I am not sure how to properly describe this. I have been seeing how our true identity as individuals is self. Self that is shared among each of us, self that is the same self that we all are. It is like we are the same person, even saying the same thing, amongst many different bodies. I think what most of us don't realize is that we are the same self. I think the closeness we feel to others comes from the reality that we indeed underneath all our perceptions, are the same self. This can be confusing because we look so different on the outside, and behave so differently in general. What I have been noticing is that this is superfluous and all truly and simply the varied context of self. This self is the same even though outwardly the context is different. I think we have so many problems because we fail to see that the self is the same among a multitude of beings. The plural notion leads to the belief in separate individuals, when there is really one individual one being. This self is much more still than we realize, much more composed. This self can tackle any problem simply by being itself, because it is at the heart of the world. When I see others this way, I easily relate to them and enjoy their company. I am surrounded by good friends, and I don't feel alienated in my environment. I feel a familiarity with them, like their experience is shared with me intimately, but in an open and composed way that is very grounded. What people say seems more important, because they lived it, and who they are is important because they are self. It seems like from this perspective, people are themselves, and whole, even when being dishonest or negative. There is a wholesomeness that is not compromised by behavior. This wholesomeness, or wholeness transcends the arrangement of phenomena in the world, so it doesn't matter how good or bad things are. The self abides these circumstance and is unchanged. It transcends both body, and mind. Both physical and astral dimensions. This leads me to believe it is deeper. A greater whole that encompasses both of these, but in essence is not of them. This is why in a sense it remains untouched by them. I believe this essence is christ consciousness, which I think is also known as the causal realm. This isn't some far out destination or experience, it is immediate and ever-present in the composition of everything in this moment. We already posses it, we are just not very aware of it. We are focused more on the particular structures of things, and our interpretations of what we perceive, we do not penetrate to the insight that is the reality of katustha consciousness(not sure if this is the right word) that is the singular body underlying the subtle universe. Even though the astral universe lies within the causal dimension, and the physical universe within the astral, both the astral and causal dimensions may be perceived within the physical universe on Earth. This is because although the essence of the physical universe may be physicality, it's underlying structure or essence is mind, or the subtle astral essence, and even though the essence of the astral dimension is mind, the underlying essence of this is christ consciousness. So the physical is truly mental and the astral is truly causal. This makes the true nature of the physical universe Christ consciousness as well, because the physical is composed of mind, and the mind is composed of christ or causal. Then you can throw in Spirit as Spirit as spirit in which all of these dissolve into pure Spirit and it is seen that the essence of the universe is not Christ, but the Father. What this points to really is the non-reality of Earth, Astral, or Causal dimensions, these become illusions that disperse in the recognition of the Ultimate. This is what I tend to believe is accurate as of now. I am not wholly satisfied with this, but I find it fits well according to what I understand and experience. What I don't fully understand is how these 4 stages relate to Ken Wilber's integral theory. I found that as I underwent ego-maturation I was fixated on what was Earthly, and as I genuinely opened up to conformist I moved into the astral environment. It seems like lower mind. I imagine that as I move to orange achievement rational I will be in the domain of kutustha chaitanya (christ consciousness) or the causal. There is still green eco-communitarian-sensitive, integral, and subtle soul before katustha christ consciousness so I can't as of now fully explain this gap. I am not going through ego-conformist-achievement for the first time. I am mastering them and cleaning them up, so I am not sure how this movement differs from when I first passed through them and how this may correspond differently to the four main dimensions: physical-subtle-causal and Spirit. I am not sure in general how the Wilber worldviews correspond to these four main dimensions. I think it may be vital to map how each Wilber stage corresponds to the 4 dimensions and to the chakras. To me it seems the ego is closely tied to the sacral chakra, or chakra of sexual energies, it is the cultivation of desire, and perhaps the root chakra which is rooted in the body and the Earth. It is also the part of the mind-will-body that is impulsive, whereas conformist blue is associated with the solarplexus and logic-intelligence. The ego seems rooted in the Earth, in the creature will, while the conformist dwells in an astral-mental environment. What I have trouble pinning down is where the orange-rational-achiever dwells. It is objective, it has to do with order, and command, giving orders, it can manipulate the code at will in a transegoic fashion. The question is how far this code goes? Is the code the programming of the whole astral dimension, of mind, or does it only correspond to a lower astral dimension that is ruled by logic? Is order-achiever-rational the sun in the center of both the logical universe and the astral universe, or simple the sun in the center of the logic dimension which is the gateway to a secondary tier in a greater astral universe?
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