I am continually astounded by the degree to which we humans behave unconsciously throughout the day. The degree to which we are asleep is apparent in the results of our behavior in our so called, "waking state". The degree of delusion of the mind, the permeating violence, the utter unknowing of self- it seems to me that so many of us are walking in permanent blindness without a clue of the real consequences of our actions. It seems strange to me that we are so asleep. I wonder why more people do not see the truth and why we struggle so much to get by. It seems to me that we are stuck in strong habits, past down through the ages, that we slowly, painstakingly, replace through a growing objectivity in our vision. I wonder how this has occurred, when the true is so obvious. Yet I know that it is not something that many see. I wonder what has made us so insane, so spell-bound in imperfect thought. Have we always been lost in such darkness? Or did we descend into it as slowly as we have been coming out of it. I wonder how old the human species is, and I question agreed upon scientific consensus. I am perplexed by the incredibly complex body we possess that is interwoven with such perfect intelligence through multiple dimensions in what seems only can be described in a divine way. How has it come to pass that human beings possess the internal faculties prerequisite for divine sight? How is it that our bodies possess infinite power and infinite consciousness? Is this something that could have developed in known and accepted timeline for evolution of life on Earth? Did our higher faculties spontaneously arise out of an unavoidable deepening of complexity innate to intelligent life? Was their divine intervention? We're we created by divine beings whom acted on behalf of a divine will? We're we created by an alien species? I feel that the divine and alien must be intermingled due to the unfathomable omnipotent mechanics of our bodies. You can feel God within us, truly god is within all things. Perhaps all life is divine and heavenly and we mistake it to be of a lesser nature. Yet I do not think so...although I do believe that animals and perhaps even insects do possess higher psychic and divine faculties often overlooked. Is the Earth itself a divine being? Where did it's intelligence come from? Did it grow out of an ignorant world, or was it existent upon it's creation? I believe every human being is capable of completely liberated perception. Do we all possess the same organs in our bodies and the same psychic structures in our various divine bodies?
Are we all Gods waiting to be born? If so, then how have we fallen asleep in mass hypnosis?
There is the feeling that our descent into darkness is not merely a descent into egotism. It may feel as if what we lost was an awakened consciousness that was cultivated in our bodies. Perhaps we are not older than believed, but that we reached this awakening before in our history with perhaps in some ways less development of technology(less and different). Perhaps it was only a small portion of human civilization that reached this point. Yet if it were only a small portion that reached this point, then why do all of us have these bodies capable of God-consciousness? (If in fact all of us do). It is interesting that there are fossil records depicting the gradual evolution of life to man. Perhaps a universal divine will sculpted man from the Earth in a way that we partly know as "evolutionary theory". Perhaps there isn't an answer. I do think that what we call psychic and divine faculties may naturally develop in organisms over time. I think they may develop out of and into the already existing and seemingly perfect subtle mind fields like water flowing into channels. The evolution of the organism is pushing into new territory that already has parameters. In a way, there is only one way it can go. It has a little play in the new territory, but it also must develop in one exact way to move into and through that structure. It seems to me that the underlying structures of reality either have always existed, or were created as life evolved into them and through them by life itself. It also seems to be that the evolution of life is what sustains these structures. These mind fields that orient the evolution of life are in fact apart of life itself. They are probably one and the same, we just tend to identify with the organism over the environment, when if fact we are probably just as much our environments(fields, mind structures) as we are the organism evolving in and through them. Basically, the organism creates, shapes and sustains the mind-field and the mind-field creates, shapes and sustains the organism to such an extent that one does not exist without the other and that the life of the organism is totally dependent of the field. We see ourselves as these beings which end with the top layer of our skin and our hair, yet we miss the incredible unending flow of our energies, senses, and being throughout space and probably even time. Perhaps our energies mingle with our outer world to such an extent that in reality we are the outer world as much as we are our bodies. That a clock on the wall is as much apart of me as the organs in my body. Then, such a notion as "my body" is ridiculous as what I am is not centered on my organism, not centered anywhere because I am everywhere. I am not this organism at all unless as I am this organism, I am all organisms and all that is. And what sustains me is not dependent on the functioning of this organism alone, it is dependent of the functioning of the entire universe itself. The universe thus sustains itself somehow. It seems to be amply supplied with surging vitality. Such a thing also seems ridiculous. To imagine that this universe is somehow alive and that it can die seems to be contrived. These are my descriptions of something in a way wholly unknown to me. It may even be contrived to say that such a thing as a universe even exists because all the parameters I have to describe it are based off of my fallacious subjective experience as a "man organism" which as I have above stated is not something that is real.
The whole idea that something is divine and something is not seems ridiculous in a universe that cannot be defined yet alone divided. The desire to know is itself perhaps unnecessary and even meaningless because the idea of knowing and not knowing may not in fact exist at all outside of our subjective, ignorant "human" experience. Questioning anything may not in fact mean anything when you get to the bottom of it, or provide any answers. It may not even be something worth doing, or that has any real value in doing. Real value or real purpose. We assume that there are answers to these things. Yet that road has no end. And it is not the full extent of who we are. We are beyond questions and answering. We are beyond the thinking mind.
Tuesday, July 14, 2020
Wednesday, July 8, 2020
Infinite power
We often assume that negativity is in fact wholly negative. We turn away from it in our hearts and live in a paralyzing dichotomy of good versus bad, constantly repressing and ignoring part of ourselves. Part or many parts of our self. This is essentially always having a handicap. I think a step in personal maturity is to move beyond this dichotomy and repression of part of ourself, part of our hearts, part of our life force.
I'm not sure if we can move completely beyond pain, suffering, delusion, dualistic thinking, etc. I don't think we need to, but I believe that we wish to end suffering and delusion in our hearts and that we definitely can decrease them in our lives by increasing our understanding and wisdom. Part of increasing this understanding is seeing that everything we feel and see as negative is also positive. We subjectively experience it as negativity, when in fact negativity might not exist at all outside of our subjective experience. We call things positive or negative according to how they make us feel in the present. I believe that it is our delusion that makes us think in this way: to think that something can help us and something else will hurt us. This is a very radical idea, but it makes more sense when you begin to look at everything that happens to us as medicine. Or not even medicine, but just the ceaseless creation and evolution of form. Or that the only reasons we believe in negativity are that we are afraid of death and we are ignorant of inseparability of form. We believe that good things are separate from negative ones, when in fact they are inseparable and one. We believe that there is a thing called life separate from death and that we need to prevent death at all costs. If everything is one and apart of our being, then we cannot die, we never began to be alive as an individual person(outside of our subjective experience), we have nothing to gain or lose (because we are not a separate person who can gain anything, we always have everything, because we are everything). You can talk about this, but I believe this conversation transcends communication.
The point is that the way we see things may be much of many assumptions and that our constant striving to uphold and repress may be largely unnecessary in the long term. The dichotomy of good v.s. evil or good versus bad seems to be largely fiction and the result of expanding consciousness towards enlightenment and temporary delusion due to ignorance (an unilluminated mind).
This is my attempt to lighten up your thinking and point you in the direction of release from conceptualizing and the trap of dualistic thinking. It's essentially abandoning the war for radical acceptance of one's position in the present moment. Release from attachments and striving created by dualistic thinking and misunderstanding.
We don't need to war against the world, against assumed negativity, against ourselves. Negativity is a point for further understanding, for deepening consciousness and feeling, for finding another part of ourselves and including it in our general movement. Negativity is the point that is the release from egoic thinking and being into something much different. It is the doorway to Christ and God in a way transcendent of dogma.
Negativity is just as expanding and alive as what we see as positive in our lives. It is form being born right now, exactly the same as positivity is form being born right now. It has direction, it is expanding and it is apart of you, apart of us. We see it as negative in our delusion, and turn away from it thinking it will keep us from darkness. It may partially keep us away, but it will also keep us in it. If we turn away from life too much, we will lose our connection to the divine, and we will be lost in darkness. It is the various imaginings of negativity that lead us to turning away. Illumination and liberation come from turning towards life, by facing what we perceive as negative and challenging this perception in the light of God. We intuit we are something more, that life is wholesome. By turning towards what we feel and think is negative in life, we turn towards God, truth, and liberation. The roots of negativity are knowledge and illumination, release and salvation.
This isn't a call to ignore our senses and completely abandon our beliefs, this is dangerous and foolish. This action is calling the bird by another name and thinking it's a different bird. I'm suggesting that if we look deeper into our feelings and into the nature of reality we may find that the underlying structures are not what we supposed they were. The rules to the game are different if not simply more complex and by understanding and perceiving this revealed nature we can be freer and more fulfilled.
Bad is an idea and a social construct. It has to do with survival and obtaining what we want. It isn't absolutely true, it's contrived. This doesn't mean that things don't hurt and we won't or ought not to suffer, it just means that nothing is absolutely bad. Bad is subjective and relative. All our ideas are subjective and relative. Why is this important? It means that we don't have to be attached to how things are. It means that in a way, we are something much bigger that what we do and don't like. It means that part of being free and fulfilled is seeing beyond conventional dualistic thinking to a reality much less confined and stratified.
I think we take wisdom from this deeper reality and use it in our human lives. It informs us to make "good" decisions, decisions that are informed by the deeper whole rather than the deluded mind. All that "good" is in this case is clarity in judgment. Clarity opposed to a mind muddled in contrived beliefs. It is "good" because it isn't insane. It is grounded in sense rather than in blind devotion to belief. This leads to healthy social organization opposed to the degeneration of social order due to disconnect from sense, being lost in contrived worldviews. It is good, because it allows our energies to flow harmoniously, which leads to love and joy, the greatest wonders of being alive. This is what goodness really is.
Goodness is something other than merely what is opposed to that which is negative. Goodness is seeing clearly. I think in a way the Good is a universe without the negative in so much as it is a universe where the negative and the positive have become one. It's not a universe separate from our own, but our own seen with eyes less clouded by judgment. Imagine the whole universe expanding within you in indescribable form radiating from an unperceivable center. Blossoming infinitely, unendingly, spontaneously, always fresh and novel in it's ceaseless creation. There is no inside or outside, up or down. It is a spring of lightness and laughter, but not in the way you would imagine.
The experience of negativity can arise here, it is one with the whole. But, what if it wasn't as menacing. What if it was known that it was alive and one with your heart, waiting to be totally dissolved into your being. What if it was known that everything was alive and positively expanding. If you turned negativity upside down, it would be something that didn't degrade experience and take away from life, but it added to it with equal vivacity as that which is wholly felt to be positive. Fundamentally, that which is negative is of the same energetic content as that which is positive. We suffer it when it does not align with our heart's desires. If you remove the mask of our heart's inherent bias, that which was negative is no longer negative, it is a unique living and an expanding positive expression among and infinite number of other unique positive expressions all abounding from the source which is life itself producing life itself. Everything negative: anger, hate, fear, distaste, all the atrocities of the world are all positive experiences in the way that they are creative and positively expanding in their fundamental energetic nature.
We imagine that they are destructive to life's complexity and fullness, but it seems to me that this is impossible. Everything is one with the creative expansion of the universe. Everything enhances the universe. I don't fully understand this, but there seems to be much truth here. It seems to me that it is our dualistic and contrived thinking that actually create the suffering that we experience. We are afraid to let go to the ultimate because we think we will be destroyed by accepting our dark side, when it is really our dark side that repressed is what destroys our unimpeded consciousness. For most of us, this isn't a walk in the park. This is a radically new way of living, seemingly very alien from what we know. It is very different. This doesn't mean it is wrong. I don't think it's right for everyone to pursue this, and if you are I don't think it is necessarily right that you pursue it full force.
This is the underlying nature of reality. The reality that seemingly underlies our everyday human experiences. Describing it thus is merely a convenient way to present it to people who don't understand it. In reality, it is how things are always. We just live in delusion. We think things are separate and that we are separate from each other and the universe. We think in terms of good versus bad, up versus down. It gets to a point when you see that these are simply ideas that help us describe the universe. They do not exist outside of our imaginations. They do not in fact delineate the world in so much as borders on a map exist on the terrain of the world. It's all contrived. We are in fact not separate individuals. We are One and undivided and impossibly describable. The key is to see outside of our ordinary binary consciousness into perception of the raw and unadulterated universe. This is what gives us the aha moment where we understand the complete foolishness of our ways and the ways of much of our society. This is what allows us to be wise and to care for each other. This is what allows us to be free. What if nothing is good and nothing is bad, yet everything is right now, expanding untouched by our minds and our thoughts and who we think we are. What if this is what is real and much of what we experience is delusion. What if it didn't matter if we were enlightened or not because this delusion was one with wisdom and insight. What if it didn't matter because as we are we are all we can ever be right now because we are the entirety of the universe exactly as we are now and there is nothing we can do to change this. Negative, positive, words, spla, goop, GOD.
This isn't a call to ignore our senses and completely abandon our beliefs, this is dangerous and foolish. This action is calling the bird by another name and thinking it's a different bird. I'm suggesting that if we look deeper into our feelings and into the nature of reality we may find that the underlying structures are not what we supposed they were. The rules to the game are different if not simply more complex and by understanding and perceiving this revealed nature we can be freer and more fulfilled.
Bad is an idea and a social construct. It has to do with survival and obtaining what we want. It isn't absolutely true, it's contrived. This doesn't mean that things don't hurt and we won't or ought not to suffer, it just means that nothing is absolutely bad. Bad is subjective and relative. All our ideas are subjective and relative. Why is this important? It means that we don't have to be attached to how things are. It means that in a way, we are something much bigger that what we do and don't like. It means that part of being free and fulfilled is seeing beyond conventional dualistic thinking to a reality much less confined and stratified.
I think we take wisdom from this deeper reality and use it in our human lives. It informs us to make "good" decisions, decisions that are informed by the deeper whole rather than the deluded mind. All that "good" is in this case is clarity in judgment. Clarity opposed to a mind muddled in contrived beliefs. It is "good" because it isn't insane. It is grounded in sense rather than in blind devotion to belief. This leads to healthy social organization opposed to the degeneration of social order due to disconnect from sense, being lost in contrived worldviews. It is good, because it allows our energies to flow harmoniously, which leads to love and joy, the greatest wonders of being alive. This is what goodness really is.
Goodness is something other than merely what is opposed to that which is negative. Goodness is seeing clearly. I think in a way the Good is a universe without the negative in so much as it is a universe where the negative and the positive have become one. It's not a universe separate from our own, but our own seen with eyes less clouded by judgment. Imagine the whole universe expanding within you in indescribable form radiating from an unperceivable center. Blossoming infinitely, unendingly, spontaneously, always fresh and novel in it's ceaseless creation. There is no inside or outside, up or down. It is a spring of lightness and laughter, but not in the way you would imagine.
The experience of negativity can arise here, it is one with the whole. But, what if it wasn't as menacing. What if it was known that it was alive and one with your heart, waiting to be totally dissolved into your being. What if it was known that everything was alive and positively expanding. If you turned negativity upside down, it would be something that didn't degrade experience and take away from life, but it added to it with equal vivacity as that which is wholly felt to be positive. Fundamentally, that which is negative is of the same energetic content as that which is positive. We suffer it when it does not align with our heart's desires. If you remove the mask of our heart's inherent bias, that which was negative is no longer negative, it is a unique living and an expanding positive expression among and infinite number of other unique positive expressions all abounding from the source which is life itself producing life itself. Everything negative: anger, hate, fear, distaste, all the atrocities of the world are all positive experiences in the way that they are creative and positively expanding in their fundamental energetic nature.
We imagine that they are destructive to life's complexity and fullness, but it seems to me that this is impossible. Everything is one with the creative expansion of the universe. Everything enhances the universe. I don't fully understand this, but there seems to be much truth here. It seems to me that it is our dualistic and contrived thinking that actually create the suffering that we experience. We are afraid to let go to the ultimate because we think we will be destroyed by accepting our dark side, when it is really our dark side that repressed is what destroys our unimpeded consciousness. For most of us, this isn't a walk in the park. This is a radically new way of living, seemingly very alien from what we know. It is very different. This doesn't mean it is wrong. I don't think it's right for everyone to pursue this, and if you are I don't think it is necessarily right that you pursue it full force.
This is the underlying nature of reality. The reality that seemingly underlies our everyday human experiences. Describing it thus is merely a convenient way to present it to people who don't understand it. In reality, it is how things are always. We just live in delusion. We think things are separate and that we are separate from each other and the universe. We think in terms of good versus bad, up versus down. It gets to a point when you see that these are simply ideas that help us describe the universe. They do not exist outside of our imaginations. They do not in fact delineate the world in so much as borders on a map exist on the terrain of the world. It's all contrived. We are in fact not separate individuals. We are One and undivided and impossibly describable. The key is to see outside of our ordinary binary consciousness into perception of the raw and unadulterated universe. This is what gives us the aha moment where we understand the complete foolishness of our ways and the ways of much of our society. This is what allows us to be wise and to care for each other. This is what allows us to be free. What if nothing is good and nothing is bad, yet everything is right now, expanding untouched by our minds and our thoughts and who we think we are. What if this is what is real and much of what we experience is delusion. What if it didn't matter if we were enlightened or not because this delusion was one with wisdom and insight. What if it didn't matter because as we are we are all we can ever be right now because we are the entirety of the universe exactly as we are now and there is nothing we can do to change this. Negative, positive, words, spla, goop, GOD.
Tuesday, July 7, 2020
Nirvana #1 Nirvana is samsara
Nirvana is samsara. There is no need for distinction. No need for two words. No distinction between this human world or natural world we live in and nirvana. Nirvana is not a place, it is this place. It is life everywhere right now. It is thinking that what is good or right is separate from how we are that keeps us from seeing nirvana. It keeps us striving for future objects whether these objects are materials, or ideas, or relationships. As long as we are fully immersed in the delusion of separateness, we will not see nirvana, even though separateness arises in and is nirvana. Nirvana is interchangeable with any word. Everything is nirvana. One of the hardest things for us to learn is to be ok with who we are now. We are constantly upset with how things are. Always reaching for something different. The key to happiness is complete and total self-acceptance. This requires awareness of one's deepest self. The key to liberation is also realization of the nature of the self, which is also the awakening of the self to true nature or nirvana.
Liberation is awakening from total immersion in egoic consciousness. Total immersion in separate-feeling identity and experience. Total immersion means that an individual always feels separate, whether it is subtle or obvious. Total immersion in egoic consciousness means that an individual does not understand the true nature of reality. It means that the individual is completely immersed in striving and that they are completely immersed in attachment to form. They are wholly immersed in the experience/occurrence of personal needing and believing that life is about fulfilling a person's needs. They believe this is the true nature of reality. Finding fulfillment for the needy person. Realizing true nature means seeing through this delusion. It means seeing through personal attachment and personal striving. It doesn't mean overcoming them. It means seeing beyond them.
If you can see beyond your personal striving and your personal attachments in any way, you see nirvana. To see beyond them at all is to see nirvana. They are the hindrances. To not be hindered by them at all in any way is for a spot to open in the mind that is nirvana. All that nirvana is, is life beyond these hindrances. Life beyond striving and attachment. It cannot be defined. It is the end of one season and the beginning of another. It is the end of total immersion in separate feeling consciousness. It is complete penetration of consciousness through delusion. Although it is not a complete eradication of delusion. It does not require a complete eradication of delusion to see through it. Nor does it require the eradication of negativity or suffering to see it, however much we may wish to abandon them entirely.
Liberation is awakening from total immersion in egoic consciousness. Total immersion in separate-feeling identity and experience. Total immersion means that an individual always feels separate, whether it is subtle or obvious. Total immersion in egoic consciousness means that an individual does not understand the true nature of reality. It means that the individual is completely immersed in striving and that they are completely immersed in attachment to form. They are wholly immersed in the experience/occurrence of personal needing and believing that life is about fulfilling a person's needs. They believe this is the true nature of reality. Finding fulfillment for the needy person. Realizing true nature means seeing through this delusion. It means seeing through personal attachment and personal striving. It doesn't mean overcoming them. It means seeing beyond them.
If you can see beyond your personal striving and your personal attachments in any way, you see nirvana. To see beyond them at all is to see nirvana. They are the hindrances. To not be hindered by them at all in any way is for a spot to open in the mind that is nirvana. All that nirvana is, is life beyond these hindrances. Life beyond striving and attachment. It cannot be defined. It is the end of one season and the beginning of another. It is the end of total immersion in separate feeling consciousness. It is complete penetration of consciousness through delusion. Although it is not a complete eradication of delusion. It does not require a complete eradication of delusion to see through it. Nor does it require the eradication of negativity or suffering to see it, however much we may wish to abandon them entirely.
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