Writing away my sorrows

 I feel like I could gain everything through these words. Through pursuing writing. I think everything is held here, in how I communicate this. When I write, I feel like the whole universe is listening, and the whole universe is learning, and the whole universe is awakening to truth. I feel like every answer is here, every way, and every possibility. I feel like this is all I need to do. Express myself here. I love learning, I love thinking, I love being. I feel like what I really want to do is open up my heart and mind to the fullness of who I am. I am full of love. I am full of life. I am full of feeling. I feel like the whole universe is open to me, and when I write I reach out to it. I think my path has changed, and liberation has taken on a new meaning that I have yet to fully discover. I feel like liberation now comes from fully participating in this, by allowing myself to fully participate in it as it is happening. To consciously participate, to give myself fully. To give myself completely. I do not think holding on will satisfy me. I think completely releasing myself into the universe will. Allowing every part of myself to be. I think this is who I am and this is what I want to consciously awaken to. Fully participate, fully commit, fully employ. This may not even be the end! But another passage to another way. I want to fully express all that I am. There is so much that I want to express. So much I want to communicate. So much that I think that I am. I feel like I have to gather myself again, in a different way to express what I want to express. I have been doing this. The process has been intensifying. It is a different direction. It is like opening and cleansing the flow. Allowing myself to fully be and fully participate in this moment. I don't feel like I belong to anything. I just belong to myself, to this flow and to this feeling. I do not need to gain anything, just gain the heart to express who I am in this moment. Who I already am. Turn this light on throughout by body. I think it really is standing my ground and staying standing. Learning not to stand against anything, but to stand amid everything. To stand and be. I honestly believe there is nothing in this universe I need to fear. I think no matter what happens I can be ok if I have the right attitude. If I see clearly enough. I don't think anything is worth being upset over because no condition is better than another. I don't think any condition is worth clinging to, beside how things appear. I don't think I need or depend upon any of these things. I think this belief, that I am these things is what causes suffering. I believe it is false and therefore not worth clinging to or desiring. I believe I do not have to fear anything that happens. I must already be standing my ground. I must already be fully present. I think it is this world that I believe in that is not true, not real. That distracts me. Yet even this is false. I am fully present. I am fully awakened. All of this is that. I think I am fully committed to all of this. I think I am fully present. I do not think there is anything to gain. Nothing to gain. Nothing to do. No one to be. Nothing to become. I think this is who I am. I think this is what is real. I do not think anything I can perceive with my senses is real. Any of these particular conditions. It is not worth clinging to anything. I do not think I can cling to anything. I do not think anything exists. I think all of this is liberated being. I think this is what is real. I do not think anything else is real. I don't think it is worth getting caught up in anything else. Or participating in anything else. I do not wish to participate in anything else. There is nothing else to participate in. There never has been. No world, no life, no being. I think this is the way. I think everything else is false. I do not think anything else exists. I don't think anything else is worth desiring. There is no separate self. There is no ego. There is no soul. There is only infinite being. Infinite boundless being. Nothing else is real. Nothing else is true. Nothing else matters. This is who I am. This is what everything is. It is not what it appears to be. It is infinite boundless being. Everything is infinite boundless being. This is who I am. Here I am. This is who I am. I do not need anything. I do not need anything at all. I do not depend on anything. I never have. I cannot. What I am is not what this world appears to be. What this world appears to be is not real. It does not exist. All their is is infinite being. That is what is. We cannot possess anything. We cannot own anything. there is nothing to possess or own. I am infinite. I do not belong to anything that can pass. I do not dwell where things are powerless. There are no places that are powerless. What is is boundless. Everything is infinite. Nothing is limited. that is impossible. That cannot be found anywhere. That is not real. what is real is infinite. No other place exists. Nothing else exists anywhere. What is is infinite. It does not belong to anyone or anything. No other place. Nothing else. Infinite being. Infinite body. Infinite. I do not belong to anything. I can not be put in anything. I do not dwell anywhere. Nowhere dwells anywhere. Nothing stands anywhere. This does not belong to anything. This does not belong to anything at all. Nothing belongs to anything  nothing belongs anywhere. Everything is nothing. Nothing is nothing at all. Everything is empty and formless. Nothing at all exists here. No one. Nothing belongs anywhere. Nothing belongs to anyone. No one stands on anything. No one stands anywhere. There is nothing happening here at all. Nothing ever happens here. This place does not depend on anything. It cannot. Nothing exists for it to dwell on. Nothing exists for anything to dwell on. Nothing stands. It stands without anything at all. It stands without moving. It stands. Standing. I do not belong to anything. There is nothing here to cling to. There is nothing here to do. There is no one to become. I do not belong to anything. I do not belong to anything. I do not belong anywhere. I will never belong anywhere. I will never fit in here. I will never fit here. I do not belong anywhere. I do not belong to anything. I do not wish to belong. I do not wish to participate. I never want to participate. I do not want to participate in anything. I