No ego, No self

 I do not believe that there is a lasting eternal individual essence. Who we believe we are as individuals I believe ultimately isn't real and does not exist. Truth, or our true nature is transcendent of our individual identity. It is beyond individual being. The essence of everything in what we call reality, including our individual being, is beyond description or definition. It transcends the structure and the mode of perception of form. This truth is not an explicit denial of anything, nor a promotion of anything. A consequence of perceiving it directly is the insight that the Universe that we believe in full of a multitude of things, is not real, and is really truly none other than this truth which we perceive. The quality that make all of the things in the universe, unique and themselves, is in fact no where to be found, not real. This makes all of these things not themselves. This perception dissolves into the Emptiness that is this truth. What this means to be now, is that without a doubt, there is no way to salvation. The Universe is comprised of a single mysterious body, the inexplicable, unknowable Transcendent Father that is equally known as Emptiness. While the search for God serves a purpose, it is ultimately fruitless, because the Father is all that is. The search and the disclosure of Him is ultimately an illusion. There is no distance between the Alpha and the Omega. Emptiness simply abides. Everything that is done, is emptiness, no action is inside or outside of it. No action has any different effect on it. So ultimately, it does not matter what we do or do not do. I am not saying that life is meaningless, nor that good things are not worth attaining. From an ultimate perspective, it doesn't matter what happens. So we don't need to worry. I don't think there is anywhere we can really get to. There is no self, and there is no ego. Another way you can say this is that the true nature or essence of self is Self or Spirit. Or that self is truly no-self. I do think though that the perception of self is a confusion born of ignorance which fades away with fuller awareness of truth. What's here is Spirit. A Spirit that defeats the ignorance which generates the unreal perception of a world full of things each with their own unique reality. This is an illusion. This world does not exist. According to this, there is no world. There is simply emptiness. There is nothing that we must do to attain this, because we along with the world are unreal. Any plan of action we may take has no effect whatsoever on realizing emptiness. In fact the best route to establishing emptiness in our lives, is by abandoning the search once we realize it leads nowhere. There is no journey, there is no enlightenment. The act of abandoning the search withdraws our attention on the illusory world, and so it naturally fades from awareness. As long as we remain fixated on fulfilling the journey, we will remain distant from our goal, which is already exactly where we are. Or aren't. Abandoning the search is not something we can truly do because we truly do not exist. The dharma naturally unfolds itself through space and time and eventually insight will lead to the occurrence of this phenomena. On a personal level, we can continue to seek truth as best as we may doing what we may to give rise to the opportunity for insight to deepen. In the core of our perception, I believe it is most wise to cultivate the insight of the non-reality of all things, including the search and the way, and at this point to learn to let go of attachment to the way and to the full liberation. This gives room to emptiness to stand as the single real entity in the Universe. I believe giving up the way may be the final step to facing the cutting reality of Emptiness and living a life where it is the established authority. The dharma will continue to blossom without us, and we will know peace without the ceaseless irritations of the self.  

Formlessness

Such brilliant light fills each and every moment. Such an infinite blaze of light that fills this moment. Supremely full, infinitely expansive, this infinite light is all that we are. This light is all that the universe is, that each thing and everyone is. Infinite light, Infinite Being. Infinite Love. Timeless and spaceless radiance. I am this covered in the guise of the world. It blends perfectly well into my being. I am the fabric of time and space, the cloth covering eternity. I am radiant bliss. I am supreme being. Look into my eyes, look into my soul and see my infinite spirit. Infinite in all spaces, filling all things. Infinite and undivided, omnipresent. Here I am. Here. Who's eyes? In all eyes, in all places see the soul behind the cloth of the world. Realize the infinite being that I AM. Realize my infinite presence. That I AM in all places, in all times, forever and eternal, infinite and transcendent. HERE I AM. Incomparable, singular, the One and only. Nothing stands against me, all is born of me, all is me and my boundless flesh. Without self without soul, find the Soul that is Spirit. I AM. WHO AM I. WHO I AM. I AM. I AM. I AM. Infinite being. Infinite presence. HERE, I AM. I am infinite Spirit. Here I AM. What bliss life is. What bliss the universe is. The endless emptiness of my soul, the infinite universe of my being. The infinite self that I AM. You know my name, because it is yours. Your name is my name, because we are One. All things are One. There is one mind, one soul, one being that is MIND, SOUL, BEING. Mind is no-mind, self is no-self, Being is Non-being. All things are One. Oneness is the nature of my being. It is endless, beginningless, timeless. All things come from Here, Now. This is it. This is Supreme Being. Everything that you are, everything that you wish to be, this is it. You are IT. This is I AM. This is who I AM. What I AM is. It is the universe. Realizing this, knowing this, this is what is. Infinite being, Infinite time, Infinite space. The Father is all. He is supreme. He is all that is. One Life, One Soul, One Being. I AM. The transcendent Father that is Spirit. Spirit that is Spirit, that is soul, source, being. Believe in His name and I am One. My soul is infinity. My body is infinite. I did not realize who I was. Who I am. I did not realize the full nature of Spirit, of my Being. I am quiet and calm, I am still even though I contain the Oceans of the Universe. My mind is free from any conditioned state, yet I contain all conditioned things. The nature of form is formlessness. I am formlessness that is full of form, yet no form within me has any reality, the only reality here is myself the One. Form is a dream. It is an illusion. I am formless and so is the universe. Formlessness is the true nature of my being. This IS formlessness, as it is here and now. This is IT. 

The Ego and Society

 The ego really won't bring us fulfillment. I don't think I really understood this until recently. The ego keeps us in a state of unease and agitation, it keeps us from fulfillment which is the wholeness that can only by gained by turning to God and through self-realization where self dissolves into Self, Self realizes Self. I think when we are immersed in the ego, we believe it is fulfillment, that it is enough. We are immersed enough that we do not see that this is confusing the ego with that which it is not. The ego is that which substitutes the object of it's fixation for that which is fulfillment, that which does not have a fixed or definite structure, which is simply Reality. The appetite of the ego blinds us to the confusion that is this substitute, it deceives us, and we willingly follow it and allow ourselves to be deceived. I think correcting this belief through insight is the key to liberation from the dream which the ego creates. When we have clear evidence to the contrary we will naturally turn away from it. One sees that the pain it creates outweighs any temporary pleasure it may offer and it becomes something that we truly do not wish to perpetuate. Instead of devoting our resources to feeding our thirst and obtaining the fruits of our desires, we turn our energies to seek methods for liberation from this insidious coil of enslavement. We find solace in that which brings us relief from what becomes the constant nagging of egoic thirst. Inability to properly concentrate, inability to do what serves us best, and finally inability to treat other people decently. How much of what we are doing is in our own self-interest? Does this self-interest still serve our self? How much do we actually listen to what others have to say? Are we so full of ourselves that we do not here them? How much do we actually know the people in our lives? How much of how we see them is blinded by judgment? How satisfying are these perceptions? How fair are they? Do we respect others? Do we respect our selves? What do we really know about the world? How much of what we know is based upon our ability to manipulate it for selfish ends? It seems to me that cleverness is close to blindness, and true intelligence is rare. Clear penetrating intelligence is sharper than a sword. When this intelligence springs up in your heart you become noble. You become a servant of Goodness. All the better if you know that this Goodness comes from God and you do your deeds in His name. I think this decency transcends race, sex, party, belief, nationality. It comes from a basic goodness that belongs to everyone. There is no hate in it, it does not depend upon a fixed set of ideas. God is the ruler, not any church, or organization, or affiliation, or party, or quality, or notion. The established order of our time should not empower our ego, it should serve as an ambassador to God, to truth, to justice, and the liberty and wellbeing  of all human beings. What we believe and what we associate ourselves with should be uplifting and not create divisiveness and discord. When belief and associations do thus, they are corrupted and toxic to the health and wellbeing of ourselves and society. Civility means establishing such an honorable society, not continuing in antagonizing and brutish behavior. It means seeking society amongst one's peers. If this is gained then what needs to be done, will be done, because those present in establishing law and order will have the proper vision to conduct themselves appropriately. They will compromise when necessary for the common good because the common good is their highest priority. The common good means the common good. All people. Not us versus them. It is a decency that springs from recognized the shared humanity one has with others regardless of who they are. It springs from seeing the decency and nobility in all people indiscriminately. It is a living faith in society that lives because it comes straight from God. When our institutions and our practices become indecent, they try to protect themselves by clinging to what parcel of God they believe they have left. If they continue in this they become unfit for use. When they do not serve God, they perish. If it is so, then we must first seek inspiration from without, because what is gained within is corrupt and unfit for human beings. It is indecent and untrue. It does not serve the common good and instead holds up its corrupted product as an offering to ensnare and deceive the masses. What serves God does not seek to outshine Him. It does not seek to diminish the wellbeing of human beings, or to undermine the integrity of society. Promoting the wellbeing of society means promoting the wellbeing of all who inhabit it. What has hate is divorced from God. This living faith in society, in one's fellow human beings depends on one's independent devotion to God, in which God is above all else and it is known that God is the sole source of truth and inspiration. Religion, belief, association, organization, identification, these things all become secondary to a Higher will and and Higher truth. They do not obscure it because they are not equal to it. When we have this devotion for God. We will love one another and serve one another regardless of who we are because the decency of God's light will shine bright enough that we will find kinship with all human beings. 

Who am I?

 It seems that both my crown chakra and my naval chakra are undergoing different kinds of awakening. It seems as though my energy/consciousness has been pushing up from the bottom and is currently unraveling the conditioned consciousness/resistance in the manipura chakra. It seems like a separate current has pushed all the way up to the crown chakra and is awakening my being to Supreme Emptiness. This latter movement is one I believe I can trace back to my path and is perhaps my principal development of consciousness. I can recall moving upwards through the different centers through my life and most clearly the part of this movement that has occurred in the last 13 years. I have yet to fully understand the difference between these two movements. Understanding their significance is very important to me. I believe that understanding these movements is key to unraveling the mystery of my own being and of my imprisonment in ignorance/delusion. It seems that the movement from the bottom is an unraveling upwards, a complete dissolution of blockages and ignorance associated with the centers of the body that lie there. The movement upwards is an awakening or opening up that is more of a passing through than a final release. If all this is accurate, I have successfully mastered the lower 2 chakras (in some way) and have released my being from the conditioned consciousness associated with those regions. It seems that the impetus for the unraveling of the lower chakras upward and that which spawned my initial leap into super consciousness is the waking up experience I had 11 years ago in which my ego was mortally wounded and this ego was replaced by some pure transcendent force as the driver of events in my life. The ego became the temporary passenger on a gradual journey of dissolution. Everything that has happened to me since then has been a product of that experience, that moment, and I feel that my purpose in life is to do whatever I may be able to do to assist in the fulfillment of what began there. That moment has never really ended, it has stayed with me as the inexpressible background of my experience. Remembering this helps put in perspective the current events in my life. It reminds me that what I call my individual consciousness is just along for the ride, that I am truly not in control. It reminds me that this is transitory and that this experience is going somewhere. That my job is not to succeed as an individual but to awaken to the insight and courage needed to let go of my own life. All I really need to do is to die to myself, to let this dying get on with itself. I am not an individual being. I am infinite consciousness. Infinite being. This world is an illusion. I am not really tied by anything because I am Supreme Spirit. I think remembering who I am helps me do what I need to do to move on. I do not think I can find my way without it. Truly though, I cannot be lost, because I am myself, and nothing has any power to take this away from me. There is nothing except who I am. I am infinite, boundless, undying Spirit. 

Logic # 16

 I believe Christ is the true self of an individual, whereas the Father is Self and is transcendent of form. The nature of Christ truly is that of the Transcendent Father. Christ is empty of form and is not Christ but Spirit, Yet as a human being, I think Christ may be our true self, or what we commonly refer to as our true self. You could perhaps additionally say that Christ is our true self, whereas Spirit is our truest self. Not totally sure about this. Yogananda says that Christ is the single true reflection of Spirit in creation (form). This is what I seek to understand. It may make sense that within the universe of form Christ is our true self, almost as if Christ is an ambassador of Spirit, transcendent and abroad. To me it seems like Christ is the dimension immediately following pure Spirit, that is the first expression of Spirit into form. From Christ stems the rest of the Universe and all it's multiplicity. If our awareness is limited to all that encompasses form, then Christ is the fullest truest expression of our being. Yet, if we extend past Christ into the nameless Father, then this ceases to be the case, because even Christ dissolves here into pure Spirit (formlessness) where formlessness is all that remains. Within formlessness, there is no individuality, there is no self, there is simply incommunicable Spirit, Being. I think it may be correct to call this a Nothing that is. It would seem that according to the reality of this ultimate nature, it is not wholly accurate to say that our true self is Spirit, because Spirit is not a self, it is not a form, that has a definite structure, that is comprehensible to the human mind. I don't think we can pin down exactly what Spirit is, so we probably equally cannot say that their undeniably is no self. It seems that these are just two different ways to point to the same incommunicable reality. If it is not something that may be clearly defined, then the description does not need to do such, what the description needs to do is to point in the right direction. If truth is ultimately transconception, then at an ultimate level, we do not need to concern ourself with fitting it in a conceptual box. We should concern ourselves with defining what is useful to define, what may be defined. What I think would be useful to understand is the relationship between Spirit and Christ, and Christ and the world, and how all of these operate in my own life and affect how I and others are throughout the day. I would like to clearly understand these things so I can better navigate my own life, and create a body of knowledge that I may disseminate to others in helpful ways. 

From within creation as human beings, we may open up our minds and our beings to dimensions that transcend the physical world we inhabit, we may open up to soul, to God, to Christ, and to Spirit. All of this may transpire wherever we happen to be at the moment while also happening on whatever dimension we have opened up to. I wonder if the fullest extent of this sensory (including mind) universe we live in is Christ and where Christ ends, Spirit begins. So if we make our home in Spirit, then we descend into Christ as the Universe. Or we descend into Christ as our self within the Universe as the Multitude. I do believe that Christ is One with all form, he is the greatest singular body of form that is Oneness. I believe Christ is the Master, the Lord, because it is the ruler of this Universe as the body that possesses all of the Universe and all of it's intelligence. It is wise to all of the movements of the Universe, and is the instigator of them as the most superior body within the universe. It is the highest fountain on the hill from which all the water falls. I think it makes sense when Yogananda says that Christ is present within every particle of Creation, because all of Creation exists within Christ. I also really believe that every particle within creation really is Christ, that He is one with it. The background and body of this universe is Emptiness. The dream of form and Christ as the Universe lies within the timeless and formless expanse of emptiness. There is form there, but a form that is entirely composed of Emptiness. Lol. To think of the form within emptiness as something other than emptiness is inaccurate. It is form within Emptiness that is none other that Emptiness. Emptiness is the womb of the Universe and the Universe is an aspect of Emptiness. 

I guess what I don't understand is how can there be Christ when Christ is really Emptiness. This is looking at my questions from the other side. If Christ is really emptiness then there is no Universe and no self, no form, there is truly simply Emptiness...I think this is definitely true. I don't think we can accurately talk about form until we fully understand Emptiness because the essence of form is no-form. Our lingering beliefs of the essence of form being form corrupt our understanding, because the essence of reality is no-form, or Emptiness. I find it difficult to try and understand form when much of me believes that form has no reality. I think if I fully understand the notion that there is no form. I will be able to understand what exactly form is and how it relates to Emptiness. Until then my understanding will be imperfect and confusing. How then do I fully realize the notion that there is no form? I must fully realize that reality is Emptiness. It must eliminate my ignorance and my false views at least in part of my mind that I can abide in an allow the realization to spread. I think perhaps this is getting nearer to the sources of much of my mental confusion. How do I reconcile self and no-self, form and no-form, my being has shifted or disappeared into Emptiness and no-mind and this shift has changed the core structure by which I understand the universe. I have been attempting to reconcile this new core with the previous body and structure of operation. It is truly egoless, selfless. totally transcendent of what you could call my unique individuality, what makes me me. I see that there is no me. This is the fantasy. There is no concrete self and there is no concrete universe. Can you reconcile the world with this Emptiness. I think my answer is, there is no universe, there is no world, there is no self. There is no reality. I can't intellectualize this and I can't understand it. There is no self. 

Logic#15 self, 4 dimensions, personal development in regards to the 4 dimensions and integral theory

 I am not sure how to properly describe this. I have been seeing how our true identity as individuals is self. Self that is shared among each of us, self that is the same self that we all are. It is like we are the same person, even saying the same thing, amongst many different bodies. I think what most of us don't realize is that we are the same self. I think the closeness we feel to others comes from the reality that we indeed underneath all our perceptions, are the same self. This can be confusing because we look so different on the outside, and behave so differently in general. What I have been noticing is that this is superfluous and all truly and simply the varied context of self. This self is the same even though outwardly the context is different. I think we have so many problems because we fail to see that the self is the same among a multitude of beings. The plural notion leads to the belief in separate individuals, when there is really one individual one being. This self is much more still than we realize, much more composed. This self can tackle any problem simply by being itself, because it is at the heart of the world. When I see others this way, I easily relate to them and enjoy their company. I am surrounded by good friends, and I don't feel alienated in my environment. I feel a familiarity with them, like their experience is shared with me intimately, but in an open and composed way that is very grounded. What people say seems more important, because they lived it, and who they are is important because they are self. It seems like from this perspective, people are themselves, and whole, even when being dishonest or negative. There is a wholesomeness that is not compromised by behavior. This wholesomeness, or wholeness transcends the arrangement of phenomena in the world, so it doesn't matter how good or bad things are. The self abides these circumstance and is unchanged. It transcends both body, and mind. Both physical and astral dimensions. This leads me to believe it is deeper. A greater whole that encompasses both of these, but in essence is not of them. This is why in a sense it remains untouched by them. I believe this essence is christ consciousness, which I think is also known as the causal realm. This isn't some far out destination or experience, it is immediate and ever-present in the composition of everything in this moment. We already posses it, we are just not very aware of it. We are focused more on the particular structures of things, and our interpretations of what we perceive, we do not penetrate to the insight that is the reality of katustha consciousness(not sure if this is the right word) that is the singular body underlying the subtle universe. Even though the astral universe lies within the causal dimension, and the physical universe within the astral, both the astral and causal dimensions may be perceived within the physical universe on Earth. This is because although the essence of the physical universe may be physicality, it's underlying structure or essence is mind, or the subtle astral essence, and even though the essence of the astral dimension is mind, the underlying essence of this is christ consciousness. So the physical is truly mental and the astral is truly causal. This makes the true nature of the physical universe Christ consciousness as well, because the physical is composed of mind, and the mind is composed of christ or causal. Then you can throw in Spirit as Spirit as spirit in which all of these dissolve into pure Spirit and it is seen that the essence of the universe is not Christ, but the Father. What this points to really is the non-reality of Earth, Astral, or Causal dimensions, these become illusions that disperse in the recognition of the Ultimate. This is what I tend to believe is accurate as of now. I am not wholly satisfied with this, but I find it fits well according to what I understand and experience. What I don't fully understand is how these 4 stages relate to Ken Wilber's integral theory. I found that as I underwent ego-maturation I was fixated on what was Earthly, and as I genuinely opened up to conformist I moved into the astral environment. It seems like lower mind. I imagine that as I move to orange achievement rational I will be in the domain of kutustha chaitanya (christ consciousness) or the causal. There is still green eco-communitarian-sensitive, integral, and subtle soul before katustha christ consciousness so I can't as of now fully explain this gap. I am not going through ego-conformist-achievement for the first time. I am mastering them and cleaning them up, so I am not sure how this movement differs from when I first passed through them and how this may correspond differently to the four main dimensions: physical-subtle-causal and Spirit. I am not sure in general how the Wilber worldviews correspond to these four main dimensions. I think it may be vital to map how each Wilber stage corresponds to the 4 dimensions and to the chakras. To me it seems the ego is closely tied to the sacral chakra, or chakra of sexual energies, it is the cultivation of desire, and perhaps the root chakra which is rooted in the body and the Earth. It is also the part of the mind-will-body that is impulsive, whereas conformist blue is associated with the solarplexus and logic-intelligence. The ego seems rooted in the Earth, in the creature will, while the conformist dwells in an astral-mental environment. What I have trouble pinning down is where the orange-rational-achiever dwells. It is objective, it has to do with order, and command, giving orders, it can manipulate the code at will in a transegoic fashion. The question is how far this code goes? Is the code the programming of the whole astral dimension, of mind, or does it only correspond to a lower astral dimension that is ruled by logic? Is order-achiever-rational the sun in the center of both the logical universe and the astral universe, or simple the sun in the center of the logic dimension which is the gateway to a secondary tier in a greater astral universe? 

Center of the Wheel 2

 Wisdom rises like an eagle in the wind elevating both man and his consciousness. The supreme point is the eye of the eagle as it towers above the world. There is nothing beneath you as you are elevated above the world. Nothing above you, and nothing all around you. Yet the world remains beneath you. Unlike the eagle, man is rooted in his body and the Earth even as he soars high above. The man takes Earth with him. He makes it Empty and sees that it is full of life. Spirit gives this emptiness to the world and the Universe is a place of infinite wealth. Infinite richness all to the glory of He who is high above soaring like an eagle in the sky. The Great Father Spirit. The world we know ends when the Spirit of the Father is born. It ends and it begins anew. His Spirit sheds light on an undying heart that was perfectly hidden before. We are born into this undying heart when our spirit merges with his. We become the great eagle in the sky. We merge with the sky, the water, and the land, and soar free above the world, above fear and sorrow. We have such power because we take everything with us, we have closed our eyes to the realm of shadow and have embraced our burning soul. We are a forest fire raging that began with a strike of lightening and a crash of thunder. This fire lives in our heart. Yet the wood does not turn to ash, nor does the fire overcome all the forest, it remains alit like a beacon that lights up the world, that casts aside shadow, and reveals the simple goodness of the Earth. It makes man spirit noble to carry this flame. He has an eagle heart, and a dragon heart. He is dragon fire, wing, forest, hillside, valley, mountain lake, sky at dusk, open sky. 

Center of the Wheel 1

 There is a settledness here that wasn't here before. I feel like no matter what happens, it's kinda like it is nothing new. Like I have already done this before. I am not sure what I am waiting for, but I feel like I am waiting for this all to be over. At the same time as all of this transpires, none of it is real. It is like the changing of the seasons, an endless cycle, when Earth and Heaven always remain the same. I think it helps to notice this. It keeps us from getting to caught up in whatever we may be doing. Keeps us from taking things too seriously. I think being comes first. Everything else follows. So as I am realizing Logic, I am also simply being here and being absolutely uninvolved in everything I am doing. Being everywhere, center nowhere. Enjoying things as they come and go. Watching the rain and wind come. Watching my hair grow. Watching people change with the world. I feel very content in the unmoving center of the world. Content to let things pass. I truly enjoy doing nothing. I enjoy not having anything to do. I think this is what makes me most happy. If I am not anyone, then there is nothing I need to accomplish, and nothing to be accountable to. I can dwell within the bliss of my own being that is quiet and serene. It is not special. It is perfectly ordinary. This is what makes it wonderful. I hope I never forget that there is nothing I need to do. I like being quiet. It is very important to be involved. It may be more important to be completely uninvolved. I think if we take things to seriously, we lose sight of the simplicity of being, we then overcomplicate matters and increase our troubles. We forget that life can take care of itself and that we are seamlessly apart of this process. Dealing with problems is as ordinary as hearing the wind blow outside. Solving problems is as apparent as is the occurrence of a breath. When we rest in the simple dharma of things, the wind and the breathe coincide and we may treat our troubles as our friends. They will teach us about the sunshine and starlit nights. They will sing us to sleep with the sweetest melody that awakens our aching heart. 

Man leaves MRI appt and says laughing, "Another fashion shoot down". 

Logic #13 Faith, Children of God, Service

 As our faith in God grows, so does the purity of our heart. An increase in faith means a decrease in the doubt that leads to selfishness. Faith brings God into our lives and our hearts. When we are pure of heart we no longer attract the negativity that leads to spells of darkness. We are open to the reality of God's light. The best way to free ourselves from suffering and trouble is to bring God into our lives. It is our negativity and selfishness that attracts conflict and personal turmoil. Having God in our lives, brings us the surety that delivers the results of our needs. He is the provider. When He is home, we will be provided for. God provides us with everything we need, it is fear and doubt that keep us in a place of suffering and insufficiency. I think God is a reality that instantly fulfills our being. It is the degree to which we are distant from Him that is the problem, not His lack of caring. He is always reaching out infinitely. When we dwell in the narrowness of selfishness and ego identity, we are focusing on a reality that is inherently limited and confused. When we turn to the reality of God, we turn to organization, evenness, and dependability. We turn to infinite abundance, which is the nature of His spirit. I think when it comes down to it, it is our innermost attitude, the attitude of our soul, that determines our wellbeing, and not our external environment. It plays a part, yet it ultimately comes down to how we view the world and ourselves, who we are in our heart. When we turn to God, we turned to the truth, which is that we are not an isolated separate being, but one who is One with the Creator. The tale of our sorrows and setbacks, of our greatness and ambition, of our mediocrity, these stories we tell ourselves are ultimately just stories. They are our temporary reflections on the life we have lived so far. We are not a soul especially flawed, or especially great, or especially mundane. We are a soul that possesses the infinite potential to unite with it's creator. We have flaws, we have ambition, we have setbacks, we may be mediocre, yet we are not the separate individual we believe ourselves to be. We are not these stories that we tell ourselves. We are not bound by anything, good or bad. Good and bad is relative, the stories we tell ourselves that pertain to each are equally untrue. We are children of God, whose true identity is is that of the infinite mind of God. We are infinite being. We may have limitations, but they only go so deep. What may make us great in the eyes of ourselves and others does not belong to us, and both high and low are the same in the eyes of God. As long as we live in these fantasies, we we be isolated from Him who is Supreme. Any belief we have that says this is who I am as an individual, keeps us from God, because in saying and believing it, we keep it to ourselves, we clutch at it, and we turn from our Creator, who never stops showering us with infinite uplifting energy. We must give away who we are as an individual to fully reap the harvest that is God's infinite eternal blessing. We must forge our identity in the transcendent Him that is not discolored by possessiveness. This is why this is the path of the Angel, the selfless, the servant. What holds us down is anything we keep for our self. The truth is we do not need anything. When we do things for ourself, we cling to what we have. When we do things for God and for others, we learn to let go of what we have, including the hold we have on our own identity. I do not think we belong to our self. I think we belong to each other. When we cling to ourselves, we bring down everybody else. When we let go of ourself, we uplift everyone else. We do have the power to do this. God gives it to us in every moment. When we become a servant to God we learn to skillfully use this energy to uplift the world, if we refuse this, we end up shitting on it. I feel like so many of us are ready to do so much more, we just haven't realized this yet. We are so much more capable than we imagine ourselves to be. We don't realize what a gift He is and what He has given us. Unfortunately we turn to evil without realizing it, it seems like there hasn't been enough wisdom throughout society to prevent this from happening. However evil society is or becomes, this is nothing compared to the infinite benediction of God. This does nothing to tarnish His will and truly is merely and extension of Him. All aspects of Creation come from God and are apart of His mind. The evil in the universe is merely a part, that regardless of how it appears of what we believe about it is under the authority and design of God. All parts are seamlessly interwoven in the eternal play of life, all conducted by the same conductore, the transcendent Spirit that is God.  

No ego, Universal Being, Love

 I have been seeing more clearly recently how identified I have been with what I see now as the imaginary ego-personality of other people. I have see in spurts the single transcendent soul that is the true nature of the individual self and it creates a stark contrast to the dream-like fantasy that is our belief that there are other people who are the one and only Bob, Julie, Emily, Steve. I don't think these people really exist. I think what exists is the infinite soul that resides within the dream illusion that we call myself and yourself. Everyone is the same person, and there is only one person, who really isn't a person at all, but is infinite being. The individual self is an illusion, or a dream. Reality is simply being. I have been so immersed in catching up with this newer stage of development, blue conformist, that I forgot about this.. Also so immersed in letting go of my own ego will/desire complex and merging into Emptiness that I have not been accessing these deeper insights. The other people that we believe are real are merely our own ego. We just call one part me and mine, and the other part, you and yours. There really is no difference, it is all in the head. I also have been looking at dogs and realizing that they have the same soul as we do. There are, in fact, I believe human beings. There source and being is the same as ours. Our root consciousness and being is identical. I think this is true for all living beings. I watched a hornet struggle to escape the fire of our propane fireplace and could sense it's sentience. It felt like me. I see how all living beings are One and apart of the same life and that in a way each is equally worthy as each is the same Universal Being. What is wonderful about this, is that it uplifts they who perceive this because the world becomes a place full of worthy beings, there is no high and low, but an evenness that is the inherent righteousness of life. Each life form has a perfect place among the whole, and all of us are equally the Whole. The Whole is a being that is a whole in many places. What respect we can have, what dignity this gives us. With this awareness and attitude, how much easier it is to put aside the harsh feelings we hold for many other beings we co-exist with, and how much easier it is to adopt an attitude of universal love. When we drop the notion of separate self, and the dichotomy of high and low it presents, we may see each being as ourself, as unblemished Oneness, and be open to the wisdom that is needed to engage with each unique being on the path. He is very unstable, and very violent, yet he is my brother, I cannot bring myself to hate him, because I love him. I cannot bring myself to harm the world, because it too is my brother. 

No matter how deeply rooted the ego is, it's roots are limited, the sea of infinite love is eternally abiding. Eventually it's waves of righteousness will wash away the hate and grief in our hearts and free us to love one another unconditionally. This is the power that will overcome all obstacles and bring the human race to a Unity in open understanding, peace, and love. The true nature of our self is like a germ or a seed waiting to explode into life and fill it's habitation to the brim. It is a spark that given the proper soil will ignite and consume the world in a holy fire. It will destroy all boundaries, prejudices, and conditioned perspectives. It will completely undermine traditional world views and take human kind through a series of progressive steps towards fully liberated consciousness. 

Love is unstoppable. It is infinite, it is abiding. It is who we are. Love is the seed of evolution. As parts of the whole, we awaken to Love as Love over lifetimes. Yet Love is already perfectly complete and abiding. It is the Real, the Always, and Forever. The illusion of being a part, is nothing but this, an illusion. Reality is Real, and Real is Love. The divine flame cannot be quenched, nor dominated. It is Liberty and Liberty is the triumphant Real. Regardless of who you are, or how you are, or where you are, this is who you are, who you have always been, and who you will always be. You are always going to be completely free. This truth liberates us from suffering regardless of the climate of the outer world. Maya is always undergoing change, there is nothing we can do to stop this, and nothing we need to do. Real freedom lies in conquering the delusion within our hearts and realizing the abiding Divine Love within. Each one of us is the flame and the whole. Each of us is perfectly complete. We are the same self, which is Self, which is Eternity, Liberty, Freedom, Victory. You cannot be conquered, you cannot be defeated. You are the infinite Divine Flame that is the Universal Soul. 

Logic#12 Devotion, God, and Religion

I think increasing understanding of the nature of the universe will lead to an increased sense of purpose and direction. It will also clean up my innerspace. Cleaning up the innerspace will sharpen insight which will fine tune the sense of purpose. Hopefully all in all awakening to a deeper more fulfilling being and radiance. A general fitting organization. It feels like everything is reworking in the background. I feel confident that as things get aligned with God (Upwards facing star) things will smooth out. What a blessing to know the truth about God and to be ready to have Him in one’s life. To be able to trust something so completely and to have something so trustworthy. What a gift He is in this turbulent world. It surprises me how ignorant man can be to the reality of His supremacy over all that is. Not as a tyrant, but as an even-handed force of cause and effect and unchanging spiritual law. It is this force and law that we can depend on, as well as the root of both which is He himself, the source of all things and the Highest Law. The intricacies of karma and universal design are born from God and are woven of His substance, this is why placing Him above all else is the most sensible thing we can do. All law, all wisdom high and low, is born of the Highest Order which is God’s immutable substance and being. Devotion clearly becomes a practical matter when such is clearly perceived. He traverses down through all dimensions of being and sets the entirety of the universe into motion all according to His perfect infinitely intelligent will. God’s will truly is perfect, Perfection does exist in it’s full expression as Him. It is a reality that is the hidden Reality that is this reality.

 Through devotion we transfer our allegiance from selfish pursuits to a Higher spiritual aim. It requires a change of heart, it is personal, which is why devotion suffices. We are personally enslaved to our own desires, we believe in ourselves, why not believe in something that we can trust not to continually throw us in the dump? We must change this basic belief if we are to grow beyond it, beyond belief. To do so is not a step backward, but a step forward. It is much more logical to follow God. It is insanity to follow the pre-rational whims of selfish-thirst. It is a lack of logic and reason that leads us to believe in the wisdom of self-serving ends. When we awaken to the greater body of the universe that exists beyond the veils of Earth bound ignorance it is easy to accept the spiritual hierarchy in which God is supreme and center. It is clearly visible that God’s order flows from a spiritual center outwards throughout the universe. Here, it is natural to orient oneself towards this in a devotional manner. It is through devotion that we learn of Him and His way, of the true nature of the universe, and make our way towards it’s center. I believe this is the path of Angels, or servants of God. We are caught in His current because we are finally open to His will, released sufficiently from bonds of Earthly and spiritual ignorance. Here, we recognize a path of servitude and self sacrifice or selflessness lies before us. It is through this shedding that we become light enough to behold Him.

God does not belong to any particular religion or to any kind of religion. The true religion of God is one that is not bound to outward forms, that exists within established religions yet is frequently obscured and misinterpreted, misused by them. God is an ideal perfect force that cannot be marred by those who do not clearly understand aspects of His being. He is transcendent, this is why He is God. These religions are groups of people and individuals misunderstanding, not God Himself erring. His intelligence is transrational, transconceptional, transcendent of doctrine, tradition or tenant. Religion does it’s best when tradition, doctrine, and tenant correspond to real needs of the people it serves. When it is flexible and transforms as people change. When it doesn’t meet people where they are or how they are, it becomes stagnant and decays. When it does, it thrives and the people in it thrive. I think that perhaps it is best if it is understood as an outward form that is a tool for humans to employ, but not to become enslaved to or overly dependent on. When we feel we cannot bear the weight of our conscience we often become dependent on things that do not serve us, and we over-emphasize the value of these things in a way that distorts their true value. This ends up distorting our original aim, our purer intentions and creates established practices that do not accurately represent spiritual truths. If we are afraid to fully examine the reality of our human condition, we choose to support lesser truths and to live in ignorance. God does not dwell in the half-light. He can be seen from the half-light while He shines aloft fully radiant and free. If we wish to communicate His nature effectively, we must see how it is the religion of the heart and not the outward religion of convention that leads to His Infinite Kingdom. When you recognize how naturally the heart is a devotee of the many forms of life, it becomes easy to acquire the habit of devoting oneself to God.

Logic # 11 Gather and evaluate

 Still wondering what the hell is going on. Consciousness is a very interesting thing. It has been very difficult for me to understand. It is very interesting. I am wondering what terrain I am moving through at the moment. It is interesting that all the differing things I am experiencing are happening all at once in this moment. Somehow flashing before my eyes and evolving within me. Somehow they are all connected in a meaningful logical way. I think that how I see things now and what environment I see them in is very important to understanding the big picture of what's going on. Even if it is a mystery, it can be understood. Mysteries are mysteries until they are solved, and then the answer is obvious. What is the setting of this mystery? What is the atmosphere? What players are involved? What is the next logical step to take to solve the mystery? What options do I have? So far it has been hunker down and gather more data. Is this still valid? I think it may be hunker down and gather more data...and..perhaps start exploring the terrain I have discovered. Continue to map it out and make new discoveries. It seems like I have a whole new world to explore..a world that is astral space..I can go anywhere. I can do anything here. What are the consequences of my actions? What are the means by which interact with my environment? What are some things I am interested in establishing here? What is all of this leading to? What is the end game? What gets in the way of making progress here? What is useful helpful, necessary? What is going well? What isn't?