Presence #5.5

 Yooooooo! #5 Baby. No thoughts to cross. No thoughts to cross. Writing about philosophy without thinking. Without point or direction. Explaining mysteries without substance. Divulging the truth without. There is no truth to divulge. There is nothing to learn. What can we gain? We imagine there is a point. A place, a person. A something. Fear compelling us in searching for a non-existent renegade. Why leave the castle? The whole gambit, no gambit. What the hell are we looking for? It seems like we are just looking for something to cover up what we don't understand. We are looking for something that satisfies our imaginary problems. We imagine a problem and then we imagine a solution. Always running away from the self. Always afraid to be still. To look at the center of ourselves. Who we really are and what is really true. Running away. We create phantoms and demons to give ourselves proof that our delusions have merit. We are really tricking ourselves so that we don't have to face what we are afraid of. We are perpetuating the lie. We are keeping ourselves hidden so we don't have to face the truth. We don't believe we can take it, we don't believe we will make it, and we want to stay in the dream. Too bad world, we choose to let you burn. We are enamored with our fantasies. With the fantasies of our cultures. We imagine that we are or will be special Gods that everyone will love and bow down too. What a fucking joke. The reality is, when we make the decision to stay in our fantasies, we are weaklings. We are terrified, immature cowards. We have little character and little faith. We don't know ourselves at all, let alone the world. Ridiculous that so many of us are lost in our own minds feeding off of masturbatory dreams. Only scratching at the world, or seizing it with a death-like iron grip. Our fantasies mask our selfishness, our narcissism. We vaguely seize upon noble ideals, but how many of us really live them? I think even many of us are relatively compassionate, most of us are smothered by our narcissism and fantasies. It's fucking weird. Everyone thinks they are living in the world, yet they are largely living in their own imaginations, playing out imaginary scenarios that they think exist in real life, yet are only masks. It's easy to do this when those around you do the same. You don't even have to talk to people or listen. Just use their bodies as stage props as you hallucinate your way through life. I think it's hard for people to get to know each other because we don't don't know ourselves and we don't know what is and isn't real. I think it's hard to know who people really are because so much of what we project is bullshit. Everything is often convoluted and chaotic. I think people are often disorganized and all over the place even if on the surface they look pretty and neat. I think our minds have been like runaway trains that are also hydras which grow more heads the further they get away from us into darker and darker corners of our minds. I think this happens as we become more complex psychologically and because of the incredible stimuli that we can't process. This creates the feel of psychic debris clotting our social environments. We want to go out and be involved, but we hate it because everyone is so sick in the head. The social space feels polluted. It feels that way because it is. People think they make choices for themselves, but we are largely driven by barely conscious impulses. Vats of chaotic energy that pull us from one thing to the next. Consciousness is overwhelmed by the disorder of the field which renders the user asleep. We can poke at new ideas, but I think it's difficult for many of us to really feel them and embrace them. It seems like we don't really become anything because we are so stuck on being so many things. This leaves part of us more like a spreading tumor than a vibrant heart. This keeps on happening because in a large way, we are powerless to stop it from spreading. Many of us don't really understand that it is happening. Many others can sense it, but lack the tools to handle it appropriately. Though, some of us are getting a pretty good grip on it. In our madness we turn to Trump for answers because the current system obviously isn't working well enough. Let's throw it all out! Warning, system overload. To stop it, we have to find a way to slow down. To step out of the madness in a genuine way, which is difficult because so much of what we do is pre-programmed and on auto-pilot. We've got to be conscious. See our conscience and realize how utterly swamped we are. How utterly disconnected we are from how we really feel. How little we are consciously deciding and creating. I think this has always been a problem for human beings with egos. It seems like if we are ego dominant then we are disconnected from our roots. We are walking around in a shroud of darkness, lost in our own minds. There's a lot of inertia to maintain the course and become more and more ungrounded. Gaining a conscious foot-hold seems like luck or destiny. And once you have it, it isn't easy to maintain and grow. It seems often that the world wants to pull you as much as it can into madness and mindlessness. This being said, I am hopeful. I think there is much opportunity in these dark times for good things to grow. I feel the light growing within me and on our planet. I think many of us will awaken more deeply to the foolishness around us and create bastions of consciousness that will carry us forward. I think now is time to turn more inwards and find more strength in the divine. To let more of the unuseful worldliness die away. I almost would say that this darkness is necessary. That it is the old world dying and making room for the new. I think we need to be vigilant though and ward off as much evil as possible, including the delusions within ourselves. We must continue to strive for greater clarity of purpose and of moral direction. We must be especially aware of our own delusions as these times arouse great passion which can sway us into great violence and danger. We must be sure that what we are doing is right and for the best. And learn how to find this out. It may not be an easy task, but it is an essential one for many of us whose duty it is to safeguard the world. Now is the time to shed our conditioning and be born again in the liberated consciousness. To be free of the veils of dogma. To be awakened to the ground of being.  To be completely free and to give ourselves completely to the world. We need you. We need eachother. God is here and God is speaking to each of us with unique directions. Heed his call. Stop and listen, change your ways. Awaken and become greater than you have ever imagined. The time is now.