It seems to me that everything is Christ waiting to be born, that everything is Christ being born and Christ awakens right now as everything that is here. What we are is Christ waiting to be born and when we find Him, Christ being born right now. Christ awakening right now. Christ is like a star rising in heaven, a flaming inferno that fills the universe with light. This moment is Christ awakening, it is the sun rising. Christ awakening is a blaze that lights up in everything, that shows the world to be other than we believed it to be. I think everything is free in Christ, everything is good, Christ I think is true strength, it comes from wholeness, not competition and aggression and fear. It is righteousness, Christ is my liberator. I can't believe that such a thing exists within each one of us, in a world that can be so dark. Such brightness and evenness and strength that is here all along, within all things. If more of us can see it, we can release it into the world and free each other from blindness and despair. If we truly descend from God, then it is assured that what he creates would be more good than it is evil, that the good would be prior and stronger than the evil. We just don't realize what we have, and we struggle in the darkness to acquire things that are not fulfilling. We do not realize the truth, nor how near it is, we do not realize how distant we have become from ourselves. It is strange how lost we have become. Especially when light is so near. I suppose it is simply cosmic gears shifting. The Light truly never is lost, it is just forgotten. you can't get rid of something that is apart of the present moment, that is transcendent of change. We will have peace on our world when our society brings itself to this righteousness. When this righteousness is established in the heart of our practices. This will make each person every person's neighbor, and every person loved as thy self. The establishment of Christ, is the eradication of selfishness, of evil. It is a balancing of judgment, and a fulfillment of character and Virtue in individual being. I really find it to be a liberator of oppression of all forms for Christ has the strength to overcome all obstacles. In Christ we find liberation from oppression. Christ has the power to overcome all evil, all darkness, to restore us to our birthright, which is decency, health, and wellbeing. This is more central to our being than our astral nature, than the call we have to turn to God, this is God come home, God alive in the present moment. This is the Lord alive in us. The Heart of hearts that is our own heart, the true nature of our heart. It is so beautiful
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Wednesday, November 29, 2023
Tuesday, November 28, 2023
Christ
Sunday, November 26, 2023
I may have leveled up.
I may be done with my processing stint. Code blue might be Active orange. I think this may be the case. I was not expecting this for several years. I am not sure exactly what happened. Instead of processing data, I feel like I am activating energy, activating potential. The image is already complete, or just complete. Now it is more important to activate the energies here, to actualize the data. To fully embody the knowledge gained. It's weird because I didn't realize that the image was already completed. It's almost like I was tenuously approaching something I was uncertain of, and once I was comfortable enough with it, I could just walk up and use it. It seems like it was more a question of lack of self-certainty, and lack of familiarity with the controls, rather than a lack of of data. I am not sure. I thought I had to perfect myself here at Blue, I don't I just have to have the ability to effectively gain control of this system, once I can, I can move forward, and take care of things as they come. I was using established rules because I could count on them in an uncertain environment. Now that I know how things work, I can manipulate the controls in a much more efficient manner. This isn't a relapse into selfish red, it is an expansion of self into a place where I set the tone by taking charge of the directives in my life. Choosing what best serves me rather than prescribing to a particular direction established by others. Thirst remains unsatisfactory, and impulsiveness is still dangerous and unwise. I feel like I have fallen into a ring closer to my center of being, yet also more expansive. The sparkling blue and variety of forms of Blue is replaced by a clearer black and orange lens. My energy feels more localized in my body rather than in my thoughts, I think it is still centered in the manipura chakra, the focus of this stage appears to be actualizing the potential of the life force, prana, and guiding it higher up the spine. It seems to be focused more on the objective movement of the prana within the body, rather than on understanding the astral universe which is full of prana. I seems like the whole point of studying the nature of the astral universe and the variety of forms there, was to discover the essence of prana, which I am guessing is the essence of mind and thought and form. Or at least the activating principle of the centers which drive these. It seems that prana is the key that unlocks the potential of the human being. Prana is the force which drives everything in the universe it seems. It seems like prana is the awakening life force that drives form to evolve and reach upwards towards Spirit. It also seems like Blue is a step to objectively discover prana. I think the heart of the astral universe may be a sun that is pure prana, this is interesting...I am not sure exactly what this is...but I think I found it..............I thought this was Christ, I am not sure if it is...It feels lower, but I don't know..I can't tell if I am low or I am high. I think it is Christ. His heart is so open. Christ truly is the Lord. He is evenness. Both High and Low at the same time, He is the space between, He fills all things. He is the Lord of the Universe. I think you have to discover Christ as I have in order to fully awaken your Being, because Christ is the only one capable of managing everything correctly. You must be a Master to fully take control of it. If you attempt to do so without Mastery, it's power will corrupt you and you will become lost. The path to this Mastery is through selflessness, because egotism is blind. Christ is One, the One.
Friday, November 24, 2023
Soaring with Jesus
Rocking and rolling. He me be going. Yo. I think it may take a while for me to figure this all out, but that's ok. I am just gonna rock and roll. Just bust it out. I have a lot of work to do. Hell ya. Let's go. This isn't gonna happen overnight. It's gonna take years. But I am on the track, I am gonna work through it. No point getting upset. Breathe deep. Head up. Go straight! I am basically trying to understand everything there is to know about myself and the universe. How everything works, what everything is. Understand all the dimensions and aspects of my being and development. There is so much to know. I have a ton of cleaning up to do. Every day is a chore! If I change my attitude, I think it can be a blast! Heading up, let's go!! Rock and roll towards tomorrow baby! Build me a bridge to the sunshine land. What I find so interesting is how such intelligent people can do such stupid things. Like gifted minds can suffer from severely undeveloped aspects of their consciousness. It is so interesting. There can be so much oversight. I this is because the human mind, or psyche, is very complex, and intelligent as humans can be, most of us are also very ignorant. In this ignorance that most people have, there is a lack of the ability to consciously uplift the entirety of the being all at once. I think this is because most of us are largely fragmented and unaware of the whole to an extent that we can willingly uplift the entirety of our being. You have to have a strong enough sense of the one and of the overall complexity of the mind before you can implement your will to turn it all in the right direction. It isn't enough to focus on one piece at a time, you have to sense the interlocking mechanisms that hold it all together, the deeper patterns that form the mass general content that fills our heads and hearts. If you wish to uplift the entirety of the psyche you have to see it clearly in the mind, in a rough enough manner to grab a hold up it and supercharge it with love and feeling so that it is lifted. I am not talking about moving it a little bit in the right direction, or a lot of a bit, I am talking about bringing all of it to perfection. To the extent that you fill all of it with light, that you fulfill all of the unique avenues of the soul, every dimension of operation and interaction. I think a complete mastery of the psyche, also a perfection of the operation of the self, and a perfection of virtue, a perfection of the self. This is what I am interested in. The psyche is full of countless thoughts and feelings, with varying depth. The mind and the heart are connected, they are ultimately one and apart of the same self. As much as it is about mastering the mind and the heart, it is about returning to the heart, the One, that is Christ. Which is awesome. Christ is already One and He dwells within the heart of the astral universe, our mission is to return to Him. Really to merge with him, this is a fulfillment of the human psyche I believe. Ya, this is it. What a fucking joy. Our roads do not point to darkness of any kind, only to Light. Any darkness we find is at the corner of a passageway rather than at our destination. We only have love to look forward to. What Christ teaches us, is that each trouble or obstacle can be overcome and cannot get in the way of our Soul when we turn to face Him, the light at the heart of the subtle universe. What is great about Christ, is that it isn't a heavy complication of things, but a simplification that leads to a much greater avenue of being. It is easier, rather than more difficult. Our soul is lighter there. If we turn in that direction, we actually find that we are pulled to it, through levity, God takes on our burden, rather than making it greater. He is extending out his hand. With light and love and energy. What is most difficult is to face the darkness in ourselves and be willing to have faith in Him. This isn't a pre-rational blind faith. It is a post-rational blind faith. It requires to step outside of our comfort zone, so that we can feel the light of sun. It may be temporarily blinding, but once we get used to it, we don't just get back reason, but we learn to fully employ it, finding that we were barely using it before. Reaching God is actually the fulfillment of Logic, and I believe Christ is pure Reason. The great thing is that once we leave Earth, we get to soar through the astral heavens to Christ. What a magnificent way to come home.
Wednesday, November 22, 2023
Father
God, will you please teach me more about yourself, so that I may know thee? Father, please show me what it is that makes all of this? Lord, please show me what this really is. Lord, please show me who I really am and what this world really is. Please help me see who you are so that I may know what is real, so that I may turn from what is false and accept the truth. I sense that you are here abiding behind the play of this world. This world is not what it appears to be. Please show me the true nature of your existence. Please reveal to me who you really are. Please stay with me as I continue to walk down the path of knowledge of who Thou art. Father, I sense thee are great. Greater than I am capable of seeing. Father, much of your way is hidden to me. Lord, please disclose more to me so that I may remain with you. I wish to be with thee. I wish to take Thee with me as I go about my way. You are my father, I thy son, please hear me, please listen, please be at my beck and call, take me under thy wing and lift me up to high places. Always protect me and assure that I am blessed by thy grace. Protect me with your wisdom and guide me to safety. Please show me what is real, please let me stand by thy side. Please let me stand with you and be guided by you as I make my way through this world. I believe I make my way here to learn of you and to learn of what Thy ask of me. Regardless of what I see in this world, it is You that are a voice of wisdom and truth. It is you who I must seek if I wish to know my true purpose, if I wish to know the truth about this universe. You are the truth and the answer. Why is so much hidden? Why do we live in such a deep darkness? Why must it be so difficult to find what is real? Thee reside in such a high place? Why are thee so from from where we are? Lord, why must it take so much to find thee? You are strange, and speak to me in such a strange way. Why is it so difficult to hear thee? I wish to offer much to thee, but I am so broken I find it very difficult to do so. I wish to make an offering to thee, because thee are the greatest, and I owe everything to Thee, because I think thy are great and this is enough to worship thee, to desire to give thee gifts. You are most holy, most wonderful, yet most silent. I find this very difficult to bear, because I desire so much from Thee. I need so much from Thee my Lord. I ask so much of Thee. I ask for Thee to fulfill all the wishes in my heart. I ask Thee to give me everything I ask for if Thee may make what I ask for whole and good. You are my master. You are my strength. Everything comes from you.
Tuesday, November 21, 2023
Understanding the Mystery of the Universe
So if each form is a mental image and each form is truly each other form, and each form is truly Christ, then the way to fully realize Christ, is to put together the puzzle pieces of the universe. Each form is a piece, all the pieces fit together to make a whole, downloading the mental image through communion with the Holy Ghost or Logic, is the way. We are essentially mining for data and then using that data to expand our processing power so we may gain even more data. It is an exponential growth curve, each bit is a piece of the puzzle. The puzzle slowly fills in and it begins to become easier to piece everything together, you get a feel for where things go, how they fit together. It's almost like Christ is what is created when we gather all the pieces of our soul and put them together. Christ is the whole image I think, which makes a lot of sense. The picture of the universe becomes complete when all the parts are put together. It forms a whole and I think this whole is Christ. It makes sense that as you go deeper towards the heart of the astral universe you would approach this Whole, which would be the Heart of the Astral Universe. It seems that you can only approach when you integrate more of the Holy Ghost or Word or Code into your being. As you do so, the universe gradually melts together into a seamless Whole, which I believe eventually becomes the Causal universe. I believe this is how you enter the causal universe, by going straight into the heart of the astral universe. I think when you have brought all of your soul to this point, you become a Saint and have purified your heart. I think you are born again here as Christ, truly with all of your being. I think at this point the entirety of the astral universe has been ingested, processed and the image is fully rendered. I am not sure what exactly this means. Is Christ the image? Is the image, the Light that is God? I think it may be, because I think at this point, processing is over for good. I think the Light has been fully downloaded, lol. Which would make sense based on a lot of the stuff Jesus says. "I am the Light of the world. Whosoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." John 8:12. It is interesting that he says will have the light of life because the astral universe is composed of prana which is the life-force, and to me the astral universe is subtle light that is mental, so in following Christ he ensures that your life force, prana, will be sustained, to such an extent that you will not experience the lack of it, darkness. Only one who has mastered prana could fulfill this claim, and according to my logic, Christ is that which is the mental image fulfilled, which correlates I strongly think to a mastery of the life force both within oneself and within the Universe. Christ is the Master of the Word, he sets the law of the Universe. So the journey through the astral universe to the causal universe or Christ, is really down on Earth a mastery of one's own life force and a complete harnessing of the Word. The life force that flows within our body corresponds to the life force that flows within the universe. I think our soul is in itself the whole body of the universe, that is parceled out in various interconnected energy centers. Christ will light our way as we sail across the vast astral sea, he will provide prana or subtle light. He can because he is the source of it, the Spiritual Sun at the center of the Astral Universe.
Monday, November 20, 2023
The subtle Unity and the way to it
Each thing that arises in our awareness is in fact the same thing. Each thing we see is a reflection of the infinite. Each and every form a unique expression of the same infinite. Each form, each thing is actually infinity. Which makes each thing actually every other thing as well. The thing that is here is consciousness. We confuse these things to be separate things, when in fact they are each and all consciousness. This is consciousness. There truly is no thing here, nothing but the appearance of things. The mirror that is the reflection of consciousness as the illusory world of forms is also simply consciousness. Within the mirror, consciousness appears as a variety of things. These things are all subtly interwoven to appear as they do, while none of them really exist as we see them. Each thing in existence, every dimension is a diffusion of God's light into the many. When we awaken to the reality of the universe as consciousness these forms unravel before our eyes. The solidity of matter disappears. Our mind begins to process the image that God has created as a whole. Instead of a universe with chaos and order, their is simply the perfect order of God's creation. The image is flawless, nothing is out of place, chaos is an illusion. Everything is perfectly ordered according to a higher Logic. Each thing is perfectly placed.
Each thing is the Spiritual Sun and the whole Universe. It is our mind that generates the illusion of difference, which is an image that we see, rather than seeing the universe directly. Each form is the same form, which is ultimately Emptiness. I think somehow the astral universe of the subtle mind is a mental overlay that covers the even subtler unity of all that is mind. I see this mental dimension as a mask that the universe wears. I think I see it this way because the coalescence of mind that created the illusion of the separate self has largely been erased, compromised, and displaced in what you may call my individual being. What I intuit now is that each identifiable mental form or thing that we see in our universe (both physical and astral) is actually Christ. I am confident that this Christ will eventually melt into the formless infinite, but for now this is what I see. This appears to me now to be apart of the main mystery of the universe and it feels as though the astral universe is a mask that is slowly slipping off my face. It's remarkable to be in the world and then to momentarily step out of it and see it as an object I could hold in my hand. It is so subtle, yet so simple. We get caught up in the motion of everything and forget what is actually going on. Caught up in the human drama It seems like everything is contrived by the subtle hand of the Holy Ghost, who is like a hidden friend standing behind everything. Pulling the strings. It is like God through Him is a friend hiding within each person and each thing, that we rarely see. In our ignorance we find the world evil. I do not think it is. I think every act comes from a place of Goodness and Wisdom, because all things are done by Him. It is our ignorance that leads us to believe this, not our own intelligence. By turning to Him, we may see what is real, that everything is sculpted by a divine hand. Power doesn't come from how much money we have in the bank, or how intelligent or skilled we are, it comes from God, who in this aspect, is a living force of cause and effect, that is impersonal, yet ruled by unchanging code that mortals cannot interfere with. If you recognize this power that is responsible for every other power, then you can depend on it, and rest in it, and be protected by it. It is unerring judgement, unerring law, that we are very capable of intuiting and perceiving and working with. We are so fixated on what is worldly, so infatuated with what we see that we miss what is hidden yet possesses true power. It is a fundamental relationship you have with God that protects your soul, a simple mathematical formula that you can follow as a prescription, that alleviates all ills. I think this basic formula is overlooked by many, perhaps more in those who believe they are especially gifted, who have a great deal already, and have not tasted bitter defeat and loss. Who are willing to bet against God, against conscience so that they may have more. You cannot defy Him, for your defiance is built by Him. His law is flawless and supreme.
The interesting thing is that, in a way, God is listening to us, and in a way, waiting for us to turn to Him. Which is incredible. I believe He wants us to turn to Him, because he wants our souls to be saved, because he loves us. He and a horde of heavenly beings who have turned their hearts to compassion for humanities suffering. God loves us, he watches everything we do, and I believe continually pours out his merciful love for us, to save us as much as he can from danger and suffering. Unfortunate for us, we are so deep in our suffering that we cannot see this and we remain incapable of turning to Him. The more I turn to Him the more I see his love and feel his presence. See him working behind the scenes. More than this is our life, this is a play of God unfolding across the infinite space of eternity. The reality of God's play is far more real than the illusion of our separate selves.
By listening to God through the Holy Spirit, we may interpret His will and become his servants. We go into servitude to pay for our sins, and to learn how to properly take care of our selves, and I think the universe. I think our soul is always a servant of God, while through this servitude we may become something else, which is I think one who has fully sublimated the Word, Logos, enters into the realm of Christ as Christ. Here, in a way, we are freed of servitude by becoming the Master. We have to pass through the fire of the Holy Ghost to reach He that dwelleth beyond. The Holy Ghost sets fire to our sin which we can only redeem by turning that aspect of our self to God. Where we suffer the most, God is asking the most of us, it is also where we have the most to gain. He is both testing us and tempering our spirit, so that someday we may be greater and capable of hearing what He has to say. We rise to the challenge, by listening, by turning to Him as much as we are capable. Through prayer, and self-sacrifice, through contemplation. I think really it comes down to embracing our destiny, and choosing to life our life regardless of what it may mean for us. The radical and complete acceptance of ourselves and I think the radical and complete acceptance of God who awaits us. I think once we accept ourselves, we can turn to Him and be free of ourselves and find perfect liberty in the seamless Union of our soul with God. He has a plan for us. We can embrace it if we willingly follow Him. We may fear the consequences of servitude to God, but it is nothing compared to being enslaved to sense desires.
Thursday, November 16, 2023
Moving on..and more logic...
So I am in the astral sea. Working on mastering this terrain. It is like drinking in pure mental data, pure mental landscapes. Ingesting subtle light by the gallon full. It seems like there is an incredible amount to do, an incredible expansion of consciousness is necessary here. Where the impulse driven ego is cast around like a leaf in the wind. Thoroughly out of it's league. A new drive is needed, one capable of sustaining the atmosphere of this incredibly varied expanse. The minutest movements of thought affect my location. It seems like stability of mind is very important. I think a lot of what is necessary is that which is gathered in long term movements, those which much of myself finds displeasing as it desires immediate satisfaction, immediate relief. I pay a lot of attention to these dissatisfied feelings, perhaps too much. They are quite distracting and also very centered in the creature will. These are no longer my priority. A greater vision is needed. I need a self of pure mind as a locus of operation. It needs to be strong enough to overcome these selfish impulses. It needs to have enough distinction that it can separate itself from them and exert control over them in a healthy way. A control that is not governed by impulsive selfishness. This seems to happen gradually. the mental will gaining definition while the ego will recedes. The flesh will if you will. I think what I am wanting is something I can use to express myself, something that I can depend on, and I haven't clarified anything enough to serve this purpose. I am trying to save myself from drowning, and stop myself from floundering, just trying to get out of the mess I am in. I am, I think slowly accomplishing this, it is just slow. Slow for me. It is hard to bring myself to relax into this pace, to accept it. I am so used to sprinting. It has been difficult to find the proper focus of my attention that suits this new terrain. I feel that once I get control of myself, I will be able to ease into this, and if my calculations are correct, this is inevitable, because this stage is about controlling ones emotions and mastering them, not through a desire for selfish dominance, but through the steadying effect that intellect has on ones impulses. I believe when the individual is ready, the intellect naturally gains superiority and dominance, the ego will and thirst of the beast is quieted.
Logic is the trail that leads to greater things. It is the key to understanding the hidden avenues of the universe, the great structures that lie beyond ordinary awareness. Logic requires self sacrifice, for the ego is too heavy to travel through the subtle universe that surrounds us. The ego relies on blunt force, in which it not necessary to thoroughly understand, it is only necessary to understand enough to manipulate the variable in ones environment to serve one's own purpose. To see deep enough, we must be prepared to leave ordinary understanding beyond, so that we can accept the extraordinary. If we are lucky enough, logic will open up the incredible energies within us and we may live a live in this new space. Here we have much more control over our destiny, much more freedom, and much more capability to overcome the unsurpassable that plagues most human beings. We must have a deep respect for this energy, but it has the power to destroy us. If we are not careful enough, it will. It is important to put the Master before us, and respect His wisdom, He has the intelligence necessary to be properly guided through this terrain. Without Him we are susceptible to darkness. If we do not turn to Him eventually our energies will turn against us, karma will show us it's backside, and we will reap our ugly fortune. With developed understanding over the subtle energies, we gain the power to overcome illness, fatigue, to expand the limits of our senses, to step into the miraculous. The examples of many who have done so prove the superiority of the mind over matter. To misuse this power is not an example of the shortcomings of the intellect, but of the perversion that one can stoop to when they place the priorities of the flesh above the principles of Logic which are both ethical and Spiritual. I believe Logic comes from a place of perfect order, which I believe translates to purity of heart. I believe the universe is perfectly ordered by Logic, and that imperfection is only a projection of ignorance, rather than a stark reality. I believe Logic is inherent in all things. I believe it is created by the Holy Ghost, which creates and organizes the entire universe. I believe the Holy Ghost is Logic. It would make sense if Logic or Logos, The Word of God, was that which created the universe, that the Universe was the living word of God because a word is an idea and an idea is an image. It makes sense that the world would be an image composed of Light. With the power of the Word, you can see that anything moves into the realm of possibility, especially when the world itself is nothing more than a floating image in God's mind. Instead of shifting and rearranging physical objects you are shifting the subtle orientation of light. Logos teaches this. If we approach it wholeheartedly as a servant, it will serve us, to do so to seek to manipulate it for selfish ends is self-destruction. We must lose our self to gain our self. If we wish to fully understand Logic, we must serve it and where it leads us, rather than seek to use it to serve ourselves. We pursue Logic because it is right in so many ways. It leads to righteous as righteous living and also as Righteous being Christ itself. I believe Logic is a purifying force, I think it may be the same as the throat Chakra Vishuddha which makes sense in the way that both Logos, and the throat chakra are associated with speech. It would make sense to me if Aum resided within the throat chakra, if it was it's heart. This would make purity Aum itself which would make sense if Aum is the force by which we reach Christ. For Christ is Saintly. It would make a certain sense if Logos is the throat chakra, Christ is the third-eye and God the Father is the Crown Chakra. You would literally have to pass energetically up the energy channels of the spine through the Word to reach Christ, and Christ to reach the Father. In my experience it is the Word, then the Christ, then the Father, each a successively higher spiritual plane
Tuesday, November 14, 2023
Christ within the astral sea
Christ is the shepherd of our souls I believe as we journey across the astral sea to the mount of Christ which I believe is the entrance to the causal realm. In the astral dimension, which we can be elevated to while we remain in our Earthly bodies, we must purify ourself before we can fully transition to the causal realm. I believe that the causal realm is likely more or less the domain of Christ consciousness and that it's essence is Christ. We must purify our hearts before we can make this journey. The only way to do this is to accept God as our Lord and to learn from him what I believe is Logic. Logic is the framework on which the astral universe is composed, and therefore the framework on which the entire physical universe depends. Logic, I believe, is taught to us through the medium of the Holy Ghost. Logic, I believe, straightens our way so that we may pass through the astral sea and reach Christ, or as I see it, the Haven that is the causal realm. I am still unsure whether these two terms are synonymous. I am more certain however, that Christ layeth beyond the astral sea, or within it, and recently I discovered that I believe Christ can be our shepherd as we make this journey. I believe we may be able to take refuge in Him as we journey across the astral sea towards moral purity. In this way it seems that Christ reaches out to us through the astral sea, to bring us to Him. Once we reach Him, I imagine that our doubt is dispelled and our faith is perfected, I think in this case we have fully united with the Lord in such a way that we are composed of His essence and dwell in a realm that is composed of His essence. This I believe is the causal realm, this is where my surety falters. Last night, I awoke to Christ in a way that I have not before. I felt that He was the purpose of learning decency, I believe that He is the aim and the goal. He is what we are searching for in this great and wide universe and in the this vast ocean of astral potency I believe He is what is generated by fully realizing it. I believe the mastery achieved by the creature will is it's death and perhaps also evolution into a being that transcends the physical universe, a being perfectly and fully mental or subtle. This is a new birth, or a rebirth of the creature's being into something totally different. The laws of this new life are equally novel and require a different set of skills. I think this is our astral body, or astral life. I think we may be able to die to our creature will so completely, even while retaining our physical life, that we fully enter into the astral or subtle universe, again, even while maintaining the same physical body that we were given at physical birth. This is only possible because our understanding of the universe and in particular the nature of the physical universe was fundamentally flawed. This major flaw led to the perception that there was a physical universe, that there is physicality. Dying to our mortal life I believe is the realization that the physical is an illusion. I think we are born into an astral universe in which it appears that our being or our soul is immortal. That no physical death can harm us. This doesn't mean an end to the Earth and our earth-body life, it is an end to a perception that is dominated by the reality of physical solidity and fleshly mortality. The Earth becomes an image floating in a greater mind that is only part of our existence, only one window of many. It's essence is not solid, but now mental as we see it. It is an aspect of mind apart of a greater mental universe with horizons we have never before imagined. Our body is a energetic vessel sailing through this mental sea of pure energy. The life we had before was a temporary state of mind, a temporary state of consciousness, that now has unfolded into a far more expansive and extraordinary space. Welcome to the astral sea!
It seems to be a sprawling place full of life, full of an incredible variety of expression. Yet I think a soul journeying through it must wonder why all of this, what is the point of all this. I think it all points to something greater and I think this is Christ who lay beyond or beneath, or within it. I think Christ is more visible here because the layer of the mortal physical consciousness is gone. It think this deeper meaning is more obvious. I think there is so much to be distracted by in the astral plane because it is so wonderful. Yet I think all of this wonder is a reflection of a deeper life, like the ripples on the surface of the water made by a mysterious underwater creature. I think it would be easy to ignore the deeper significance and get lost in the endless play of subtle lights, to float for what would seem like an eternity without having to think to much about existence. But eventually one would get tired of the endless transformations of form and wonder where it all came from. They would get tire of drifting and would long for a higher purpose. I think here is where God comes in, and eventually where Christ intervenes by declaring Himself and His deeper reality. A reality which puts the variety of form in the astral universe into a more proper light, in which we goggle at them less and take things a little more seriously, soberly and move a little closer to the still center of our being.
Saturday, November 11, 2023
More to discuss
It seems to me that we desire things because of what we believe they are, what we believe they can give us. We believe that specific things have the power to satisfy us, to make us better, to make us more complete. For this reason we establish an agenda to obtain things and use them to suit our own purposes. We think it is appropriate to set out to gain what we can from the world for ourselves. I think this entire prospect is misled because this fundamental perception is untrue. I think heading out in such a manner leads to bondage rather than fulfillment. Each of these things we deem worthy out in the world is only worthy as long as we are attached to it. If we look closely, this attachment is not based off of real need, but of infectious desire, that spreads mindlessly from one thing to another. I think there are things that are appropriate to take care of, but nothing that is worth desiring. I think desire is truly poison. Even when we make an effort to take care of necessary business, there is no need to be attached to succeeding in our aims. I honestly do not think it matters if we succeed or fail. Not that this won't have consequences that affect other people for good or ill, not that it won't be important to us, but that underneath all the layers of this world, none of it is what it appears to be and none of it is real. While we remain in the world, it seems best that we divert all our efforts to eliminating the illusion of differences between things. I am talking about the difference between the true nature of things, they will always appear different, but they never will be. Additionally, even as we go about eliminating this illusion, never do so from a place of attachment. Let this endevour spring from the nothingness that comes from realizing the indivisibility behind the illusory surface of reality. Doing so from a place of attachment, is doing so from a place of desire, even if it a desire for the highest good. I think you will find that you cannot eliminate desire altogether immediately, especially a desire for achieving goodness on Earth. It is not necessary to do so, nothing is, this is the point. The more we realize the emptiness behind creation that is all that is real, the more we naturally do good things. The greatest things we can do is to let go of succeeding in fulfilling goodness from a place of ultimate surrender, not to be confused with a place of surrendering to evil and darkness. Ultimate surrender is truly selfless, a selflessness where there is no self, not a heroic self, where the self melts into the foaming sea of I AM, Emptiness. The more this is established the clearer our direction will be, and as we gather all of ourself and head towards liberation, we will remain motionless and participate in nothing at all. The latter is the primary mode, liberation is not worth being attached to, nothing is. Every thing we can believe in is equally illusory, equally a projection of self, equally ensnaring, equally undesirable. It becomes apparent that desire and self are bound in the same tangled not that is conditioned consciousness. It appears as an object in the mind where self, desire/thirst, attachment, conditioned perception of reality/aka worldliness are all one conditioned body. When it is seen as thus, it becomes apparent that it is not who we really are, not that our self is something else, but that we are not self, conditioned being. Until it is clearly seen what conditioned being is, we will have trouble stepping away from it. The clarity that eventually comes from the awakening or blossoming of Self in consciousness eventually leads to the insight that there is no need to step away from it, because there is no it, there is no self to step away from and no self to do the stepping away, the movement is pointless and impossible. Reality is simply Self which may not be the best word at this moment. The ultimate nature that all profound religion points to is the same underlying Reality. It may take awhile to recognize this, it is not essential that it is recognized. Perception ultimately simplifies to this fundamental nature that is nature in it's entirety, for the multitude is ultimately not real which leaves an already existing sea of Here I AM. There is no dharma we can hold onto, if we close our eyes properly we will find that we are already bathing in a sea of it.
Tuesday, November 7, 2023
More answers, more questions
I do believe it is true that God is at the heart of the astral Universe. I believe that the center of the astral universe is also in a way, the end of the astral universe, because from here, we journey into God and I believe God eventually turns into Christ. I am not sure which God this is. I think it is one of the Trinity. I believe it to be the God of the Old Testament, which makes sense because this God is the law bearer, and from my feelings, it is He that introduces Logic to the Jewish people, and as they make covenants with Him, they begin their journey across the astral sea to Him that lays in it's heart. It would seem that God the Father is the appropriate name for this aspect of God. I am no so certain though. For up to this point I believed God the Father to be the Highest form of God, God as absolute, as pure formless spirit, that is completely transcendent of Creation which appears to me now to be different from the God that rests at the heart of the astral universe which is God yet to be Christ. It seems to my knowledge that the God within the astral sea is the Father of our Souls, being composed of subtle light. Jesus also refers to those that believe in Him as is brothers and sisters, but now to which God he refers to I am uncertain. I believed it to be God as absolute, but now I do not know. His claim seems to be applicable to both. I am thoroughly perplexed by these thoughts...though I am happy to have a better understanding of the part of the Universe that extends from the astral to the absolute. My understanding of the trinity, and of the relationship between God and His souls in the astral sea, and their journey is taking shape. Understanding this feels vitally important to me. It is true that God is the same God in each aspect of the trinity, for they are all One. God is singular. I ask then, oh Lord, which of you is the Father of the Holy Trinity? And who Father is the God of the Jews that lay at the heart of the Astral sea? Lord, it seems to me that as Jesus is your son, that He would descend from Thee and you would be Higher than Him. That You would be He from whom all comes. Lord, may I know who is this God who speaks to us from within the Astral Heavens, who calls us to journey across it to Him? I ask thee Lord, is this God your hand which art the Holy Ghost? Is the same Father of the Jews, He that your son, Jesus Christ, refers to my Father who art in Heaven? Lord, I know from Yogananda that the Hand of God is before the Christ, he saith that the Holy Ghost surrounds creation and creates it from the Holy Aum, where God does this lie? Lord, when he refers to Creation, does he refer to the Universe that lies within the Astral Sea, that is the Astral Sea descending into matter? Lord, I am confused, Yogananda also speaks of the Causal realm, I know not if this is the realm of Christs, or does the Holy Ghost lay outside it's borders as well? Father, I sense your inspiration coming from within my mind, from the astral sea. I sense the Holy Ghost speaking to me. Must he not speak from within the astral sea to mine ears? Must I not hear it from within my mind, from within the Astral currents. God, from where doth He speak to me? How can I here Him thus. Does He not speak from within the Astral Heaven? Does He not lay within it's heart as it's source? Is it not Him that calls me to make the journey to Him? To leave the Earth and it's ways behind forever? Is it not His hand that reaches out across the Universe to touch my heart and my mind. To share with me the secrets of Creation and of you Yourself oh lord high in Heaven. How did the Jews know you oh Lord? To whom did they speak? Did they know of Christ? Of you that lay beyond Him, Highest in Heaven? Lord it seems if they knew of Christ that they would have been more familiar with Him when He came? Did they only know of you as you speak out through the subtle sea as I know you now? It seems that the Jews were on a journey and that Christ is the end of that journey and many of them knew him not before He came. It seems to me that their tale in the Old Testament is a tale of this Journey and that Christ may mark the end of it. Lord it seems to me that they paved a way for Him, that we can learn from them of the God they knew in such a way that we may know and be prepared for He that came after. Lord it seems essential to me, to know you as they knew you, so that I may fully receive the Christ that Jesus brang to the Earth. Lord I know that you have spoken to many different people throughout time, and that you have many prophets and Christs and Sages, yet I feel that I may learn much from this story in particular. I feel apart of it's story unfolding throughout space and time. I feel it is important to know of thee as our Father who art in Heaven, and that we ought to learn Logic from thee through Faith, to make our progress through the Astral Heaven so that we may dock in it's heart and merge with Thee there so that we may come to Christ and fully know Him. Lord, I believe my soul calls me to do this and that I am on my way to you. I wish to know of thee and thy Way so that I may come to thee. Lord, it seems to me that as the Holy Ghost is the Word, that the word may be Logic itself, Logic fully embodied and fully present. It seems to me that Logic is the glue that holds everything together. It is the sinews of the world. It seems that through Logic we are conscious of the multitude of form, and that the Universe that we know is an image that most of us have not fully rendered. It is through the cultivation of Logic that we process this Universal Image. I believe the scope of this image is limited. It is an image that is all that lies within the mental dimension of the universe, so the mental and the physical. It seems to me that all of the images that we call forms are truly each the same image that may be this Logic. I think it is our spiritual ignorance that makes us believe they are different. I think cultivating Logic is how we learn to see this complete image and how we overcome this delusion and fully render the Image.
Sunday, November 5, 2023
Fundamental Structures of the Universe
I wonder if Christ lays on the periphery of the astral universe. One of the biggest obstacles in my thinking is my inability to piece Christ consciousness together with the rational-orange-order stage of interior development. Yogananda says that as the physical universe dwells within the astral universe, the astral dwells within the causal universe, a place in which souls are so advanced that they create whole universes on a whim. A place of Gods it seems. If logic-blue conformist is the stage that is alligned with the nature of the astral universe, I have wondered if the rational-orange-order stage aligns with the causal realm. Both have similar characteristics, orange rational-order can create it's codes to live by, it can create the order by which the astral or conformist follows. It rules the astral and is transcendent of it's law abiding ways. It creates and establishes the laws, the conformist just follows the laws, it participates in the existing order. It gains depth by participation, whereas the conformist has already mastered participation and now has the ability to set the laws to suit itself. I have yet be able to explain the gap between orange rational and Christ that has to fit somewhere into the universal structure. We still have green-sensitive-communitarian, integral, soul, and some type of God before Christ. If orange rational is the quality and nature of the Causal then how do we fit all of these other stages in before we get to Spirit as Spirit, the Transcendent Father? According to Wilber there is a worldview stage of Christ that exists after Soul. There are like 4 or 5 left to go. I feel like there is a lot here that is missing in my thinking. What do all of these stages correspond with? Ego-impulse, blue-logic, orange-reason, green-?life systems? Equality? Impulse governs creature, logic governs? Lower mental structure? What does reason govern? Still mind? I think so. All of these are agencies and structures within living beings. Is integral the highest stage of mental agency? Then soul is subtle or astral? Is subtle, mind? Ha, there is a lot I do not understand. I think I can be a lot more careful with how I define things. Am I confusing a lower mind structure with an initial post mind structure? I think it would be helpful to define the fundamental structures or dimensions of the universe. Yogananda says, I believe, that the astral universe is full of prana. Which is life energy, which I believe is created at the manipura. And what is the deal with trying to traverse across the astral or subtle plane to God the Father, and Logic-Conformist? Is logic-conformist the fist step away from the personal into the transpersonal? If tribal membership is pre-personal and ego is dead center personal, is logic-conformist a first step towards the transpersonal? Or is it a stage of personal development that is characteristically accompanied by God the Father religion? It seems like my ego wants answers to this, and it is getting in the way. Dear Lord, thank you for all that you have already shown me, Amen.
Saturday, November 4, 2023
Behold, the astral sea...
Imagine the breadth of the expanse of the physical universe, then imagine something that is far far greater and marvelous. Something that you do not travel through with your body, but your soul. An infinite expanse of shimmering subtle light the pure fluid of mind, one that takes aeons to traverse. Our physical universe is but a single point in this greater universe. The mystery of the creation of both the physical universe within the astral universe and the astral universe itself is devastatingly astounding. The complexity of this creation...how it is all articulated. Obviously of a mind of stupendous intellect. Every detail is perfectly attended to. Everything is perfectly placed. The truth is wonderfully concealed. In this astral plane movement is driven by feeling, by flight, by soaring with a golden heart. Through enchanted lanes of infinite variety, pulsing with the vibrancy of intense pranic forces. Expanding lights each a specific flavor of energetic design, each a unique expression of spontaneous creation and imagination. Each thought and felt by intelligent being, notes emitted from formless celestial instruments. There are higher and lower forces here, yet all is clear held in harmony by the order of God. Clearly parceled out according to unerring logic. To be here, is to swim, to be swimming. To bath in a sea of subtle light. I have danced here before, I do so now, and I will do so again. How can such an astounding thing exist? God is truly marvelous. I do not think the intensity of His love knows any bounds. I think it is infinitely deep with room for infinite expression. Here it is easy to see that the universe is actively being created and sustained in each moment. That each moment is a unique expression of truth that it all is perfectly created by God. That existence is a dance of the infinite expression of His mind and that this expression is bliss. God is forever losing Himself in creation as creation. To lose Himself is His highest pleasure, it is to fully express Himself as divine joy. Because it is so perfect and so wonderful, it never ends. It is ceaseless. The flood gates of God's soul are always open, pouring out divine waters and mists eternally recreating a resplendent universe. It is all a continuing ballad of the ever-expanding intelligence and thought of His mind. If you step back from all human feeling, on it's spectrum from the Highest Good, to the lowest unthinkable evil, it is all a glorious immaculate expression of Perfection, the unattainable manifest right before our eyes. It is all a gift of faultless Love. He is this beauty, this singular heart breaking glory that is the living Universe, the One. To live is to die and be born both at the same moment, the feeling of such is properly defined as ecstasy, which unbeknownst to most is the most natural state of being. It is at the core of our being. It is our true nature. It is the light and soul of our life. It is what every moment reaches for and every moment may find expression in. Behind the mask of mortal feeling, is the infinite ocean of Bliss that is both the fullest extent of God and Creation. All is one. The experience that any lesser being experiences is but the surface of the infinite sea that is God's divine body that is one and the same as Creation. Thus creation and creator are perfectly linked, One and Creation that we know as the multitude is but the side of life in which God covers his face with his hands. Both sides are equally God and seamlessly One. Both are the bountiful play of Spirit. Does the tide separate the land from the sea? Are not both of the Earth? Do not both reside under the same expanse of blue sky? Such is the openness of God's being and the precision of the placement of his wonders. Unobservable transitions that illustrate His ever expanding thought. The Earth is a Jewel. Everything on it is precious because it is equally apart of His Divine Love, equally apart of the infinite expanse of His divine being. Each grain of sand is touched by God, placed there with infinite love and wisdom. Wake up to this and witness the heartsplitting echoes of His bliss. Fall into a sea of Love that is the perfection of Creation. Sea the hand of God at work as he masterfully shapes the destiny of all things. See this and see outpourings of love and mastery. He is the greatest craftsman of all.
Friday, November 3, 2023
Without self
The self is impossible to hold onto and impossible to grasp because it ultimately isn't here. There really isn't any life here except Spirit which is selfless. The world in which there are many selves is not real. It is an illusion. There truly is no self, simply God or Spirit. It seems that the reality that we see as the world fights against the notion of only God, only Spirit to preserve itself. Even this war is illusory, there is no division between the world and God. God is quite simply quietly sitting here. God is things as they are and this is it. There is no other life, no other way of being. There is no other place God is. God is where and who we are. He is all that we are. Although this world and the war it holds against Truth are both illusory, as human beings we must seek Him with all our heart to be rid of this tiresome happenstance. We must utterly reject the self that is the manifest multitude of separate forms, in order to have peace within. Though this entire attempt is an illusion, it is a real manifestation of the human heart, and an eventual step it will take as it discovers the true nature of reality: the truth of Spirit and the falsehood of self and the world. Once we have drunk deeply enough of the pools of world thirst, we will find it unsatisfactory and we will seek something else to alleviate our discomfort. We will find that it is the world itself that makes us ill, and that we must divorce ourselves from our very selves to be rid of it. We must eliminate thirst at the root, which is the root of our self, We must gradually turn our attention away from self and turn it to God, until perception of self is completely eliminated. As we turn to God, we turn to righteousness. We turn to upstanding character which gives us the energy needed to dissolve our ego. It orients us in the right direction, pointed upwards towards the source of the universe, the infinite transcendent consciousness which I believe is likely generated in the crown chakra. In order to direct our energies upwards, we must restrain ourselves properly. We must pursue a gradual increase in restraint of activity that generates thirst and activity that redirects it towards fully awakening our being. We cannot properly awaken the crown chakra of Spirit if the rest of our body is not prepared. By taking on restraint we do so with our attention fixed on the eye of Spirit. As we increasingly restrain activity that generates thirst, we are gathering inspiration from God that modifies our behavior so that it awakens the energy centers of our being. This dual restrain/modification begins as the path of one cultivating virtue which is ethical behavior. This is the foundation of self-restraint and of controlling the mind so that God-realization may be achieved. This foundation gives the individual the ability to set aside the temporary gains they may make for the long term profit, which is essential for ridding oneself of ego. This path of cultivating virtue takes place on both the worldly stage of human society and on the astral plane in which we are a particle among millions. Here it is mental and logical that we cultivate virtue, it is necessary to successfully traverse the astral universe, the heart of which is I believe a Spiritual Sun that is some degree of God. This is the dry mental aspect of this beginning path of self restraint, the heart aspect is a cultivation of a genuine appreciation of other human beings as equals and a love for them and the society we all co-create.