Still going

 I am not feeling as clear headed as I was during the last post. I've been feeling heavier and more sullen. It has been more difficult to remain centered or at peace. I think I have to look at things differently. My habitual perspectives may not hold water. The idea of experiencing the world in new ways excites me. In particular, the idea that I can break out of the mold. I lose sight of the reality that I can overcome these long term struggles. I don't believe it's possible, I can't or don't see it. After a while I start believing I am incapable of doing so. I believe I have to suffer through whatever negativity I experience as if a great doom or sentence fell upon me. Honestly I think this kind of thinking is all in our head. Truly, we always possess the power the overcome all obstacles in our lives, because...Light constitutes our being, not darkness. 

Even though I forget the fullness of this truth, I carry it unconsciously with me as I combat whatever problem arises. It exists in my optimism, hope, joy, faith, and upwards seeking that however imperfect remain in tact. We can change our behaviors to heal and overcome great adversity through the power of our soul, through the capacity of Light. By embracing who we are and delving deep into the nature of our being, studying and meditating upon the truth and seeking enlightenment we discover this capacity of Light within ourselves. We discover that Light composes and dwells within all things manifest in the Universe. The lack of this understanding keeps us in the darkness of ignorance that plagues our lives with all forms of trouble. When we see the Light and understand it sufficiently, we turn away from habits that trap us in the prison of Maya. The Light tells us how to be free. A path leads out of the suffering of mortal consciousness. It shows us how many ways, how many choices lead out.

Resonating with Amen supercharges our consciousness. This allows us to let go of debilitating karma and choose new pathways to much more open and nourishing terrain. As our soul awakens our ability to manifest positive outcomes accelerates rapidly. The awakening of the soul turns on non-physical mechanics of our being that automatically create harmony and wellness in our lives. Our soul comes from a place of infinite abundance, when it awakens we awaken to this reality of spontaneous well-being. The difficulty lies in listening to Amen in contrast to the voice of our mortal consciousness. While we cultivate our faith in Spirit, we doubt what it reveals to us, and thus doubt in part the wisdom of following it. The sense of our egoic nature remains in part wise and worthy at this point. As long as we continue to let go of our connection to Amen and persist in worldly behaviors we risk damaging that connection and our ability to transcend our troubles. 

Yet even when we fail, and fail terribly, the door remains open. We end up shutting it ourselves in the darkness we created, but only in our minds. The connection, the possibility, liberation, this door remains always open to us, for this is it's nature.