Cleansing

 I have been pretty stressed the last several days. Job search and the Ukraine war. I have been getting through a lot and doing a lot of good work, I just feel emotionally off center. Like I haven't been able to find my happy place. I feel a lot of pressure right now coming in from the world and also coming out from within me. It can be pretty overwhelming. When I am not unbalanced it makes it harder to be wise. When I am scared, I want to react compulsively to circumstances. This is opposite I believe of what is wise to do. Here, I think it is better to still ourselves, than to generate more movement. The latter seems to get us more unbalanced, making things more chaotic and further outside of our control. It times like these, it seems the most difficult to just calm down and let things flow. Our instincts rise up very strongly here and overwhelm our senses. Let go and let flow. I think if we let go carefully enough, we can let go of compulsion and rest in readiness. I think the best position is one of non-attachment, having a still mind. One not fixated on any particular outcome. In this stillness I believe our strength is free to pool. When we cling, we restrict the flow of our strength and our ability to respond effectively to the situation. Forcing stillness clearly will not work, I think stillness has to naturally arise on its own accord. It does, when realization is deep enough. It is like a creek in the wilderness that belongs to no one. I think this is the dao. I believe all things are the dao, from our human perspectives we are separate from the dao, our lives are muddied, and need improvement. If we step back from our limited perspectives, we see that our individual experiences that appear narrow to us are simply the spray of water shooting off rocks beneath a waterfall. Noisy, all over the place, but still water. We think our thoughts are our thoughts and our lives our lives, belonging solely to us and divided by sharp peaks from everything else. The Earth is the land on one side of the mountain, the land on the other, and the mountain in-between. I think each thought is the Earth thinking and the Earth moving. Water splashing beneath a waterfall. Each person is the Earth being a human being. I don't think there is any difference between anything. I think movement is no movement anywhere. I do not think we are movement, I think we are no movement. I think this is the dao. I think our human experience moment to moment is Earthly landscapes appearing in thin air. Simply arising here. Jagged peaks, ravines, wide plains and grassland, blue skies. Earth appearing within us. Earth appearing here. I think when we think these are problems, these are my problems, he is such and such, she is so and so we get stuck. When we see that all our feelings and experiences are rocks and stones and trees, we can see that they are standing as they are and they don't need our help. We don't need to hold onto them to make sure their ok. They are, they are simply there, here. I think if we allow these mountains to be, despite their jaggedness we don't have to cling to them and we can flow down the river without drowning. It seems it takes drowning to see this though, and this is simply how things are. 

Processing...

 I have been moving into new territory recently. I am always rapidly changing, but this is more substantial. More epochal. A fundamental phase change that happens to me every 3-5 years. This phase change is solidifying its emergence as we speak. Over the last month I have recognized the content and quality of the new phase. It is a developmental phase change into a higher order, it appears to be a more mature ego. Many years ago I recognized that my own personal expression was inauthentic and that what I appeared to be was not what I actually was. My development was far more disrupted, scattered, and immature than what I projected. I sensed that this was an emergence that was deeply rooted in the cultural psyche I was brought up in and that many others exhibited the same behaviors as myself. I understand it better now than I did back then, but what I think it is is projected conformist blue that is not authentic conformist blue, but contains elements of several different developmental levels of consciousness. It is the insincere, "I am a nice person" sentiment and way of interpersonal interrelating that is largely a survival mechanism, a mask to hide egoic impulses, and tribal immersion. I think it generally hides the authentic self, and authentic feelings. Much of this blue can be authentic though, it is just often a heavily distorted and confused expression full of a lot of other material. Authentic self which can be broken up into authentic drives are repressed because they don't fit into the perceived necessary behaviors that make individuals feel safe within their social environment. This may reveal that it is at least perceived that conformist blue is the best way to relate to other human beings. This obviously is not the case for everyone, or the only inauthentic way to express oneself. Keep in mind that here individuals are authentically expressing themselves inauthentically. This inauthenticity is authentically who they are. 

What has bothered me the most about this was the degree of disease present in this distortion of real and valid drives. Especially how the desire to fit the mold blinds us to realities that are necessary for our survival as a species. I sensed that people were aware of greater ways of behaving, but were choosing to be ignorant because it was easy, comfortable, and guaranteed immediate survival and social inclusion. I senses the astounding degree to which we were ignorant of what would be an appropriate response to the circumstances at hand and was deeply disturbed. To be fair, most people to not see as deeply as I do and therefore do not sense the consequences of their behavior as sensitively as I may. But, I know for a fact that their is a widespread culture of compulsively consciously choosing to hide oneself in ignorance in this country. To hide in the fantasy and glamour of commercial/hollywood/corporate hysteria. A hysteria that is a derailed train heading off of a cliff into the abyss. 

I still have a lot of hard feelings towards this behavior, in others and myself, and I think now that my harsh reaction is an overreaction. Genuine  blue conformist dominated individuals are built to conform and in a lot of ways can't do any better. They trust the order and are bound by conforming to it. It is their main mode of engagement. They are locked in in a lot of ways even if it looks bad. The whole situation is incredibly complicated. True blues are manipulated by  true reds and true oranges who are truly self-centered or are so involved in self interest that their lower modes of interaction are corrupted. The red has no established blue order, no sincere care for others, and the corporate orange has forgotten the genuine validity of respecting blue consciousness because they are so immersed in themselves. As we evolve, red is incorporated into blue and blue incorporated into orange so that orange has red within blue within its orange as its overall consciousness structure. These are three of more modes of consciousness. Blue conformist uses tribal ritual as a means of securing conformity. Tribal ritual is so crude and uninformed that it can be quite dangerous. Conformist also allows racism and sexism and all sorts of isms to continue as long as people are still successfully conforming to the social order. In becomes meek in regards to higher truths that blues genuinely experience. 

I think I have gotten a little off track. Originally I was talking about inauthentic blue diseases. Another ghastly disease of the magnetism of conformist blue collective consciousness is the confusion of uroboric or typhonic consciousness (perhaps early membership as well) with conformist consciousness which is transcendent of these and of an egoic worldview which comes out of a tribal worldview which comes out of an instinctual survival worldview. The confusion of tribal with conformist pissed me off. They appear so similar, but are vastly different. People in all appearances true blues, but underneath you can smell the tribal fear ruling their minds. Robots, zombies, etc. Insincere sincerity. The social ideal is the true blue, the individual capacity is tribal sacrifice of higher modes of consciousness including authentic blue sentiment and authentic egoic desires. Its pre egocentrism appearing as post egocentrism. The heroic good guy is really a snake. This really bothered me because I was in many ways a true blue that lost all his comrades in middle school to the dark snake of the abyss. Lol. I was like, "WTF?? Why is everyone being so shitty right now?? Hormones, exposure to less nurturing, more volatile psychic currents. So fucking bizarre. I don't think I ever fulfilled my blue because I denied it when I realized that the American dream was horribly corrupt. I lashed out with my newfound clarity of orange reason, post conformist, post conventional mentality. I confused  the insidiousness of tribal and egoic consciousness with blue meekness: a blue's inability to step out of conformity to deal with threats perceived by a more rational consciousness. They were all bad and I hurt enough to throw them all out. Blue was the best of the lot in terms of it's innocence and degree of genuine care for others. I have mistrusted so much since then and spent a quite deal of time trying to figure this all out. 

I have spent a long time rediscovering these lower drives that I have outgrown (at least as by being centered in them). Rediscovering and reincorporating them. Roughly ten years. Meticulously reintegrating them into my operating system and conscious worldview. Starting from the bottom and building up from there. I am not sure how clean this process has been, but I think it has been fairly clean. If I am correct then now I have made it back to true blue. I feel genuinely here in true blue territory. It feels very good in a lot of ways. I feel genuinely ready to commit to the world order, not to be swallowed by it, but to immerse myself in it so I can fully apply myself in it and be able to fully communicate within it. It is an essential part of who I am. The conventional roles we play and the conventional ways we conform to and engage in so that human society can maintain equilibrium. It's quite necessary because it is a shared language that we agree upon so that we can coexist. Just because the current world order isn't perfect doesn't mean we should throw it out. To desire so is a reaction to its imperfections, not a thought out response. I think we will always need agreed upon rules and behaviors to coexist. I don't think this is a bad thing. It is bad when the rules we conform to are out of balance with the natural harmony of the universe, with our authentic and valid inner drives that determine our health and wellness as individuals and as a collective. Blue isn't bad at it's core, this doesn't mean it is the most advanced way of behaving or being. We don't stop here. There is much more after this. Much more that I personally am looking forward to growing into. 

So basically I let go of my drives and let myself fall into the space that arose after this. This went through a lot of transformation that eventually crystallized into a basic ego, simply clear egoic desire, a sense of me and mine. This has become undesirable as my worldview has expanded into true blue. Where I find myself now. After this is orange reason and self interest, the departure from conformity to fulfill ones own interests, which doesn't necessarily have to sacrifice blue or anything below. I hope to grow healthily out of blue into orange and maintain my strength in both red and in blue as I do so. 

God Bless Kiev

 This is it. Nothing else anywhere else. There is nowhere else but here right now. This is the cause of all the suffering, wishing things were different than they are. Believing they can be. We don't have anything else but what we have right now. When we turn away from this moment, when we deny the reality of this moment, we turn away from reason. We choose to live in a fantasy and lose our sense of what is real. All of the problems of the world come from this. Us avoiding what is real because it is unpleasant and undesirable, because we feel we cannot face what is happening. It is simply human nature and although it is our individual burden to bear how we do this, it is not solely our responsibility. It is a mechanism of the universe which the entirety of the universe generates. Our turning away is apart of how things are. Suffering is apart of how things really are. As human beings we may turn away from what we are afraid of. We may also consciously turn towards our fears with the intention of facing and realizing what is real. The fate of the world rests on the degree to which we turn away or turn towards what is happening right now. The greater the degree we turn towards what is real, the greater the degree we mature in our capacity to respond effectively to what is happening. The more we realize we are not alone, but are a part of an interdependent system that includes every thing in the whole universe. Each human being is connected to every other human being, and to every living thing on this planet. What each of us does affects the whole system. We depend on it, it depends on us. I believe this universe is alive and our life is one with it. I believe if we generate fear and hate we will have fear and hate set upon us. If we wish to be free we must discover a way to live that is not bound by fear. If we wish to see clearly, we must do so. I do not blame anyone for what is happening in our world right now, but each of us is responsible for how what we do affects what is happening. What each of us does shapes the world we live in. This is a fact. If we hide from the world, the world will eventually eat us alive. If we face the world we can hope to stand up in it. To have dignity and respect. If we do not stand up, we will be swallowed by ignorance and uncaring violence. The light is here, the truth is here. It is our choice how we face this. 

No division between anything at all

 I believe each thing is every other thing, or the same thing appearing in different ways. I think we are attached to appearances because we think things are fundamentally different, because we believe in choices and qualitative distinctions. I think if we are still here, there is nowhere to go, nothing to do, and nothing to become. This amidst the matrix of flux. To the separate self, there is qualitative distinctions and choices. This is the matrix which I speak of. I think we believe we are in control of our destinies, and responsible for the outcome of the decisions we make, yet I am not sure how real this is. What if the sea is always shifting and we are not a particular changing current in the sea, but the entire sea itself. Regardless of the change, we remain the sea and are undisturbed. Changes happen within us, but we are fundamentally unaffected. This is metaphor for what cannot be fixed to any particular words, what is apparent, yet is not defined by how we communicate it. This to me is what we find at the very bottom of the sea, a place where things are happening to no one in particular. Where perhaps nothing is happening at all. I think we discover this place by pursuing the breadcrumbs that appear when we begin to abandon clinging to how things are. It seems to me now that nothing is worth clinging to because appearances are deceiving and we cannot find lasting satisfaction in anything that we perceive with our senses. I think we find peace when we let go of striving and surrender fully to how things are. When we let go of who we are we don't need to be anyway in particular, we can just be as we are right now. Being here we can see that there is nowhere else to be and nothing else we can accomplish, that this being is the entirety of what is and what is real, and nothing else exists outside of this. What this is is how things always are right now, regardless of how we or anyone perceive them. There is no high or low path, no middle path, simply the way that is all ways that is now. Nothing is outside of it, beneath it, or above it. No one is better or worse, walking it, or not walking it. We simply walk it because we exist, everyone and everything exists, so everything is the path. Which makes the path not something exclusively special, but simply special because it is mysterious. We try to escape or define what is good or worthy, we try and carve up the world to protect and liberate ourselves. We imagine the world is divided. I do not think it is. We cling to notions of what is good and what is liberation and what is true spirituality often because we wish to avoid suffering and have a bliss that fits with our outlook. We can have a better understanding of what is real, but these divisions do not apply to this moment. We can't carve up this moment with our thoughts about things. These thoughts exist in our imaginations and do not fundamentally alter what is here. If we are not afraid of dying and not afraid of suffering and nothing is better or worse, this world is a lot less threatening. We don't feel compelled to change it so much. We can simply suffer whatever comes our way without judgment.  Clinging to life not does not guarantee life, and the life we wish to cling to isn't real. Our desire to perpetuate this life is so strong that we ignore deeper wisdom. The wisdom that shows how clinging itself keeps us blind and keeps us suffering because we are afraid to fully face the reality of our own death and whatever lies beyond. What lies beyond is what is real, what is beyond our clinging, our fear, and our beliefs conjured by this fear and clinging. When you see all of this clearly enough, you realize that this is the trap, this is the prison that we can escape from, it is not eternal life of an imaginary separate self, it is awareness of what lies beyond this narrow understanding. Enlightenment doesn't belong to individual beings, but to what lies behind individual consciousness that is truly the only consciousness that exists, the only reality. Enlightenment is seeing things as they are, it is not attaining a personal quality that makes us individually special. Enlightenment does not belong to individuals, it belongs to the universe. It is transcendent, transpersonal. Our ego jumps at this as a salty treat and we allow ourselves to be deceived by these notions because we want to get off forever. It doesn't belong to anyone and it doesn't belong to us. Enlightenment permeates, it does not isolate. I guess I am just sick of the ego, it just seems like a drunk fool that gives off a very unpleasant smell. I also wish people to see more clearly what is real, so they will be less drunk and make less of a mess in our world. There is nothing we can do to save ourselves. Jesus is right, we must give up our lives, so we can gain our lives. The key lies in discerning the difference between the ego and the soul, if the soul in this case is the absolute. The ego is deluded perception of who we are, and the soul is how things are when we free our mind from the matrix of conditioned consciousness. When you can see this clearly, it is obvious that egoic tendencies do not achieve what they intend to and that the whole egoic construct is not real in any way except as a temporary relative experience of how things are. Things I do believe, are never how the ego sees them. When we get down to the bottom of it, we see that the ego not only is not real, but was never real and never has existed. All there is is soul. If the absolute is infinite, how can anything else exist? Their is no ego, their is simply soul. The dilemma of ego and soul plays out in human consciousness, but I don't think the two are different in any way. If there is no difference in anything, then everything is the same. Striving is not striving. Things are not defined by their definitions. Their is no difference between anything. Everything is one. No high, no bottom. No middle. No beginning, no end. No today, no tomorrow. What these things point to distracts us from what is real. What they point to is real when we see through how each thing is different from every other thing. Everything is the same thing, the same being. When we don't cling, when clinging passes, we see what is real. What lies beyond all division. Not beyond as beyond but in the same space, a beyond that is the end of the way we saw things before. The way we see before dissolves as we see beyond apparent divisions. No such thing! Apparent divisions. Ridiculous. We think there is a beyond and a before. Obviously there is only a beyond. No before. Just beyond. Point point point, no pointing! No seeing. No looking. No taking. No moving, No shaking. No disturbing. No ending. No beginning. Just being. Being. Being. Being. What can I point to? I can't point to anything. 

Living in the world today

 I have been very overwhelmed by life over the last month and sufficiently overwhelmed over the last year. It's funny how I can feel this way, be this way, regardless of the profound understanding I possess. It is true that last year I lost my center of gravity and found myself extremely disoriented in my life here on Earth in this Universe. It is true that this happened also regardless of the incredible vision I possessed. I see now, I believe, perhaps much clearer, the scope of everything that constitutes what keeps us afloat in this Universe. We try to stay afloat using what understanding we have, making our best choices. This is based off of limited information. It seems quite clear to me that as long as we depend on limited information to make these decisions, we will be in jeopardy of sinking under the sea of stability, our consciousness and livelihood vulnerable. You may find it ridiculous to consider any reality in which we can guarantee stability for ourselves, an ultimate stability, I would agree if this self in question is limited to the self which is our mortal consciousness. I may also concede that regardless of the definition of self, this is impossible. But, in a way, in a powerful way, I believe we can insure the stability of our very being through the Promethean, in the most divine sense, feat of fully processing all of the content of the universe, a feat which I feel is most appropriately labeled, Yoga. Or the undertaking and fulfillment of yogic science. We may believe yoga to be a moral and spiritual path. It is these, but if we categorize it as some distant and removed saintly, sagely pursuit, we miss its fundamental nature and design. This is the unifying of mortal personal consciousness with infinite universal consciousness, which is not limited to a moral path or our dualistic notions of spirituality. Objectively it is simply downloading the file whose content is the data that constitutes the makeup of the entire Universe. Every detail and every structure seamlessly interwoven into one permeable body. You may find it difficult to comprehend the notion that the entirety of the universe is living consciousness. Seeing it this way helps us realize that every component from micro to macro, is subtle energy that all interdependently is and generates universal consciousness. If our human mind is a part of this infinite field, and our mental processing is a part of a universal mental processing that is shared among all forms, and human beings have the internal capacity to expand our limited consciousness into forms beyond what is commonly perceived to be the limit of our consciousness, then we can process the entire universe of data. We would have to be internally capable of processing dimensions of the universe vastly beyond what is commonly believed to be possible. We would have to be built to expand in such a way, which internal mechanisms designed to function on every dimension of the universe. The miracle I continually encounter that I must constantly strive to remember is that we are designed in such a way, and we have such a capacity. If you knew you were capable of this, what would you do? If this was the heart of every pursuit of humankind, and the highest good, and that which fulfilled all desire, function, and purpose, what would you do? If this was the most practical, most compassionate, most fulfilling path to pursue, what would you do? I don't think this path is about living forever and avoiding suffering. I think it is about awakening to truth and finding real fulfillment as a human being here and now. It is not distant and removed, it is at the heart of everything that we do. It is not snobbishly or impossibly moral, or anti body anti-desire, it is not anti anything, it is simply wisdom that comes from seeing things clearly. A wisdom that doesn't separate us from our peers and make us otherworldly, but comes from our hearts when we see clearly the consequences of what we are doing. It appears to be impossibly distant, impossibly other from our regular existence when I see it as what anyone would do if they possessed a great clarity about how they and things are. This path doesn't ask us to instantaneously give up what we desire. It asks us to question if what we desire is good for us and to seek to be better than we are by making choices that bring more light into our lives. I believe God is infinite, but also very narrow and very limited, belonging to the way each of us sees the world. We don't reach God by compulsively abandoning our narrow limited humanness. We expand to God through this narrowness through the courage of being a human being with limited options and minimal intelligence. The drama of this interplay is magnificent. We sense we are divine, yet we are horribly disfigured by our limited consciousness. We can't escape, we can only continue, suffer, endure. We slowly learn moment to moment, life to life. Our hearts are so full of this drama we are all always I believe very close to breaking down in tears. We try to hide this from ourselves and others, this impossible road, but it will not go away. Seeing this, is God not a gift to mankind? A true way to free us from suffering? What other option to we have? I do not see anything else. Nothing else will work, everything else is bound to fail, bound to end in confusion and misery. When we can see this clearly what choice to we have?

God

 I think God is the way. I think God is love and God is life. I think without God, we are lost. God is so much that I cannot say what God is. I just feel good when I am with God in my heart. I think God is always here and we can find God if we are listening. I don't think God wants anything from us other than that we be our best selves by fully being present in this moment. I think God is how we solve our problems. I think God is how we heal. I think we try so hard to succeed by ourselves and we forget that God is here to help us. To go with us. I think God lives in our hearts and when we live with God we can see that everything is apart of God. We feel that the world is so cold and alien when we cannot see God, when we feel that we are alone. It looks ugly and barren and hostile. I don't think this is how things are. I think this is how we are afraid things are. I do not think the world is the enemy. I do not think there really is an enemy. I don't know exactly what this world is or who we are, but I think that things are brighter than they often appear. I think the cold can cover over the world, but light and love always live within. I think their is infinite brightness within everything, infinite goodness. I think this is who we really are. Of course we have all our negative qualities, as does this world. But I don't think they are as strong as they appear. And I don't think they stand apart from what we love and cherish. I think all of that is rooted in light and love. I think love is the true nature of everything. Of this world, of all of us. I do not believe in the image that fear conjures. I believe in what God tells me about this place. I believe in who God is. I believe we can live in love if we let God into our lives. If we have the courage and the strength to love God with all of our heart. We have this strength inside of us. We all do. We spend our lives here trying to solve this riddle. Of how do I live? What is the best way to live? What can I trust? We sift through shadows in our mind and struggle to hold onto shifting mists that are our perceptions of the world. We seek for gain, for everlasting power. To anchor ourselves to this rock and to an immortal mortal existence. We spend much of our lives swirling in this struggle. We cannot have this. We cannot live here forever. These bodies are not meant to last forever. Nor are they the fullness of who we are. We do not depend on anything that we see to perpetuate our existence. Who we believe we are is an ever-changing mist flowing through time. We are not this mist, we are what lies behind it that does not depend on anything. We cannot cling to anything that composes who we believe we are. The river is meant to flow, not to stand still. Water will always pass through our fingers in the stream, even until our hand and our fingers are the water passing away. Nothing here will support us. It cannot. As human beings we depend on eachother. We depend on everything in our universe. As that which lies beyond all that is, nothing can support us and nothing ever will. This is our heart, when we anchor it to the world we are bound to fail. When we realize that everything here is insubstantial and we let go of attempting to survive forever, we can be free to become who we really are. Who we are is who we have always been. We cannot change this in any detail. The one thing that is established is the only thing we cannot cling to. We cannot find it through clinging. We cannot find it through striving. We cannot keep it for ourselves. This immortal life transcends everything we are attached to. Everything we find worth clinging to. It transcends our lives as individual beings. It is beyond individual being, beyond individual consciousness. It is beyond human beings. It is beyond clinging, or any form, beyond ideas of form and formlessness. Beyond comprehension. This is who we are. Nothing we can do can enhance this, or make us more centered in it. Clinging strives to accomplish greater achievement. This thing is established. It cannot be enhanced. We are not enhanced in it. Or by it. It cannot be moved or swayed or modified in any way. Realizing it, we see that we are it and not ourselves. That we are not something to be gained, but something that already exists, that is already formed. We need take no attitude in life for life is a flowing river. We need accomplish nothing here because here is not where we find fulfillment. We do not find fulfillment because as we are we cannot be fulfilled. Fulfillment is the transcendent single state of being that is the sole reality. Humans cannot attain this, everything is fundamentally this. We confuse things for things, when they are the absolute. Nothing stands apart from this. Everything is this. Fulfillment is simply the single reality. How can we obtain something by searching for it in the world when we already have it in our pocket? We are searching for something that isn't there. Not only do we already have it, but our means of searching are inherently flawed. We sift through a world of limited forms for something unlimited and believe we can find it there. We are confusing one paradigm with another. This is why we fail in our search. God is already here, ever-present. God is more real than anything else. We try and try again to find God among a sea of limited forms. God requires faith because he can be realized when we let go of this immersion in limited consciousness. We must pull ourselves from it so we can see what is truly unlimited. We imagine faith brings us out of the water, but when we are free from it, we see that we have never been wet. We were never a fish in the sea. What is established, is established. We are established in it because we are not who we believe we are, we are transcendent fulfillment now that is all that is. As humans we experience this relative change in the order of things. From the other side, it appears that there is no other side. Simply the infinite nature of God. This limited world appears to be a misunderstanding and a play of God's infinite being. If this is so, then it is obvious that God is all we can trust because God is the only thing that is real. Everything else is insubstantial. God defies all our limited reason and demands absolute faith in that which we cannot hold to in this world. It require trusting in what we cannot see, but what we can feel. It goes against all lesser currents that among us appear as titans. God is not swayed because nothing here, no power he can touch God. No power here has any power over God because God is of another order. The highest order that is the single order that is real. The all powerful appears as effortlessness here on Earth. The least power is the greatest power because the least power can move everything else without exerting any power at all. God doesn't necessarily require us to individually possess great force, God requires us to give up our force so we can carry his, which is lightest among all things. If we have nothing to gain because we have inherited the universe, what motive do we have for harassing others? We need nothing else with God because God is the single thing that is real. God is complete, simply complete. Everything we do, we do to become complete. It takes on all the forms of all the behaviors and actions we may do. All of this is to be complete, masked in a million different ways understood as a million different things. All of these ways are attempts to realize God. By letting go of this world, truly letting go, from deep within. We open ourselves to gain fulfillment in God. Through the realization that God is the single ever-present reality that we have confused with every form in this world for so long. God is simply abiding now. All of this is God. For God is the only thing that is.