Yo, Trees and stuff

 Been a bit. Writing a lot and having a lot of insight. Being more social than I have been in years. I have been feeling like reaching out a lot to people, new people a lot. Felt like pushing myself to be more present with people even if it's uncomfortable. Wanting to have more solid relationships and working on being myself more in them. Lots of good vibes pouring in. Life feels pretty hectic the last week or so. But I think good. Lost a little of my connection over the last few days, but I think it's ok. Weird navigating the last four months. Lost my focus and I haven't been super sure that what I am doing is good. Trying to reclaim that. I think it's slowly working, but I'm not sure where I will end up. Before this I was really into this really cool awakening process and then it got squashed, I'm not sure how it is going to reappear or when, it kind of sucks. Been afraid a lot, it just sucks to lose parts of yourself that you really love and feel really comforted/secured by. Crazy process awakening. When it gets deep, it gets deep. It would be really nice to calm things down, like my hectic energies, and stay afloat, not sink down and get depressed by my own energy. 

Seeing some really cool stuff with the way that religions all but differently convey the same truths and how they are all winding together through time. It's really cool. How they are not really themselves, but they are just kind of human art and philosophy that isn't confined to the religion that we see them as. How love and inspiration are at the heart of religion and how this heart leads people and society towards unity consciousness. I guess perhaps how the heart of religion is uplifting and enlightening. How this is manifesting on our world. We see a lot of the problems of organized religions, but I think misjudge them and their heart, which I think is good. I think even though they cause so many problems, they overall are a uplifting and unifying force in humanity. A force which doesn't end when people leave them to be atheist, agnostic, or non-religiously spiritual. The force of religion is one with the human heart and our loving consciousness which drives all of our expressions and philosophies. It's just insane how many different perspectives and transformations of perception we can have towards religion and God. And just crazy where it all leads and who we become when we follow the trail. To see the vision of the ascended masters open up within you after looking at them from such a distance. It's just like holy shit. That's who I am and what's inside all of us. Like the twin ultraviolet/blue teal flame that I think resides in our heart chakra. I could be wrong. I think this is the spark of life. Ha, wtf!? Don't take this to be true, I could totally be wrong. It's just something I may have seen very briefly via intuitive vision. So much too learn. 

Religions are just particular paths of expression of the human being. They are not how we see them as separate belief systems. They are different compositions of soul force that is born from the world, the Earth even. They really aren't different, we just think and perceive them to be. We get caught up in the differences and our insight does not penetrate to their real nature. Just as we think we are separate people of different races and nations. Not true. We are all human beings of one consciousness. One race. All of us display different aspects of ourselves, different aspects of our feeling. Different ways that we feel that we are not even aware of. We see black, white, latino, European, Islamic, Christian, rational non-religious liberal, conservative, progressive, Asian, whatever. We think this is what people are and don't see much deeper often. We respond to them as if they we're in these ways different from ourself and because of this we don't see how they are our self. How these are labels, stickers on grocery store fruit. How we are all fucking produce. We don't see with our hearts, we see with our judgments. And because of this we inflict pain and suffering on each other and on ourselves. Not saying this is bad, just pointing out that the world is not how we see it, and the actions we take because of our actions don't create the results that we imagine them to and aren't justified by what we imagine they are. If people could see this, they would change their behavior. But.., they don't. I just can't believe how wrong we are. And what right looks like. It's the difference between seeing the only the exterior of a tree and seeing the entire interior of the tree and thinking that the exterior of the tree is the whole tree, when the interior of the tree makes up so much more of what a tree is than the simple visual perception of the exterior. If you don't see the interior of the tree, then you don't know what a tree is.