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 Alrighty time to blast off on rocketship brain tease. Headed for the blenderverse baby! This is largely non-sense btw. 

Words, be coming, like crystal rain. Yea. Dancing on a groovy glass floor. Alright. Brain time go. Today my car door proved almost entirely resistant to my various efforts to make it smooth and nice. I have been feeling some good vibes as of perhaps yesterday morning. I got up, didn't have tons of energy. But, just felt chill. I felt ok. It was nice. Then last night I felt more reassured and had cool thoughts come into my head. It was like, I don't need to rush. I can just go with this (as best as I can go with anything). Part of my constant anxiety to get things done relaxed and I was refreshingly slightly surprised to be more ok with things as they are. More ok with unfinished things and unknown variables. It allowed me to enjoy what I was doing more. Being more relaxed. Fear makes us anxious, which makes our bodies tense (pain), which makes us more anxious/afraid which makes us think we need to do things (compulsive). Positive feedback loop. We stop thinking conscientiously and react more, intensifying black/red tunnel vision and stress. Not necessarily solving the problem, often probably getting into a cycle of troubles/not feeling ok/not feeling like ourselves/not going where we want to be going/ not doing what we want to be doing/not thoroughly enjoying ourselves. Runaway train. Stress train baby. The opposite is the soul train. Being like hmmm I don't like how this feels...? What is going on? What am I doing to myself? Does this feel right? No........What can I do to make myself feel better? Wow! I am really stressed out. I have been going really fast for a long time. This doesn't feel good. Wow, I am really out of touch with myself. My body doesn't feel good. I feel sick. Gross...Man the world seems to be pretty intense. A lot of people feel disconnected..A lot of what we do feels disconnected. I really want to slow down and sort things out. (Deep breath) "Spontaneously disconnects from stressed feelings as the body relaxes. The mind has slowed down and gotten a better hold of itself. Maybe the body wants to eat some good food, or rest, or see a friend. Get some tea. Go outside. Do something fun. The spirit has returned to Earth" Man, I feel better. Wow I felt really out of control. That doesn't feel good. I want to stop doing that. "thinks about obstacles in environment that trigger stress" Ya, I don't want to do that anymore. I really feel like doing this. I really feel that this is important. Man have I been sooo blind. I am so glad I can see this more clearly now. Wow I am sooo lucky!
     We don't necessarily need meditation, yoga, superfoods, whatever to be ok. Things things can help us get in touch with ourselves, but they can also overload our brains. What's important is learning how to get in touch with ourselves. How to deepen a conscientious relationship with ourselves. How to listen to our feelings, how to learn to trust them once we can distinguish between positive and negative impulses. (Impulses that are helpful and impulses that are hurtful or self-destructive) This is not necessarily easy. I think it often is difficult because it means facing painful unpleasant feelings we have inside. It means perhaps taking on extra burdens and not necessarily always choosing the easy path. But, from my own experience I can say that choosing to listen lightens the load in the long term and makes life way more enjoyable. Listening opens up doors you never thought were there. It clears your conscience and leads to healing of body, mind, and soul. It also leads to God and if I may say so, destiny and purpose. 
     Feelings have been so important to me in my life, especially since my adolescence. My feelings have led me on my path of growth, however convoluted it may have been. They have also been a delightful source of experience that I will always treasure. In my life, they color the world with sometimes otherworldly hues cast by my ever-changing heart. They fill my environments with subtle lights that dance and play and heave and hew. They grow still when I look outside and feel the raw vitality of the Earth. My feelings have led to a great spiritual awakening that has spanned mere recognition of new feelings to realization of God and who I am. I don't know if it ever will end. They have given me such a sense of security and connection to life as a whole. They have allowed me to let go of so many worries and fears, choosing faith time and time again during personal struggle. They led me to be free to follow my own path and they have guided me the whole way I have come. They have brought me much closer to the Earth and to acting from a place of enlightened love and wisdom. They are my heart, my soul, my life, and the life of the world. They are the world. They are boundless. 
     They may not be easy to follow, but they are calling. They are calling so many of us now to change deeply. To awaken to deeper truths and I think to the Unity of humankind. They are asking us to be free from our imprisoned thinking so that we may join together and heal the world. I think they have always been calling us to do this, I just think now it may be easier to hear them. I am excited because I think now, in some ways, it is easier than it ever has been to wake up from the slumber of the ego-dream. I think more and more people are waking up and tuning in to the Universal call of peace, love, and unity. There is another way from fear and following social dictates. You can be free to be just who you are right now. You can learn to open up you heart and mind, to rise above depression, fear and what may be debilitating tradition. You can choose love and light. You already have them deeper within yourself. You already are love and light and freedom. I hope you can manifest these on the surface in your lifetime. I hope you can bring your gifts to full fruition. 

May it be so

May you be free now

Let there be peace on Earth

Amen