in the field. It sustains me. It gives me fiery strength and awesome Wisdom. I take the Leap of Faith. I pass beyond veils. I dive into the setting sun and am forgotten to this world. 

Emptying myself, I become all things. In emptying myself, I am everything. I remember. In remembering I begin to be who I have always been. A small light steps out from the cobwebs and reveals itself as a Citadel of Light. The forgotten room becomes one among many in a mansion of infinite variation. A spec of dust floating in the infinite expanse of space is not a spec of dust, but infinity itself. There is no spec of dust, there is no forgotten room. Their is Infinity. We are not anything but this. This is what is. This is Infinity. Here I  Am. I AM. Here I AM. I AM. Here I AM. The drop.

Logic #4

 Once the creature will realizes infinity, it realizes the fantasy of it's own existence, an existence that never was. It is clearly realized that effort taken to gain for the self is impossible. There is no growing self. No self that can gain. This whole motive is no longer essential. It deflates like a popped balloon. Or like an organic life form whose spirit has passed on. It crumbles into dust. Except that this all occurs in the arena of the mind, of perception and the organic life form was a life form at a point, this self which can gain through effort never existed and never had anything to do with anything real. There's no point in talking about it like it was or is anything, because it isn't. The creature perception disappears into the expansive infinite space here and now. That whole non reality reality is wiped from the windshield with one pass of the wiper blade. Being takes on a new prerogative. Everything becomes secondary to it. Life is the natural unfolding of Spirit manifested in the form of the human being. Enlightenment may have been attained, yet the human being remains. I think we can attain enlightenment and still have a great deal of maturing as a human being to go through. This has been my experience.  It seems to me that there is the inward arc towards the infinite and an outward growth towards it. I think we can realize infinity, but not embody it fully as a human being. I think we can only embody it fully if we grow up as a human, becoming more mature. We have to change our center of gravity to do this. From more selfish to less selfish, from impulsive, to logical, to rational, and beyond. All the way to soul, and God, and Christ then finally to Spirit. 

This is how I have been looking at things now. To me I see it as a form of mastery. I feel that I have imperfectly maneuvered through the ladder of being and I have been working to clean up my mess and fundamentally change my center of gravity. I didn't start this process when I realized the infinite. I started it probably going back to when I was passing through integral consciousness and begin to realize the value of all the levels of being, and of cleaning up what I had already moved through. I still find myself considerably perplexed by this whole evolution process which includes waking up, growing up, and cleaning up as I have mentioned. I don't think I fully or always accurately depict what is going on in my condition. I chip away on it as I go along. It seems to me that when I left school after a profound spiritual experience, several intense self evolutionary projects were kicked into gear as they manifested into deep divine movements. One arc, one movement was a soul-rocketing journey towards GOD, another is a bottom up remastering or mastering of all the terrain I have moved through. A redevelopment and reorganization according to a dharma guided intuition of the exact way things work, are built and should be rebuilt. It seems that as this cleaning up process is taking place, my center of gravity, my level of personal maturation elevates. The cleaning up is also a discarding of conditional being to spontaneous natural unconditioned being at every state and level of being. It's fuel is the funeral pyre of a dying ego. It seems that as the ego is transmuted into direct awareness, my human being gains more power to mature. The shackles and the ignorance that hold me back developmentally give way to insight and understanding. 

When I made it through to the arena of Christ Consciousness, a greater way materialized before me. I knew from this point that I would be cultivated my outward human self as well as my inward realization and that the two were inter-related, apart of the same dharmic current. The development of each was essential to progress forward in my life. I sensed that both dimensions of development, both arcs were essential to the full awakening and mastering of my being. I also sensed very clearly that this is where I was, my position in the evolving universe. I knew where I was headed and what I had to do. The details were not apparent all at once, but the way was clearly set before me. When I inwardly fully united with Christ I also reached the full maturation of my personal will or ego. Fate would have it that I did not get to fully employ those egoic powers and was set in a different direction. I also did not get to bask in the glory of Christ-Union. I was speedily moved along both currents towards Emptiness/God the Father, and blue conformist/logic. Both of these are upward movements, the former inwardly, the latter outwardly. 

To my knowledge Emptiness is the most radical Emptiness, the highest, the Infinite Consciousness of God the Father that is transcendent whereas blue conformist is one ladder rung above red impulsive ego. I know I am awakened or awakening to that Emptiness, what I don't understand is if my outward development is genuinely at blue conformist, or if I am merely consolidating my energies here to clean up and master this dimension of being. I know that as a child I passed through this level of being. I also know that my development seems to be greatly damaged by the toxicity of my upbringing, particularly the general toxicity of the culture in the US, not pointing a finger at my parents or family life. It seems that a lot of my being remained on the egoic level even though I may have grown up to other levels of being. I feel like I have been stuck deeply in my ego for a long time, toiling to alleviate it's heaviness. Another dimension of this general dynamic is how when I left school, I started a dark night of the soul episode that dropped my being directly into the pool of darkness that exists on the other side of our conditioned consciousness. It is a pool that is what reality looks like when you directly face it for the first time and have yet to process it into direct awareness. I think this is an experience that is specific to a dark night of the soul awakening. When the soul is barred to the kosmos for the first time in such an experience and the soul decides to let go of the heart of it's conditioned consciousness or ego. It is taking away the restraints that this ego has. I think this can make the soul much more susceptible to temptation because until the ego is put in its place and the soul has good grounding, the ego still has influence over it, and the soul without the ordinary restraints of a ego can be blind or naive, or ignorant of the true nature of things, and be subject to great temptation and great danger. The ego strikes up as great as it can because it faces death. The soul inexperienced and new to directly experiencing the kosmos, may find it alien and if the ego is not cleanly dropped, catastrophe can ensue. If the soul is not firmly grounded in goodness, it can become corrupted, and sent far off course. The combination of this, toxicity as a child, and the cleaning up movements towards mastery make it difficult to pin point what is what in my own experience. I think that although I grew up to the soul level as a young adult, I was still very hung up at lower levels, and still highly egoic. I think this existing corruption made me more susceptible to problems once the dark night of the soul occurred (as I said a process that may amplify the ego) The dharma which led to this dark night was an initiative to clean up my being an to attain mastery, through dropping conditioned being so as to learn how things are through directly facing reality. I think this cleaning up-mastery led to the eventual resurrection of my will power, yet one not governed by conditioned perspectives, but by divine inspiration and direct awareness of reality. It seems like the matrix reloaded, going back through the same system, yet this time with enlightened perspective. It's almost like even though I grew up through this already, I kind of didn't because it was so broken...This makes the cleaning up process look and feel like growing up. Still not totally sure on all of this....

The cleaning up mastery takes up so much of my being that I outwardly appear at the level that I am currently working through. It becomes half of the environment that my universe arises in. Before I was Christ/Ego now I am Emptiness/Conformist. I see the world through eyes of Emptiness and through blue vision. It seems that outwardly now my focus now is developing and mastering Logic and also service through realigning my willpower from egoic desire to God. This all has something to do with the solar plexus and becoming conscious of the multitude of forms in the universe, which are the data bits that inform Logic. It's all very interesting to me, but has been very tedious. It seems to be taking a long time to get going. Bogged down with loads and loads of minutia. I feel that my main strength has been indisposed, my Christ Center, which had the skills and the mastery to get through a lot of this stuff much easier. The whole course shifted unexpectedly which threw me deeply off balance. I have been regaining my balance using a new modality, Logic blue conformist, and I have moved past Christ to Emptiness, which is learning another new dimension with a new set of rules to add on top of everything else. 

It seems that things have been beginning to clear up. To become lighter. I think I feel more of a sense of purpose. I think I sense more clearly what is right and wrong, where I am headed. I think I may even be coming into my power, which isn't really mine, but what God gives me to serve Him. I am starting to see that all power is His bestowed upon us provisionally and according to our due. That there is no power outside of Him and that all of this is His work. I cannot gain anything by myself, nor is it wise to gain anything for myself that is outside of His grace. I should not seek to gain selfishly because it will corrupt my spirit and take me further not closer from God. My happiness is in Him not in this world. In essence and in the core of my heart Yes but not in actuality where I am a mixed bag full of a great deal of desire. I feel that I may be over the hill, so to speak, and more in the bosom of God than in not. I feel that more of my being wants Him than wants the world and that perhaps that which has mastery of my being has shifted to a will that serves God. From this point, in this lifetime I do not think there is any going back to my previous infatuation with worldliness. I am far from perfect, yet I do not know if I have ever been this clean in my life. I feel sick that I was so lost. I feel guilty for how I have been. I feel very content that I am here now. I feel like I have passed through so much evil. It has been terrible. 

I feel like before I have been deeply interested in God, but I also have been deeply invested in myself. I thought it was wise to pursue my self-interest and to promote my self. Now I feel that this is no longer the case. I feel like I don't have a life outside of God that is worth living. It feels like that is darkness and with God I have life. That God is Truth and real. I feel that the way forward with me is with God. 

Logic#3 more stuff

 Logic. What exactly is logic? It is something that organizes everything. It the law or code. It seems that everything has an ideal component. This is what holds it together. This is the law that binds it. Logic is the law or code that is the basic structure of the ideal and because matter comes from the ideal, from mental, it too is composed of logic. Everything is composed of the same basic code, or same basic logic. What exactly is this basic code, the essence of logic? If the code displays mind or light. Then what is the fundamental image, the root of logic? Logic is ideal. It is unbroken and unblemished. It is perfectly composed. It is perfect order and perfect harmony. It is an existing plane that by it's nature is perfectly formed and nothing can alter this. It is an existing plane..or dimension of reality. Although we possess imperfect logic. Logic itself is without err. It is not an ideal we cannot reach. It is a living ideal that has a real place in the universe. Perfection is not unobtainable. It is a real thing, with a real location. We often just struggle to imagine it. Logic is a perfectly ordered universe, that is invisible to us because we dwell deeply in chaos, which as I have stated is merely an aspect of logic and order. Thus, chaos must also be perfect. Such must be the sublime design of God. The universe is perfect as it is, we just incorrectly believe it to be otherwise. This makes the imperfect Earth an aspect of Logic or Ideal. We may be relatively flawed according to our perceptions while we are definitively absolutely flawless. Logic is in a relative way a tool we use to create order in a relative imperfect universe, whereas in essence Logic is the existing natural state of the universe. An already existing Order. Logic remains the law by which forms are organized. What does it mean to be organized? What does it mean to be organized according the the unseen law of Logic? Organization is Order. Well orderedness is everything working together smoothly, well. Nothing is out of place. Everything has a specific purpose and everything is carrying out its specific purpose. If this is true, then everything in the universe has a specific purpose because everything is composed of and organized by Logic. Logic is the existing Order as it is now. It is the existing Law that governs creation. The Law is dictated by God, The supreme ruler of the Universe. It is His order that is Logic. Logic is an existing framework of commands that bind the universe together. One that is changing, yet whose glue remains the same. Logic is the programming through which the orders of God are implemented. It is mental, it is ideal. I am wondering if Logic is the image of God and is a mental image. I am wondering if this image is constantly changing in outward appearance, meaning that the programs (forms) are constantly changing. Then cultivating Logic as an individual is processing the Image of God which is the apparent Universe. Logic is restricted to the image itself, to organizing powers, and does not extend to that which directs the changing of the Image. That which does this I imagine may be a Spiritual Sun in the center of the Image of God that is a body which possesses the power of command. The Image of God, is the mental dimension of reality that contains the physical universe. I am not sure if this Image of God is in fact an image of the entire universe, or simply the full extent of the mental or astral universe which contains the physical. I do think some kind of Spiritual Sun resides within the heart of the Astral Universe, and this is the key to moving beyond the mental spheres..because Command is of a higher order than Logic. It is very difficult for me to image what the dimension of Command looks like, or in essence is...I think the Image of God as I see it is a solar disc that is the mental universe that spins around a center point which is the Spiritual Sun. I think the heart of the Sun may be two fold. It is the Hub from which logic emanates and orders the universe and in another light it is the center of Command which dictates the order that is the binding law of creation, which changes the composition of the astral or mental universe. Logic is the essence of the Law (really is the law), and simultaneously is the entirety of the Solar Disc, or mental sphere...somehow...

Through creation the will or Will of God descends and is known to those who are listening. I think everything may have a purpose and logic is knowing what the purpose of things are and using things and organizing things according to their design. God's Will is the manifestation of fully realized Logic, this it is the Highest Logic and perfected Logic. God's Will is manifest through complete awareness of the entire terrain of being, therefore it is the highest way. Choosing to follow God is choosing to bind oneself to the most intelligent force in the universe. A force of unparalleled intelligence. A force of unerring judgment. This makes the path of worship of devotion of developing a sincere relationship with God through prayer the most practical, most sensible path that anyone can take. God works in mysterious ways because he moves based on an awareness that extends far far beyond our imagination. It is unfathomable to most of us. This logic may seem strange and difficult to adhere to, yet it remains Logic, and is the most logical logic. Cultivating our relationship with God will bring us into the bosom of this awareness, into the protection it offers. God will protect our Soul eternally and our mind and body for a time. The protection of the Soul is only something He can offer. The soul is the primary body that we should protect because both our mind and body depend upon it for wellbeing. It is our true self and highest personal nature. It is as a soul that we commune with God, that we learn of Him, and follow Him. Without soulful being we cannot breathe, without servitude to God, we cannot sustain the breath of our soul. Our way will collapse and we will fall into darkness. Our true self wishes to fulfill the highest good on Earth, a way that is known through strict obedience to God. We cannot know this through any other way, we cannot achieve it through any other way. Through knowing Him, we may master Logic and gain the power to fully unlock the potential of our Soul. Without mastering Logic, we will err and destroy ourselves. Logic is both learning how to use things appropriately and the tempering of selfish impulse. It is impulse that drives the inappropriate behavior which causes harm and destruction. Which is ultimately self-destructive. It has it's place as a domain to master in itself, but there comes a time when it is necessary to master it with temperance and Logic. Impulse seeks to sustain the individual ego will, whereas the Highest Logic of God devotion is a drive to sustain the Soul. Ignorance leads to innapropriate behavior when we believe that it is better to serve our ego than to foster that which nourishes the life of our Soul. It is the learning of our minds of the Highest Logic of God that can give us the understanding and the prudence to take the steps necessary to temper our Will and to turn it towards the Light. The education of our mind gives way to a change of Heart. It is a kind of Soulful Intellect that is at the heart of traditional religions. 

I do not think we need to become saints overnight. I don't think we really need to temper our impulses. I think there comes a time when it is appropriate to work on this and when it is right to do. Each moment speaks to us differently. By listening we can discern what it is asking and we can figure out what we are capable of giving. Eventually I think we learn to give everything we have. To give it away forever. Because we don't really need it. I don't think it is desirable to hold onto anything. I don't think anything is desirable because nothing is what it appears to be, nothing gives what we may think it does when we come at it from the perspective of desiring it. Things are as they are, yet clinging to nothing brings lasting peace. Everything is temporary and nothing here I don't think is really real, the way we see it. What we are is not something we need to acquire, it is something we already possess. We cannot gain it. Nothing here will help us to do so. Peace is not even worth striving for. Nothing we can imagine when our imagination is a field of ego objects. I don't believe in anything that happens in this world. I don't believe it can affect me in any way. Because I am not anything that is here, because nothing that is here is real. There are many things to do in this world as we grow and evolve, but which of them is worth clinging to? Where is there substance among any of this? Nothing here has substance, therefore I cannot grab a hold of anything. This is impossible. There is no I, there is no anything. Reality stands alone. It has never been anywhere, it is never going anywhere. So how can we find it when we look for it? If nothing exists, then how can we come across anything at all, here in this wide expanse? 
This does not mean we should abandon skillfulness. It means our searching will come to no end, because there is nothing to find. There is nothing here but a vast sea of openness that extends from today to tomorrow. An endless opening. 

It seems to me that the purpose of our creature will is to strive for infinity, and perhaps when we finally break through to it, we realize we no longer need it, that it is a construct divinely crafted for this single purpose. Something else may follow. It seems to me now to be a processing of the Divine Light or Divine Image that is the Image of the Kosmos that is the Kosmos. It seems exactly the same as a computer downloading an image with a green download bar approaching completion. That there is a certain amout of data to process, and when it is processed this process is complete and of no further use. I am not entirely sure because it appears that I am somewhat away along this processing path. 

Contemplating Logic #2

 Over the last couple of weeks, I have been getting myself into trouble without meaning to, without even being harsh in spirit. When it happens, I am like, oh dang! I didn't want that to happen! It feels like I slip up, but not how I often have before. Before it feels like my spirit becomes dominated by desire and I act selfishly. This is just a mistake of sums. Or a lack of foresight. We can still cause problems even if we are not coming form a bad place, because our actions have consequences that affect others. It makes me kind of sad that I am kind of fully realizing this now. I have understood this for a while, but I feel like I was in a selfish fog that kept it from fully penetrating into my conscience. I still don't see it as clearly as I could because of the same selfish fog. It is just that now I don't feel like the fog is dominating my outlook, whereas before it dominated my outlook while I was unaware that it did. I feel like we behave selfishly until we are strong enough to let go of it. I feel like in the past part of me has been free of selfishness, while part of me has not been. And I feel that there was nothing I could do about this but allow myself to be as I was so that I could grow up. It makes me sad that I have had to struggle so much to become a more mature person. I feel like living in this society has made it more difficult to do so, also just chance that caused a lot of trouble for me. I feel upset that I have been so selfish and what appears now to be so foolish. I wish I could have been a better person. I don't think I would be here though if I didn't make the choices I did. I wonder how much of what I am experiencing is because of my immaturity, or because I have reached a place of clarity and evolution that is not very common. I have done what I have done largely because I felt it was important to clearly see what is right to do, and to sincerely be at the level of your own development. I felt and feel that you grow from where you are, not from where you wish you were and the best way to get there is to start by being honest about what is really going on inside of you. If we have all of these hang ups that don't let us face who and where we really are, then it makes it much more difficult to work on growing up and becoming the person we really want to be. I don't think this is easy at all. But, I think it can be a lot easier if we make it a habit to be sincere and honest with ourselves. To take the time to figure all of this out. We always have this moment to make the effort to realize this and we will always have this moment to realize this. We can always turn to this moment to make an honest effort to improve our lives. To put us and the people around us in a better position. I think we do this by acknowledging our shortcomings, our capabilities, and being honest about what we can do to in this moment to either be less selfish, or more intelligent in the way we proceed to do something. I think more intelligent behavior coincides with less selfish behavior because selfish behavior is narrow and short sighted. It makes more sense for their to be good order in the world around us, because we depend on it for survival and well being. If the world is compromised, we are compromised. If we have the capacity to do more, then it is in our interest to do so. It is being more thorough and taking care of more of the details which are the details that can turn against us and weigh us down. Building ourselves here is building up community. It is acknowledging the value of the shared space between us. As well as acknowledging the reality of many possibly competing interests. And realizing that it is in our best interest to become civilized, restrain violence or intense aggression. We are more likely to survive if as a group we limit violent behavior and have social agreements which are social protections and pathways that we can depend upon because there is a heightened surety that they are well established and lead to things of value. We choose to participate in such systems because of their benefits over other behaviors. I think doing so is not for mere survival though. I think this is the logic that our organism has for participating, where what is considered civil mentality and civil society has an identity in it's own right that transcends survival and selfishness. They whom are civil are not just organisms who exceed at survival tactics, they are people who are individuals in a shared community that wish to participate for the sake of participating, because it is meaningful to do so. It feels good. It is good. Just as it is good to survive and good to what you want. Each in their own right. I think logic and civility are a higher agency that includes both survival and ego. Both survival and ego drives can undermine logic and society, whereas logic can enhance both ego and survival. I think it has more power to than these drives by themselves. It is a broader scope, broader and with more depth, like a reversed triangle pointing downwards with divided by two horizontal lines which split the triangle from top to bottom into three equally long sections. The triangle that is made by the bottom most section alone is survival, the triangle made by the bottom two sections is ego and the triangle made by all of the sections together is logic and sincere social participation. Each section represents and increase in depth and scope. Logic represents something new, new but old. Because here one has just arrived to something that has existed forever. It is of an order that composes the world, the world does not compose it. It is the law that is the fabric of flesh and of desire. The law by which all things work. By which all things are set. It is a mental field driven by logic. Logic is an evenness which I do not understand. It is a fountain head from which the world is set up. All chaos is but an appearance that holds the unperturbed evenness of logic. Logic is unbroken. It is perfect, ideal. I did not think such a thing as this could exist. Perfect lines, perfect shapes. It's really incredible when you think about it. Earth as we see it, is a reflection of a higher order. It's hard to imagine something drawing something perfectly. Perfection picking up the pencil and setting to drawing an image. And succeeding perfectly. 

Contemplating Logic #1

 Unrelenting strength becomes mercy. It becomes compassion. It becomes the intellect. The warrior becomes the scholar and the priest. He puts down his sword and sharpens his mind. He picks up prayer and the word of God. He finds his path leading skyward. Off the ground, away from the Earth. He is lifted up and supported by the organizational powers of his mind. He is not disturbed, he is ready to proceed. Though how he proceeds may be with caution or by altogether stopping, and taking time to do what is necessary to proceed. Where he proceeds is where he is taken by the expansion of his intellect, which itself is the organ by which man perceives his environment and understands it. It is the development of thinking. Thinking intelligently. An overall intelligence. Which leads to the better organization of one's being and eventually a healthy prioritization of duties. One realizes that all human action is driven by one's degree of awareness of a pre-existing fundamental order. That although we have individual direction, all roads are fundamentally headed in the same direction, which is towards deeper realization of this fundamental order. Behavior and position are superficial. The intelligence of our behavior shows how far along we are, not what we are doing, but how we are doing it. The Earth is superimposed on this more subtle field, which is equally as real. It is a field of mind. Of mentality. It is not to be taken lightly because everything that happens here has direct consequences on the Earth plane. The center of this mental plane is the Sun. It is character development that moves us permanently closer to the Sun. Temporary gains may take us nearer, but they will not last unless we mature personally. Selfishness is rape that will eventually be reversed on us. This is why selfishness is a violation and sin. It violates the natural order of things. This mental field is influenced by selfish motive, but it itself is free from it in it's essence. The natural order of things is set by God, the Sun. His Law is the ways that everything works. To worship Him is to cultivate awareness of the natural law. The natural law is fundamentally unchanging. I believe it is eternal. There are fundamental constructs of consciousness that pervade all forms and fundamental ways that they interact with each other. This is established. This dominion is established and is unmovable. All action apparently against it is fully driven by it and fully apart of it. This is why the selfish motive must eventually submit to that which supreme of it in every sense. 

Making sense

 From the inside to the outside, around, around, again we go. Following the solar circle code. 

In the emptiness that is this moment, so much and so little seem to have changed. More of my heart has emerged, amid skies of many colors. Desire and possibility mingle with expectation and frustration as the moon tides of my soul wax and wane. The many points of my orientation attempt to speak with one voice and often fall flat. While the One remains abundant and untouched arisen in it's own field. I dance like a sparrow caught in a storm. What a time to go hunting. The lightening illuminates my skull as it flashes in the darkness. The power of the moment threatens to split me apart. Yet I remain crumbled together as I am. A stone giant looking for the furnace of restoration. May I exit a man? 
The disk revolves in a great heavenly expanse. Light being born in Light.  Here I am, waiting for the light to coalesce into a being that I may inhabit. Looking out with half formed eyes from within the manufacturing plant which is God's mind. Breathing into the progress of mind and intellect which is the formation of my being. What shall be created here? Not according to my will, but another's. Only mine when it is a worthy enough reflection of His great intelligence. Sufficient enough to momentarily direct the course that illumination takes. Fragmented like the Hawaiian islands, rooted in solid Earth, hidden by an ocean of the unknown. Am I an island, or a pinnacle of Earth? Waves of light passing before my eyes, changing the World. Currents of light, a dance of deepening expanding consciousness. Changing reality in Midnight Whispers which call upon the powers of the shaping winds. Doth any stone resist the flowing waters? Where doth it stand? Robed by the flowing waters, shaped by starlight, containing the consuming fire, the red jewels of a red eyed beast lighting up the breast of a man. Encircled by winged serpents whose scales emit a golden light. Whose voice is thunder and whose movement is a lightening strike cracking the stone of the Earth. I am Merlin, says he. Merlin is who I am. I am Thunder and Lightening, Heavy rain and Black Cloud. I am thick rock and deep Earth. I am rocks and caverns and glittering caves that hold the starlight of the heavens. Above all I am all of this. I stretch from horizon to horizon. I am the boundless universe. I am boundless Being. I am transcendent and all that is. No where will you find me not. I am all things. I am supremely intelligent. I am a sparrow darting through the storm, Lightning reaching the Earth. Thunder in the clouds. The groaning Earth and crumbling stone. Mountain and Valley. I am the craftiness in all things. I am awake. I am Sky, Soul, and Being. I am untamed and unformed. The Great Unknown the is the terror of Night and Darkness. In this Darkness will you find the Great Serpent coiled around the Red Stone, The Crystal Gem of Mastery. The Dragon's Stone, Dragon's Fire, Dragon's Breath. I am the Great Serpent. I am the Black Eagle towering high in the skies of Lightning Darkness. Unchallenged and unparalleled. 

Obtaining wealth...and...

 Wealth is a relative notion that stems from an aspect of the transcendent infinite which is now. We individually think of wealth in a variety of ways, but it all stems from the abundance that is and flows from the infinite. To obtain wealth we have to tune into the infinite. If we enlarge our perspective of wealth this becomes much easier, because we begin to see that abundance is already all around us, and therefore we have much more to draw from to use to pursue our goals. The obsessive fixation on material wealth or money is seeing wealth in a very limited way, a very restrictive way. Seeing wealth as the spiritual state of things allows everything to flow much more naturally. We can obtain a great deal of material wealth through selfish pursuits, but this will not bring us deep peace which comes from an inner wealth that effortlessly spills out onto the material plane in our lives. We will remain unsatisfied and truly upset underneath the temporary pleasures we may be free to indulge in. Selfishly pursuing wealth will not free us from suffering, which is born from attachment. By restraining our selfish tendencies and fixing our eye on God, we can pursue wealth in a wholesome way. We can then use many different techniques to improve the conditions of our lives, which is another way of saying acquiring wealth. When we recognize that wealth is truly energetic and additionally that individual wealth depends upon the inner fountain of selfless transcendent being we can set ourselves up to truly succeed in life. But if we ignore God, and our deeper higher calling, and exploit this knowledge for selfish gain, we will not succeed. We will cast ourselves into darkness. We must obtain wealth to use it for good pursuits. We must employ it effectively and not hoard or abuse it. 

We do have the power to create anything we wish. And there are many techniques to employ to do so. We have unique abilities and a unique position, and unique appreciations that  make different techniques or pathways suitable to us on an individual basis. God helps us see our unique and designated way to move forward along the path to deeper liberation. God will help us stay on that path and use our skills and talents to the fullest of our abilities. When we have the courage to bear the torch of Light and the wisdom to follow the wisdom of God, we can unlock vast depths of uncharted treasures. Following God is not a limitation or a retraction of our being, it is an expansion. It is putting out a wooden torch and having the stone walls of a dark cave dissolve into a sea of blinding light. God will not lead us astray, it is us who lead ourselves astray. We can tune into a world where we live in constant fear of what lies outside of us, where it is an enemy, or we can tune into a world in which we are lifted up by a perfect loving intelligence that we can trust. In the later, it is our distrust and our subsequent selfishness that keeps us in a world of fear and suffering. A world in which turning to God liberates us from this nightmare to a real world of peace and prosperity. 

Abundance truly is the inner kingdom of heaven that abides within and is the Reality behind this illusory world of limitations. It is recognition of this inner kingdom that brings about its realization in the physical on Earth. By tuning into the infinite and maturing so that we can follow God, we can move through the constructs of our confinement in the experience of limited being, gaining elevation and release into more satisfying dimensions of our being. We can draw on an infinite reservoir of power to liberate ourselves. We cannot bypass God along the way. Being religious in a sense is a fundamental level of maturity that transcends selfish and sensory pleasure driven behavior. It does not have to be any religion, but a religion inwardly that is a real development of our relationship with God the Creator. Which outwardly takes on forms of temperance, civility and civil society, much of traditional family structures/marriage. The particulars of these forms do not need to be fixed, yet the essence of them is what is necessary for maturity. The essence is developing a relationship with God through faith, and participating in society in a civil way that is informed by existing traditions and practices, which may be as simple as how being nice is generally expressed in the community or communities are apart of. Friendship, commitment in relationships, really just general participation in society. I don't think people realize that God is at the center of organized society. Society and civilization are basically the evolution of social trust, which is the belief that together we are stronger than we are alone. The belief in the legitimacy of this basic bond is essentially is faith in a social pact, or social order. Faith of any kind is religious, and God is the center of religion. Whether or not you can see God at the heart of it, God is there, the epitome of faith and a word that literally directly points to faith in it's meaning. This is what God is. Faith, logic, order. The creator father God at least of the Old Testament. Faith is real, it is a real aspect of the universe we live in. It is a power that transcends the physical universe. It is that which connects and orders things. In our limited human experience, faith and God are as real as the stones we may walk on. They just don't exist in the same way, hence faith. It is faith in a higher order of things. An order that transcends the nature of the organic universe we rose up from. It is mental and visible within our minds, not visible as a concrete physical object. We just have a hard time in acknowledging the reality of much that is trans-physical. It obviously is there or else we would'n't have minds. We wouldn't be able to think. The thinking of minds is of a higher order than animal impulse. This is why the logic of faith and the order of civil society temper the selfish impulse of the human organism. Sadly this temperance has been greatly brushed aside by many notions of things which are not as noble as we claim or wish them to be, and society has adopted these new principles as more highly evolved expressions of order, when they are really immature degenerations. This confusion is confusing and creates much of the skewed world that we live in. Traditional forms are often limited in scope, while they possess an integrity that surpasses much that has come to replace it. The structures of traditional society are often very oppressive, especially to minority groups, or outside elements, while the heart is more good that much of the self serving narcissism and hedonism that has become our idol. I find it difficult to distinguish between what is traditional that is civil society and what is traditional that is extremely narrow thinking. I think as a society, we have deepened the depths which we can reach, while we often have fallen in the way we individually and socially are mature. We have access to greater depths, but we have destroyed much of the step stool we were using to reach them. The step stool is civil society, logic, order, and faith. It is willing participation in society for the sake of society. 

It seems to me that all of this new information and the ways it has been released have jeopardized the fundamental structures of our society and our faith in them. I think this is a very complicated phenomena with many different driving forces. With the increase of depth in consciousness, comes the need to balance the new drives with the old. The new territory, unexplored demands a great deal of attention so that it can be integrated appropriately into human consciousness. New drives have different directions and different value systems. New drives also expose new ways of doing things that can be exploited by lesser drives hence the terror of corporations.....