Where may I rest my head?

 The Buddha's light is infinite. His way has no bottom nor top. It extends from here, where does it end? Extending from here, where does it begin? If you try and take away from what you have you will not see who you already are. Each acting of taking away, is the Buddha shining. The Buddha's light is like glass that you can see through, and not like glass because it is immaterial, more so it is intangible. When everything becomes this kind of glass, there is nothing left to see through, it is no longer transparent. The world along with all it's dharmas join the Buddha in enlightenment as the single Light in the firmament of Heaven. This One Light is the Precious Jewell of Enlightenment. Light from below, light from on high. The world and all it's experiences are One with this light. Unknowable, unnameable, all life comes from this and arises in this, inseparable from it. It is the Buddha light shining high in Heaven. Joined is everything already to the Supreme Wisdom of the Buddha, never has anything been lacking. Realization is unnecessary, as there is no one to gain enlightenment, there is and has always been the unknowable name of the Buddha that is the true nature of all beings. All that is here is Light, and Supreme Wisdom. There is nothing shy of perfect enlightenment, for our true nature is perfected being. The quality of all things is Wisdom and Enlightenment, an unfettered, unbounded Infinite Wisdom and Glory of Being. There is One Life and this is it. All that is is One Perfect Wisdom, it is all that has ever been and all that will ever be. The Buddha came more than two-thousand years ago. The truth is that he has always been with us, the Light has always been here. The infinite wisdom is here. Closely examining form, one realizes that all form is formless, that there is One formless being. This is the true nature of the universe. This Self is infinite and transcendental. Yet it is immanent. There is a single nature. This is it. The true nature of self is infinite being. There is One Light in this Universe. One Light and One Wisdom. It is boundless and infinitely compassionate. It is Self. This is it's infinite expanding body. It stretches ever before us.

Given everything that we know, what of it is worthwhile? When we cannot hold onto anything, or prove anything, what is the purpose of knowledge? Knowledge is the key to insight. One word may open the door to the infinite nature of being, yet if we cling to knowledge, we will remain blind. When we can see, there is no longer a need for anything, and the buddha speaks for himself. There is no longer any need for anything in particular, yet we may still require any kind of nourishment that is required in this world. Much learning may further the openness of our perception, and the acuteness of our observation. Even so, all of this points to the same truth, the supreme emptiness of being. Any change in perception is illusory, and only the infinite truly exists. It appears to me that there is conventional wisdom alongside transcendental wisdom. That the two are inseparable. It seems that what makes one wise is the ability to be present with the eternal while responding appropriately to the immediate concerns of daily life. It also appears to me that a keen awareness of either when given proper awareness greatly advances one's awareness of the other. It seems to me that ignoring one leads to drowning and that if we have the proper awareness, there truly is no division between the two, both are the same expression of the eternal spirit. When we are unbalanced, we seek extremes. Until we center ourselves within truth and face reality directly can we undo the excessiveness of our tendencies and find ourselves properly righted in the world. The purpose of liberating truth is not merely to find transcendence, but to be wise in human living in everyday activity. It is a excellence privileged to be privy to this insight. This kind of modesty is obviously the heart of wisdom to any pair of eyes that belong to a relatively sane human being. The excessiveness of any society is toxic to the cultivation of wisdom among it's inhabitants. A fresh search for evenness of temperament and appropriateness of action is necessary to undo this toxicity. One must find this modesty within the lens of their own culture that is so deeply rooted in their perception. To acquire such an ability is wonderful, to use it for the sake of restoration of human society is an unparalleled gift. Proper attitude and conduct is the wellspring of life-force that sustains human life. If we do not have Buddha-knowledge, how can we behave properly? If it is not inherent in the fabric of our culture, how can any goodness be sustained? If we directly perceive Buddha-knowledge and it flourishes within us, we will be appropriately guided to restore the heart of our society. 

If our hearts are pure enough, we will be protected as we seek Buddha-knowledge. The more the Buddha becomes our aim, the more we are uplifted even as we fall. The Buddha and the Universe wish us to succeed and they are aware of our predicament. If we trust in them and trust in the power of Truth we not fear whichever way we go. They offer the highest protection. It is only the truth that may save us. Darkness deceives, ignorance is darkness, both are ignorance of truth, and ignorance of truth is ignorance of wisdom. It is of vital importance that we take up the spiritual search for truth and wisdom. To ignore such a quest is allow the impersonal forces of karma to play as they will in our lives, throwing us to and fro without any lasting ability to provide security for ourselves and our loved ones. To ignore such a quest is to turn away from liberation which is our soul's only means for true happiness. We are born in this world, but are not of it. We cannot find peace in this world without first discovering our true nature. No thing in particular will satisfy our thirst save enlightenment. Such a quest does not mean the end of this world and our life in it. It means an end to life as we knew it. It means an end to the belief in the permanent substance of the world. God asks us to give up our mortal lives so we may be reborn in Spirit. Spirit is the culmination of every dimension of the universe that precede it. It is also each one of these dimensions and all of them altogether at once. This includes our lives on Earth. To gain awareness of Spirit as Spirit, we must die to our awareness of ourself as a finite fixed body, which is the same awareness that each thing in the universe is a finite fixed body. The play of life is simply an expression of Spirit and no thing in it is of permanent substance. Gaining enlightenment, we continue to exist as we did, yet we are no longer centered in what we thought of as ourselves we now are centered in God, which is the same as enlightened awareness. God does not want us to leave this world forever. He wants us to give up worldliness so that we are free to fully live our lives. I believe we continue to exist after the mortal body die, even after more subtly bodies may pass away as the center of our attention. Our individual nature, I think, does not end when we wake up, I think it continues on as a unique expression of the infinite. It seems to me that this Earthly life is an active expression of Spirit, and while we are here, we may be fully present in God, while we live this Earthly life, in no way that is impure or false. It also seems to me that we cannot fully manifest enlightenment until we allow it to blossom fully in our human consciousness and within our human bodies. A fully enlightened person, is a fully enlightened human being, not a disembodied soulless something. Wisdom is transcendental, yet takes in every practical consideration, being embodied in manifested form. 

Spirit at Home Abroad

 This is it. There is nothing that can be gained nor lost. Reality expresses itself effortlessly in this moment and no other thing exists. What this moment is, is reality, and nothing else exists. However it may be, this is it, and nothing else exists. No matter what I do, I cannot change this. My true nature is this which is present, it is free of any traces of individuality while containing everything that we call self. To me, the self experience is completely an illusion, and a temporary phenomena. Our true nature as human beings is simply the unconditioned being that is this moment, which appears to be expressing itself eternally. I do not think we are anything else, nor do I think anything else exists or is real. I do not think any thing we perceive is real except the naked awareness of this moment, which reveals the non-reality of everything that we believe is ourself and this universe we inhabit. For the time being, self experience appears to be apart of the expression of this moment, even so it is unreal. This does not need to be upsetting, because there is no self for us to lose, and the dissolution of said self in consciousness is actually liberation from suffering which is inherent in self. Everything we hope to gain or achieve for ourself is ultimately empty, and the need to fulfill said ambitions or realizations are unnecessary and similarly empty of substance. There is no self, there is simply Spirit expressing itself in the here and now. There is no self anywhere in the universe, there cannot be, for what is here is Spirit, and Spirit is totally without self. Everything here is simply Spirit expressing itself, everywhere we look, Spirit. Boundless, formless, full of form, the same radiant Spirit that is One with this universe of expression. This is who we are, this is who I am. 
Spirit is infinite. Though it includes self, it is empty of self, itself being formless, yet a formlessness that is not other in any way from form. The true nature of form is emptiness, formlessness. They are ultimately One and this Oneness is Spirit. It is a Oneness that is equally formless and Empty. I always thought the self would totally disappear when Spirit was realized. By self here I mean the formal universe and one's life in it. I don't think it does. I think self is relegated to a secondary status and position, and becomes like the life of a single cell that is apart of the greater life and whole of the body. I think that self experience continues, but as an article of clothing that adorns Spirit, it no longer dominates consciousness. It is apart of the expression of Spirit, but Spirit is not lost in it. Part of me feared that it would go away completely, which seemed lamentable because this Universe has so much to offer and I do not feel ready to leave it yet. I think self can be apart of the expression of Self and obviously is. The universe in it's entirety is Spirit, and a part of Spirit is the expression of form, yet their is no real substance to form, for it is Spirit and formless. When we get lost in form, we suffer, when we realize that form is formlessness, then we can be free to live here on Earth without trepidation. By remaining in Spirit among form, we can be free of delusion, and we can live in harmony with the Universe because our eyes are unclouded by selfish thirst. It seems to me that within the ever-changing universe, we incarnate within form periodically. I think while we are here, we can be enlightened, and live well. I do not think this type of life should be avoided. I think that the Universe sends us many things and that we can live well regardless of where we go. I think perhaps that form may be inherent in emptiness and that the two are inseparable. Spirit is triumphant wherever it may be

This life is the rolling dream of Spirit. Regardless of who or where or what we are, it is Spirit unfolding in all places all of the time. This is why Spirit is at home regardless of where it is. Even when Spirit loses itself in form, it remains perfectly itself. The reason we have nothing to gain as human beings is because our true nature is that of Spirit, which is already perfectly established as itself everywhere all of the time. This is our true nature right now. This is who we are right now. This and nothing else. It seems that we come and go from our resting place in Spirit as Spirit, yet Spirit we remain. Spirit is the soul of the Universe, it is it's life, it is the power that animates everything. It is always changing yet forever staying the same. Our life path is forever evolving before us, when we recognize our essential nature is Spirit, we can surrender to what life brings us and face it directly.  By studying the dharma we can learn of this nature and the way to realize it. This realization blossoms in the universe like a flower blossoms in a field, spontaneously and because the elements are in order to make it so. The seed of the dharma lives within each of us. If we water it with the attention of our awareness it will sprout. The dharma is the light by which we perceive the truth of Spirit. We must attend to it until it is bright enough for us to see the true nature of the universe. Seeing it so, we can let go of the dream of conditioned being and find relief from suffering. The dharma is alive and well throughout the universe and within all things. Each one of us has the potential to realize the buddha-nature of all things and the dharma is ready to awaken within us to show us the way. Through compassion Spirit reaches out to sentient beings and delivers them the dharma and ultimately through the dharma to their buddha nature. Spirit always reaches out compassionately to all life. By turning to it we allow it's wisdom to pour into our being. This is our responsibility and the effort we must make to bring the Buddha and the Dharma into our lives. Recognizing the wisdom of the dharma, and the truth of the Buddha is picking out the grain of rice from pebbles in the sand. It is separating the wheat from the chaff. It is the chocolate within the wrapper. Among many different avenues we may take in life, their is none better at getting where we want to go than the dharma, it is where we want to go and the way to get there. The truth of the Buddha-nature of all things and that true nature is Buddha nature is the truth that clarifies ones perception so that they may clearly see what is real and discard what is false and not useful. Realization of Buddha nature is the most useful thing in the universe. It is so useful that we can trade every other tool we have for it and still come out 10 times ahead. It is so useful that we will give up every other tool we have so that we can use it all the time. Maya, the chocolate wrapper is only useful because it holds the dharma and the buddha. Once we find the dharma and we digest it we can throw away the wrapper because we have realized the Buddha. We throw away the delusion which is the dream of self-nature as true nature. 

Still changing

 Last weekend and early this week my energies changed a lot. It pushed me to a area that I had partially forgotten about, and some changes have happened that make me rethink a lot about where I thought I was and how I thought I was developing. Previously I saw my development proceeding in two different major lines, I thought that I had just moved from blue to orange, from the holy ghost to christ, and then the backside line that was opening up to pure emptiness. These seem to have merged into one line in the last several days. It felt like my orange was pushing into green and then I believe in the same day, it shifted to pure emptiness. I have had a lot of new insights. It seems like the whole chain of color development is just a shift of conditioned being from one paradigm to another, while remaining the same conditioned being the whole time, it continues upwards through christ until it fully dissolves into pure emptiness. I thought that I had to steadily progress through all the colors and stages slowly over the years and I thought each of these developments was meaningful, but they are just all conditioned being and none of it is real. I think because consciousness here has already passed through all of the stages up to pure emptiness I don't think I need to spend more time working over them one by one. I thought that I had to grow up through them, I didn't realize that they all are not worth clinging to and that the entire process of growing up through them is just self striving. The stage of pure emptiness is dropping all striving altogether, and I had done this internally, but not in the way I was expressing myself outwardly. I had made what I thought was a big shift from red impulsive egotistical to blue conformist, I didn't perceive that the blue and all the upper stages are all conditioned striving. I didn't think I could get to that yet. But the whole procession just slipped upwards and I realized that it wasn't as deep as I thought it was. I didn't have to wade through it all and dive deeper, my awareness was much closer to penetrating through it than I thought, it wasn't a deep insight that was needed, just an accurate understanding of what was already present. It seems now that I am in between no whip and no ox, at home dreaming quietly, and pure emptiness, it seems that pure emptiness is coming on, and I am glad that it is. I don't have to completely drop my ego I don't think, or go to any extremes. I think this is about noticing that the world of form is constantly in flux and becoming detached to it as a whole, a dropping of conditioned being as the center of consciousness. Which isn't anything that I do, this stage is about deeply realizing their is no self, no individual being. That the individual human being that we believe we are is a mental construct, and has no reality. This self includes the whole perception of a universe full of tangible forms, when the individual self drops, the world drops with it, this is also a dropping of conditioned mind as the center of consciousness. It is the end of striving, which is the nature of self, striving itself is equatable with uneasiness. There is nothing to this stage because it is formless, there is no transformation of self, because self ends here. This is the end of the road of the upwards growth of self,

One Way

 All things are the same thing. Everything has the same self. There is one self that is in all places. There is One life and One feeling. One self. Everything is One. Each thing is every other thing. There is no difference between things, because each thing is the same thing. There is only one path to take, because every path leads in the same direction. Every path leads towards the same thing. Their is only one path, and we are already walking it. There is one direction to go. The Sun is rising. We continually set forth in this moment, and as we set forth, we return to where we began. In setting forth and returning, we remain motionless and Light awakens within our being. Light fills the entire universe and we accomplish everything in this moment. The awakening of Light is the fulfillment of all things. Awakening in each moment is the eternal fulfillment of our being. The coming and going of our self, the birth and death of our being. If we cling to no thing, this is our tribute. Eternal awakening in the present moment. If we stand tall in this blossoming of our being, it will eradicate our conditioned consciousness and we will be fully liberated from suffering. Doing so is remaining motionless and refraining from setting out in order to gain for our small self. If we remain still and do not go out into the world of temptation the sun will rise within us and we will have more than enough to satiate our thirst. The rising sun will awaken our being and we will become capable of succeeding in our own lives. We will have the power and the wisdom to set our affairs straight. Only by resisting the temptation of the sweet scented field can we gain the power and wisdom necessary to become a skillful human being. Otherwise our nature will remain corrupted and our ability to provide for ourselves and others will be fragmented and untrustworthy. We may only trust in the dharma to achieve such temperance. We must be demanding of ourselves, but not too demanding, and we must be soft, yet not too yielding. By such give and take we learn proper balance and insight into our own nature. As our insight deepens we discover the source of life and the ability to pull from it directly. In time we realize that by letting go of all attachments, by tempering our thirst for the sweet scented field, the life energy from this source will flow freely throughout our being and the universe will spontaneously provide us with everything we need. This is the way to become a true Lord among human beings. Others will naturally turn to the wisdom of one who is capable of thus, and this Lord will have the wisdom and skill necessary to lead others. Trusting in the Christ Way within, the Lord will combine instinct and intuition to choose wisely among the many blossoming tendencies on the Path, remaining a renunciant, they will take action in the field for the sake of continual sacrifice of their conditioned being and the goal of ultimate self-realization. Even if Nirvana is attained, the Lord will continue until their entire being is purified. There is but One self within all things. One life, this is the answer to all of life's questions, the underlying nature of all things. All nature is of one nature. All movements, all feelings, one feeling. There are not many things we do here. There is but one. One bird with One eye. There is no World, there is only Self, their is no gain and no loss, only the undying Dragon. Nothing exists save the Dao.

Go tell it on the mountain

 Unity of all things, unity of all people, one great life, one great feeling, the return of the Lord to His rightful throne, the restoration of the kingdom, Glory to God, forever Amen. That such a thing is possible, that such wisdom can come to humankind. That such light can be born in each one of us. I believe the Kingdom of Heaven is a place of Divine Light that we may enter when we pass the threshold of the subtle heavens into Christ Consciousness. Here we are born again in Divine Light, as a Son or Daughter of God. It is the Kingdom of God, because He reigns supreme here, and here all things are restored. It is a place of eternal Light, eternal Love, and eternal beauty. Order is imposed by wisdom and through compassion and grace it descends upon us. God is a being of infinite wisdom. I am a Son of Divine Light, I am Light, in Light, created by Light. My Father is the Source, which is the Supreme Self, from which everything flows. My Father and I are One. The Son is the same as the Spirit, the Son is Spirit manifest in form. We may be born as a Son or Daughter of God when we allow Christ to rise within us and become the ruler of our life, which I believe is the prana or life force that flows within us. We must pass through the Holy Ghost, the Word Aum, and the purifying flames it sets upon our soul to reach the Lord that dwelleth within. It is a light upon a hill that is high enough for all of humankind to see, it is a light strong enough to light up the whole world. With the Holy Ghost under it's command Christ is able to purify the world and restore the order which is Divine Righteousness. Christ uses the Holy Ghost to carry out out God's will by changing the code of the Universe from within. If you change the code, you change the form. Creation is but a projection of Light as is the image within the screen on the computer. Passing through the purifying fire of the Holy Ghost, we become adepts of the code of creation and with enough skill, Masters. A true Master is one who has restored Christ onto the throne of command of his or her own soul. This is the process in which the small self tempers itself at the forge to become the True Self, the Christ Self within. Christ is the Master, their is only One, and it is One body that flows in all people and all things. It is one seamless intelligence or awareness that exists in every particle of creation. It truly is One with all that is, when everything is One body of Light. Within duality though, Christ is a separate body of awareness that lives within each particle of creation. The more we dwell in Christ, the more the duality dissolves into Christs Unity to the point in which Christ and the world become one boundless field of Dharma. I believe this is what Zen Buddhists call One taste. Because in this state of mind, you can experience through your senses the entire universe all at once through any point of contact. To reach Christ, one must sacrifice the small sense of self in the fires of Wisdom. Through the Holy Ghost, we can reach the fire of wisdom which is Christ-passion-flame. We make offerings of our selfishness and receive the blessing of Wisdom which is Christ-consciousness. We do so piecemeal, bit by bit, until we are ready to lift up the mantle of Christ all at once and live from this center. I think Christ lies within the mind, within the Third-Eye center between the eyebrows, it also seems to come from our heart center when it has been purified. It has something to do with the color orange, which I believe resonates with the naval chakra. I don't understand how all of these things fit together. It seems to me that Christ is can be a field of orange glowing light that permeates and is all things. It seems to me that Christ is the causal dimension of reality and that it is a place where prana flows uninhibited. 

Christ taught the Dharma

 Jesus taught the dharma, this is what he brought to the people he ministered to. This is what was so different and powerful that it scared many people in power. It was too different, to foreign, and too destabilizing to accept. He did it in such an open way that he threatened those in power, and he was crucified because of it. What Jesus taught was that we no longer need to adhere to the traditional systems that have been in place for millennia. These have a practical purpose, but their is a more direct way to live that transcends established practice. He taught that the law is unconditional Love and that God lives within our hearts, that our conscience is a higher law than any custom or authority on Earth. He taught to live directly from God rather than through an intermediary, than puts the responsibility in the hands of the individual rather than the community. He teaches us to be lords unto ourselves, by embracing the law which is Christ. Conscience requires an objectivity that transcends social custom. This is a radical perspective compared to the strict adherence to social code that dominated the world then and still does so today. This isn't one ignoring social customs to pursue the gratifications of their own desires, it is utilizing reason in a way that transcends the limited ways in which people tenuously go about expanding their understanding of the universe. This logic depends upon social participation in established practice, which slowly evolves, yet never really reaches beyond a certain point. It can't because it has to keep things at a distance so it can study them and protect itself, it will always keep a distance between itself and truth, because it is afraid of looking at it directly. In order to move closer, it must evolve. It must become more vulnerable and assume more responsibility, taking charge for it's life rather than depending upon the fabric of the community for support. Christ sets the law, because Christ is the Lord, when we become Christ, we become the Lord. Christ didn't want us to be Christ like, he wanted us to bear the cross as he did, he saw those that followed him, followed Christ as family, because these people chose to dwell in Christ as he did, he said he did not know his biological family, which according to social custom would be his true family. He is stating that there is a higher law, that comes directly from the heart, this is an objective good that transcends outer customs, he urges us to follow this and to abandon antiquity, to move into a new world. This is monumental, this completely undermines the existing power structure on the planet, which is based on either one's might, or intelligence. He places the order instead in the hands of the objective good, which I believe is the Dharma or mind of Christ. This is the Lord because it sets the law that others follow, when it descends to the people, which are only people of custom who oblige to follow it, but Christ did not want us to be mere followers, he wanted us to rise to the challenge of become like him, not an endless attempt to imitate him, but to adopt the same qualities and heart as him, to be that of the same category. He literally asks us to follow him, when really he is demanding that we take the responsibility of leadership upon ourselves by assuming the same burden of the Christ Cross that he does. He's a fucking savage. If we can get over the sentimental image that traditional Christianity drowns him in, we can see what a total fricken dude he was. He wasn't about all the bullshit of doctrinal religion, he was about being radically present and radically intune with the spontaneous living law of the universe. He was a surfer, and he got on the biggest wave he could and didn't give a fuck what people thought of him. He gave every ounce of himself so that other people could be free of ignorance, not to join some idiotic crusade that Glorifies their bullshit in his name. He wouldn't have wanted any of this. He just wanted people to live directly with God, on their own terms. I thought for the longest time that we needed to return to the good old days of true blue conformist society. Their are a lot of great things about this way of life, but it is sorely limited. I was afraid of being more honest with myself, afraid of looking directly at what is going on. We have to expand our frontiers and move forward, we can't look back or stay where we are, it isn't as good as we thought it was, and it isn't good enough to deal with the changes our world is facing today. As a species we are moving beyond these traditional roles, it is happening, it is a fucking fact, no matter how much you are comfortable with true blue, it is becoming outdated. Everyone is at a different spot in development. This is fine. You have to grow from the bottom up. I am just expressing my angst at the rigidity to which people hold on to the past, onto established norms, onto what is comfortable, especially when it isn't helpful, and rather harmful. Much of what is popular or trending culture tells us to be independent, but it is also drilling in the idea that we have to do what the ads say, what popular culture says, it is hard-wiring us to be servants of the commercial law, to be stuck as blue slaves, it is really instilling fear and anxiety about deciding things for ourselves, which is not what it pretends to be on the surface. It aims at making us distracted and competitive with eachother while it continues to dominate the field. It really isn't a true lord, but rather an egoic tyrant, that rules through might rather than divine right. We are seduced by it's message, which is evil. It's all bullshit. The good thing about all the commercial shit is the development of industry and technology/science that goes along with it. I think it is good that we have so much more to choose from and that it is much more available. Despite the bullshit of corporate tyranny, reason is expanding throughout the globe and this is liberating people from narrow traditional paths. Without this step, we would not be able to embrace communism as we will in the future. I am not talking about government forced authoritative communism. I am talking about a communism that naturally evolves in democratic societies in which people choose to form communal societies because it serves them best in the here and now. This is not forced, but a natural evolution of things. I am guessing that when we are capable of embracing Spirituality rationally, we see the world through the lens of Christ consciousness, we see the subtle unity of all things as One underlying body. We no longer have to follow the Holy Ghost, but have merged with it which somehow opens up the universe to and exposes the underlying unity of form. We are capable of seeing that the traditional roles we played and the logical maneuvers that we made where necessary to get to this point, now we are capable of shedding these roles and taking direct steps towards realization of Truth and self fulfillment. God is not a distant companion, but a living field that animates every atom of our being and spreads infinitely and eternally in all directions. God is not an always other, but our own personal consciousness, He or She or It is divine, and so are we, because we are it. Perhaps this is why Jesus is so persistent in calling himself the Son of God. He feels so intimately how every part of himself is Holy and Divine, equally divine as God within Divinity. He is Divine and so are we. This is the Dharma. We are living in it, as it. This place is Holy, it is Divine. Nothing is separate from Divinity, we only temporarily perceive it to be so, this is not the truth. The whole World is Light, full of Light, and we all are free in it. 

My karma was a bitch

 I have had a lot of good karma throughout my life, but the last 10 years have been nasty. As bad as it was, it seems like a beautiful gift in the long run. It opened me up so wide, and showed me things I never would have seen or known if had had a cleaner path. It killed much of my ego and conditioned being, a long process of self-annihilation. As much as I have lost, or missed, I think I see very clearly now the right way to go, the dharma. I feel I am capable of anything, that my life has no limitations, no height I cannot reach. I feel like I have mastered the hurricane, and although I remain riddled with splinters, cuts, gashes and many broken bones, my Spirit is whole and well, for this I am supremely happy. Eat broken glass, would be a good koan. Get eaten by that dragon, or pack of wild beasts. Then I will revive you, and we'll do it again, for 10 years. Then you'll be ready to do anything. You ready?? I would definitely have refused. Lol, but I was not wise enough to realize what lay ahead, nor did I necessarily have a choice. The hurricane and the blizzard came home to stay and to teach me many lessons I did not want to learn. When the furnace is roaring, lean into the fire to stay cool, eat glass to stay alive, and destroy all your enemies with overwhelming force. Obliterate the opposition, then obliterate yourself, nukes do well. Nuke the universe into extinction and see what remains when everything else is destroyed. Never surrender, because you yourself are stronger than anything else out there, eventually you will rise above all obstacles in supreme victory. Each human being is Spirit incarnate, this is your destiny. Everything is in fact Spirit, which makes everything worthy of respect. The difference between things is the degree to which they reflect the Spirit that dwells within them, that is their true nature. The difference between human beings is how much each one of us lives up to the unchanging ideal of our soul, which is that of indomitability, of fearlessness, of excellence, and total Victory. If you want to be a hero, take up this flag and sprint up the mountain, never look back. Our Spirit is a Warrior, a Conqueror, a Mighty Hero that defies the odds. The greatest warrior conquers their own anger, and mistreatment of other beings, they are a warrior of fierce love. The greatest battle is the war against selfishness, against smallness, against the darkness in the mind and heart. Battle against this until you reach Victory, Supreme Victory of the Soul over the limitations of ignorance and win an everlasting Glory in the Infinite Kingdom of one's own purified heart. Radiant Spirit we are and forever will be, it calls us home ceaselessly, we will be restless until we take up the charge, and win the Crown. This is the central and only true mission of our soul, all other pursuits are a reflection of this. Everything in this universe is a reflection of our Soul, of Spirit. Within each thing is the Lord of the Universe, the Heart of hearts, Christ consciousness. We will wander until we find it, then we will raise it up, and then we will set it down and have our final peace as pure Spirit. We discover the Lord within things and it is the answer we have been searching for over the millennia, the solution to all our problems, a permanent solution to the mystery of our existence. We cannot have lasting peace in this world of varying forms, everything here is limited, and our attitude towards it is subject to our everchanging heart moods which are outside of our control. These forms are deceptive and not what they appear to be. We can only have steadiness in this world if we realize their essence as Christ and allow that world to dissolve into Christ. It is the salvation of our soul and regardless of how much we want anything else to be, it isn't. Within our obfuscated perception of outward things and people, Christ, is mixed up in all of it, yet until we pluck it out, we will remain horribly confused, disturbed, and lost. Christ isn't just a man, it is a realization of the subtle unity of all things, of an underlying Oneness pervading all of creation. It is transcendent of any personality or ego, it is a high stage of self-realization, of an expansion of consciousness beyond the narrow confines of the separate self. Christ is the One, the One and only, there is no comparison in this world of form. He truly is. It truly is. There is such a thing as the One. It is Christ or Christ Consciousness. If you see this, the fact that it is the answer we have all been searching for really means something. It is the answer. Truly. It is an end to the search that we all go through, the wide long ambling search through the universe for substance and meaning. 

Free flow of prana

 I believe Christ consciousness affects the free flow of prana in the human body, which accelerates the awakening process by provided much needed energy to the bodies various centers. It is the wisdom of Christ that allows this free flow of life energy. If we bring our total being up to this level, we may bathe in prana and be rejuvinated by it I believe the causal realm which I equate with Christ consciousness is a realm of infinite energy, a wellspring of unbounded life force or prana. When we dwell here, the wellspring is released within our own being, it chips away at the fetters of our consciousness. Christ knows how things should be properly put together. Christ consciousness knows what is whole and reaches out to make whole anything it can reach. It is Wisdom and Virtue. It dissolves ignorance and disease. To reach Christ we must first pass through the veil of Earth, of matter, and then through the veil of the astral sea, or mind. I believe Christ is God's divine body, infinity encased in form, spirit manifest as form. The causal includes both the astral and the physical or material. Because this realm is composed of Light, it is a place of infinite energy, it is unbounded form. The energy within form is free to rise unimpeded. The form is allowed to become complete at last. It's potential may be fully realized. Within the causal, you realize that you are the causal, for here everything is One. Your form and body is boundless, infinite, as is your mind and your thought. Your form is singular and whole. It seems like the last task that remains, is fully realizing this truth, which in the end equally proves to be illusory as all other paths before it. Yet here, this is the pursuit, this is the dharma. I am Light. I am thought, feeling, being. I am One. One being, One source, One self. I am supreme among forms, as I am all forms. I am all things. My being is all that is. Everything is under my power, within my mind. Here I am. All of this is who I am. There is One God, One Source, One Soul. Here, I am. One infinite Life, One Infinite Being, One Supreme Self, One Spirit, One Truth, Supreme. It is nearly too marvelous to believe. That all of this is occurring within my being, within my self, within my mind. That all of this is flowing within me. I am One. All life occurs within me, within my mind. I am the infinite universe, I am infinite space, and infinite being, There is no beginning nor end to who I am. This is what I am. Pure light, pure being. Formless and boundless light stretching infinitely in all directions. One infinite body, One infinite being. This is my self. It is my being. I am infinite. Infinity. Free

The Dharma of self

The true nature of form is self, self is Christ. Everything is self, everything is Christ. Christ is singular, self is singular. The universe with all it's varied forms is a singular self, a singular being. It is one living form, one living body, that may stretch infinitely in all directions. I believe it is infinite. Even so, it is tangible to the senses, it is something we can grasp. It seems like the Universe is really God's body. However changing, it remains constantly itself, and in a way eternally un-phased by what happens within it. I think this is because it does not depend upon the parts within it. To it, there are no parts, there is just itself, Christ. One seamless body. It cannot be harmed by what passes. Here, there truly is just the One, the experience of the part is illusory. What we acquire for ourselves is negligible because we are already firmly established in self, and it is already fulfilled. What we may gain for ourselves has illusory value, it is an attempt in vain to acquire selfdom through substitution of acquisitions for self-realization. This is not something gained, but something perceived inwardly that already exists, that is already present within us, here in the universe. All sense desires and sense object pursuits are poor attempts to realize this truth. This is why thirst for sense objects is ultimately foolish and a misplaced effort. There are traces of truth within everything we may desire in this universe, but clutching at things obsessively will not allow our insight to penetrate self-realization. This will always bog down our deeper inspirations that have the strength to guide us directly to God. They will always distract us and confuse us. The sweet scented field is full of hell fire we often fail to perceive. Our culture highly values much which is self-destructive, superficial, and corrupt. This conditions us to look in the wrong places. If we succeed in looking in the right places, we can disentangle ourselves from unhelpful habits, and find that the truth is not so difficult to comprehend. I do not think the truth would be so difficult to find if as a whole we were less deluded as a society. Truth is apparent and obvious once it is perceived. If our tenants were established in virtue, there would be clear and easy paths forward to it. There would be many more places to study and meditate freely. It would be encouraged. I hope to help make this come into being in my lifetime. I hope to encourage many others to seek God and to do my part to correct and advance the structures which we live by. In a land governed by Virtue science and technology would be fully utilized for the collective good. Profit would not be privatized, it would be shared appropriately. The biosphere and it's natural systems would be protected and maintained and utilized sustainably. This would all be possible because greed would be held in check and wisdom would reign. People would be motivated to serve the collective good and there would be enough virtuous beings that the structure of society would be purified. Those in charge would be the most virtuous and they would create systems that care for and nurture their people. They would have enough intelligent and skillful  peers to carry out their vision. The Light would be bright enough that the people would see the right way to go. The best way, is the way that is the most careful, that cares for all of the parts with equal consideration, yet priorities what is necessary to maintain the integrity of the whole. Each part, each piece is necessary for the establishment of the Good within human society. Awareness, wisdom, and compassion are needed. But, the most important part is Christ consciousness, because this is the living whole, and only through awareness of the living whole, can the living whole be properly cared for

Moving forward: The Light and Christ, Servant and Lord

 A lot of changes recently. A lot of relief. It feels like my life is finally opening up. The way things change is so interesting. The way God works. It's like clockwork. But a heavenly clockwork, organized and set in motion by Divine Love and Wisdom. It's like God knows what's going on in our minds and is prepared to move forward when we are. That God has prepared many things for us in advance. That there is a hidden orchestration of the universe that flows uninterrupted. This seems to be the Play of Spirit. This play is the image that is the Universe we live in. It is the Light. It includes all the drama of our lives. All of the changes in our consciousness. I think ultimately, everything that happens here is Light, being projected somehow from God as God. It seems that God wants us to realize this so that we may step out of the world and be free from suffering. He orchestrates the play to free souls and to express His own being. He listens to us with compassion and liberates us through grace. He sets a way before us that we can follow so that we may find Him and once we know Him he sets a path before us that will eventually free us from suffering: the imprisonment in ignorance. This is why tuning into God is essential to free ourselves from bondage. The heart of all bondage and oppression is our ignorance of God and His way. I think he answers us when our hearts cry out loud enough to Him to save us from our misery. When our anguish is deep enough that it touches His mind, He cannot help but to reach out to us. I think it is our desire to be born in Him that stirs Him the most. When we have turned sufficiently to Him, He will take measures to free us from ignorance. He will reveal enough of Himself to us that we realize the futility of our ways, of our selfishness, and equally realize the Wisdom that is self-sacrifice through the abandonment of desire or thirst. It is this Wisdom that establishes us firmly and completely in God and that eliminates the ego or separate self. When we are ready to walk this path, we walk with God in silent communion I believe to learn of the mystery of the Light, which is I believe the image of God, or the image that is the Universe. I think when we have walked sufficiently with Him, in this case I believe as the Holy Ghost or Aum, we fully realize the Light, the Image, and become it. I think here we discover that Christ is the Light and that the Light is One. In communion with the Holy Ghost we become and are a Servant of Light. As one who fully realizes the Light I believe we remain a Servant yet become a Lord of Light, a Christ, which really is The Christ, because Christ is singular, One. It is awesome to realize that God can bestow this grace upon a human being, upon oneself. He would only do so if He felt one was ready for the responsibility. God is always mindful of the content of our hearts, he is always sensitive to our feelings, and acting in our best interest, I think especially in these moments, when when He knows the profundity of what He asks of us. It is a sacred pact that is made when He bestows this upon us. It is an immeasurable privilege, and one of the highest Holy Gifts that we may receive. It is not made lightly. Given so, we have the duty of upholding God's honor and these sacred responsibility. Whatever our doubts, we can carry on with the assurance that comes from knowing this is blessed by God and will equally be upheld by Him, the sole agency we may trust wholeheartedly. Seeing these ways clearly, one realizes the supreme blessing that comes from this path, and is deeply moved to have the privilege and honor of walking it.  

Christ #2

 It seems to me that everything is Christ waiting to be born, that everything is Christ being born and Christ awakens right now as everything that is here. What we are is Christ waiting to be born and when we find Him, Christ being born right now. Christ awakening right now. Christ is like a star rising in heaven, a flaming inferno that fills the universe with light. This moment is Christ awakening, it is the sun rising. Christ awakening is a blaze that lights up in everything, that shows the world to be other than we believed it to be. I think everything is free in Christ, everything is good, Christ I think is true strength, it comes from wholeness, not competition and aggression and fear. It is righteousness, Christ is my liberator. I can't believe that such a thing exists within each one of us, in a world that can be so dark. Such brightness and evenness and strength that is here all along, within all things. If more of us can see it, we can release it into the world and free each other from blindness and despair. If we truly descend from God, then it is assured that what he creates would be more good than it is evil, that the good would be prior and stronger than the evil. We just don't realize what we have, and we struggle in the darkness to acquire things that are not fulfilling. We do not realize the truth, nor how near it is, we do not realize how distant we have become from ourselves. It is strange how lost we have become. Especially when light is so near. I suppose it is simply cosmic gears shifting. The Light truly never is lost, it is just forgotten. you can't get rid of something that is apart of the present moment, that is transcendent of change. We will have peace on our world when our society brings itself to this righteousness. When this righteousness is established in the heart of our practices. This will make each person every person's neighbor, and every person loved as thy self. The establishment of Christ, is the eradication of selfishness, of evil. It is a balancing of judgment, and a  fulfillment of character and Virtue in individual being. I really find it to be a liberator of oppression of all forms for Christ has the strength to overcome all obstacles. In Christ we find liberation from oppression. Christ has the power to overcome all evil, all darkness, to restore us to our birthright, which is decency, health, and wellbeing. This is more central to our being than our astral nature, than the call we have to turn to God, this is God come home, God alive in the present moment. This is the Lord alive in us. The Heart of hearts that is our own heart, the true nature of our heart. It is so beautiful

Christ

Christ is the Lord that liveth in each one of us. Christ dwelleth within our hearts. He seeth all that we do. He is our heart of hearts and within everything He seeth everything. 

I believe that my path through Logic is over. A seamless transition into Order and Christ what I was unaware was direct communion with the Holy Ghost. The way seems narrower and deeper, sharper, and greater. It is narrower and more precise while opening up an avenue and a world that is far greater in scope than the astral universe. The astral universe dissolves into the causal, into Christ, which feels very open and expansive. The causal universe feels like a seamless whole that is all the same mind of Christ, One massive furnace of Christ-passion-feeling self. It is I believe an answer to the open-ended mystery of the colossal variety of the astral plane, an answer that reaches out from the bowels of the astral plane, which reveal the universe to be something else. All roads point to Christ, Christ is the end of the long road, yet also that which walks silently along every path that is taken. Christ is the resolution of the astral universe and a search for meaning and answers, a robust declaration of the subtle Unity of all things and of the One who dwells within. Christ brings everything home. It is the unifier and the redeemer of the soul. Home is Christ, when we move into His mansion, we end the countless meanderings of our soul. As we go about our business, when we start new affairs, we remain settled within, we do not need to search for answers for we have found the One. We have found our true self. If we clearly see Christ we clearly see that Christ is everywhere we go, it is no longer localized to particular places or things. We have come home within, and residing in the causal, all spaces are One space. Both the physical and the astral I believe embody this. For, at this point, the physical has already dissolved into the astral, and now the astral has dissolved into the causal. On Earth looking out of our physical eyes we look at an Earth that now resides within the causal. Home becomes a vast place with incredible frontiers. I don't experience this so readily now, but I do believe it is the case. I think as the fire of Christ catches hold within, it will burn away the boundaries. This perhaps is the flame that Hohn says Jesus will baptize us with. "I indeed baptize you with water unto repentance: but he that cometh after me is mightier than I, whose shoes I am not worthy to bear: he shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost, and with fire:" Matthew 3:11 I do believe this fire is the fire of Christ, that burns away sin and awakens one to the Christ within. It is almost like I look straight into Jesus's eyes and He brought me to this level. I think dwelling on Him switched something in my mind and all this makes sense now. I just didn't realize how near I was. I have already passed through Christ in one way probably seven or 8 years ago. I awakened to it. I didn't realize it was happening at 23, but I think it was. By 24 I was moving into a Oneness that wasn't a transcendent causal, but a Oneness of all forms and all planes. This may be the beginning of what is non-dual. Not sure about this though. Now I just see everything as Christ. 

I may have leveled up.

 I may be done with my processing stint. Code blue might be Active orange. I think this may be the case. I was not expecting this for several years. I am not sure exactly what happened. Instead of processing data, I feel like I am activating energy, activating potential. The image is already complete, or just complete. Now it is more important to activate the energies here, to actualize the data. To fully embody the knowledge gained. It's weird because I didn't realize that the image was already completed. It's almost like I was tenuously approaching something I was uncertain of, and once I was comfortable enough with it, I could just walk up and use it. It seems like it was more a question of lack of self-certainty, and lack of familiarity with the controls, rather than a lack of of data. I am not sure. I thought I had to perfect myself here at Blue, I don't I just have to have the ability to effectively gain control of this system, once I can, I can move forward, and take care of things as they come. I was using established rules because I could count on them in an uncertain environment. Now that I know how things work, I can manipulate the controls in a much more efficient manner. This isn't a relapse into selfish red, it is an expansion of self into a place where I set the tone by taking charge of the directives in my life. Choosing what best serves me rather than prescribing to a particular direction established by others. Thirst remains unsatisfactory, and impulsiveness is still dangerous and unwise. I feel like I have fallen into a ring closer to my center of being, yet also more expansive. The sparkling blue and variety of forms of Blue is replaced by a clearer black and orange lens. My energy feels more localized in my body rather than in my thoughts, I think it is still centered in the manipura chakra, the focus of this stage appears to be actualizing the potential of the life force, prana, and guiding it higher up the spine. It seems to be focused more on the objective movement of the prana within the body, rather than on understanding the astral universe which is full of prana. I seems like the whole point of studying the nature of the astral universe and the variety of forms there, was to discover the essence of prana, which I am guessing is the essence of mind and thought and form. Or at least the activating principle of the centers which drive these. It seems that prana is the key that unlocks the potential of the human being. Prana is the force which drives everything in the universe it seems. It seems like prana is the awakening life force that drives form to evolve and reach upwards towards Spirit. It also seems like Blue is a step to objectively discover prana. I think the heart of the astral universe may be a sun that is pure prana, this is interesting...I am not sure exactly what this is...but I think I found it..............I thought this was Christ, I am not sure if it is...It feels lower, but I don't know..I can't tell if I am low or I am high. I think it is Christ. His heart is so open. Christ truly is the Lord. He is evenness. Both High and Low at the same time, He is the space between, He fills all things. He is the Lord of the Universe. I think you have to discover Christ as I have in order to fully awaken your Being, because Christ is the only one capable of managing everything correctly. You must be a Master to fully take control of it. If you attempt to do so without Mastery, it's power will corrupt you and you will become lost. The path to this Mastery is through selflessness, because egotism is blind. Christ is One, the One. 

Soaring with Jesus

 Rocking and rolling. He me be going. Yo. I think it may take a while for me to figure this all out, but that's ok. I am just gonna rock and roll. Just bust it out. I have a lot of work to do. Hell ya. Let's go. This isn't gonna happen overnight. It's gonna take years. But I am on the track, I am gonna work through it. No point getting upset. Breathe deep. Head up. Go straight! I am basically trying to understand everything there is to know about myself and the universe. How everything works, what everything is. Understand all the dimensions and aspects of my being and development. There is so much to know. I have a ton of cleaning up to do. Every day is a chore! If I change my attitude, I think it can be a blast! Heading up, let's go!! Rock and roll towards tomorrow baby! Build me a bridge to the sunshine land. What I find so interesting is how such intelligent people can do such stupid things. Like gifted minds can suffer from severely undeveloped aspects of their consciousness. It is so interesting. There can be so much oversight. I this is because the human mind, or psyche, is very complex, and intelligent as humans can be, most of us are also very ignorant. In this ignorance that most people have, there is a lack of the ability to consciously uplift the entirety of the being all at once. I think this is because most of us are largely fragmented and unaware of the whole to an extent that we can willingly uplift the entirety of our being. You have to have a strong enough sense of the one and of the overall complexity of the mind before you can implement your will to turn it all in the right direction. It isn't enough to focus on one piece at a time, you have to sense the interlocking mechanisms that hold it all together, the deeper patterns that form the mass general content that fills our heads and hearts. If you wish to uplift the entirety of the psyche you have to see it clearly in the mind, in a rough enough manner to grab a hold up it and supercharge it with love and feeling so that it is lifted. I am not talking about moving it a little bit in the right direction, or a lot of a bit, I am talking about bringing all of it to perfection. To the extent that you fill all of it with light, that you fulfill all of the unique avenues of the soul, every dimension of operation and interaction. I think a complete mastery of the psyche, also a perfection of the operation of the self, and a perfection of virtue, a perfection of the self. This is what I am interested in. The psyche is full of countless thoughts and feelings, with varying depth. The mind and the heart are connected, they are ultimately one and apart of the same self. As much as it is about mastering the mind and the heart, it is about returning to the heart, the One, that is Christ. Which is awesome. Christ is already One and He dwells within the heart of the astral universe, our mission is to return to Him. Really to merge with him, this is a fulfillment of the human psyche I believe. Ya, this is it. What a fucking joy. Our roads do not point to darkness of any kind, only to Light. Any darkness we find is at the corner of a passageway rather than at our destination. We only have love to look forward to. What Christ teaches us, is that each trouble or obstacle can be overcome and cannot get in the way of our Soul when we turn to face Him, the light at the heart of the subtle universe. What is great about Christ, is that it isn't a heavy complication of things, but a simplification that leads to a much greater avenue of being. It is easier, rather than more difficult. Our soul is lighter there. If we turn in that direction, we actually find that we are pulled to it, through levity, God takes on our burden, rather than making it greater. He is extending out his hand. With light and love and energy. What is most difficult is to face the darkness in ourselves and be willing to have faith in Him. This isn't a pre-rational blind faith. It is a post-rational blind faith. It requires to step outside of our comfort zone, so that we can feel the light of sun. It may be temporarily blinding, but once we get used to it, we don't just get back reason, but we learn to fully employ it, finding that we were barely using it before. Reaching God is actually the fulfillment of Logic, and I believe Christ is pure Reason. The great thing is that once we leave Earth, we get to soar through the astral heavens to Christ. What a magnificent way to come home. 

Father

 God, will you please teach me more about yourself, so that I may know thee? Father, please show me what it is that makes all of this? Lord, please show me what this really is. Lord, please show me who I really am and what this world really is. Please help me see who you are so that I may know what is real, so that I may turn from what is false and accept the truth. I sense that you are here abiding behind the play of this world. This world is not what it appears to be. Please show me the true nature of your existence. Please reveal to me who you really are. Please stay with me as I continue to walk down the path of knowledge of who Thou art. Father, I sense thee are great. Greater than I am capable of seeing. Father, much of your way is hidden to me. Lord, please disclose more to me so that I may remain with you. I wish to be with thee. I wish to take Thee with me as I go about my way. You are my father, I thy son, please hear me, please listen, please be at my beck and call, take me under thy wing and lift me up to high places. Always protect me and assure that I am blessed by thy grace. Protect me with your wisdom and guide me to safety. Please show me what is real, please let me stand by thy side. Please let me stand with you and be guided by you as I make my way through this world. I believe I make my way here to learn of you and to learn of what Thy ask of me. Regardless of what I see in this world, it is You that are a voice of wisdom and truth. It is you who I must seek if I wish to know my true purpose, if I wish to know the truth about this universe. You are the truth and the answer. Why is so much hidden? Why do we live in such a deep darkness? Why must it be so difficult to find what is real? Thee reside in such a high place? Why are thee so from from where we are? Lord, why must it take so much to find thee? You are strange, and speak to me in such a strange way. Why is it so difficult to hear thee? I wish to offer much to thee, but I am so broken I find it very difficult to do so. I wish to make an offering to thee, because thee are the greatest, and I owe everything to Thee, because I think thy are great and this is enough to worship thee, to desire to give thee gifts. You are most holy, most wonderful, yet most silent. I find this very difficult to bear, because I desire so much from Thee. I need so much from Thee my Lord. I ask so much of Thee. I ask for Thee to fulfill all the wishes in my heart. I ask Thee to give me everything I ask for if Thee may make what I ask for whole and good. You are my master. You are my strength. Everything comes from you. 

Understanding the Mystery of the Universe

 So if each form is a mental image and each form is truly each other form, and each form is truly Christ, then the way to fully realize Christ, is to put together the puzzle pieces of the universe. Each form is a piece, all the pieces fit together to make a whole, downloading the mental image through communion with the Holy Ghost or Logic, is the way. We are essentially mining for data and then using that data to expand our processing power so we may gain even more data. It is an exponential growth curve, each bit is a piece of the puzzle. The puzzle slowly fills in and it begins to become easier to piece everything together, you get a feel for where things go, how they fit together. It's almost like Christ is what is created when we gather all the pieces of our soul and put them together. Christ is the whole image I think, which makes a lot of sense. The picture of the universe becomes complete when all the parts are put together. It forms a whole and I think this whole is Christ. It makes sense that as you go deeper towards the heart of the astral universe you would approach this Whole, which would be the Heart of the Astral Universe. It seems that you can only approach when you integrate more of the Holy Ghost or Word or Code into your being. As you do so, the universe gradually melts together into a seamless Whole, which I believe eventually becomes the Causal universe. I believe this is how you enter the causal universe, by going straight into the heart of the astral universe. I think when you have brought all of your soul to this point, you become a Saint and have purified your heart. I think you are born again here as Christ, truly with all of your being. I think at this point the entirety of the astral universe has been ingested, processed and the image is fully rendered. I am not sure what exactly this means. Is Christ the image? Is the image, the Light that is God? I think it may be, because I think at this point, processing is over for good. I think the Light has been fully downloaded, lol. Which would make sense based on a lot of the stuff Jesus says. "I am the Light of the world. Whosoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." John 8:12. It is interesting that he says will have the light of life because the astral universe is composed of prana which is the life-force, and to me the astral universe is subtle light that is mental, so in following Christ he ensures that your life force, prana, will be sustained, to such an extent that you will not experience the lack of it, darkness. Only one who has mastered prana could fulfill this claim, and according to my logic, Christ is that which is the mental image fulfilled, which correlates I strongly think to a mastery of the life force both within oneself and within the Universe. Christ is the Master of the Word, he sets the law of the Universe. So the journey through the astral universe to the causal universe or Christ, is really down on Earth a mastery of one's own life force and a complete harnessing of the Word. The life force that flows within our body corresponds to the life force that flows within the universe. I think our soul is in itself the whole body of the universe, that is parceled out in various interconnected energy centers. Christ will light our way as we sail across the vast astral sea, he will provide prana or subtle light. He can because he is the source of it, the Spiritual Sun at the center of the Astral Universe. 

The subtle Unity and the way to it

 Each thing that arises in our awareness is in fact the same thing. Each thing we see is a reflection of the infinite. Each and every form a unique expression of the same infinite. Each form, each thing is actually infinity. Which makes each thing actually every other thing as well. The thing that is here is consciousness. We confuse these things to be separate things, when in fact they are each and all consciousness. This is consciousness. There truly is no thing here, nothing but the appearance of things. The mirror that is the reflection of consciousness as the illusory world of forms is also simply consciousness. Within the mirror, consciousness appears as a variety of things. These things are all subtly interwoven to appear as they do, while none of them really exist as we see them. Each thing in existence, every dimension is a diffusion of God's light into the many. When we awaken to the reality of the universe as consciousness these forms unravel before our eyes. The solidity of matter disappears. Our mind begins to process the image that God has created as a whole. Instead of a universe with chaos and order, their is simply the perfect order of God's creation. The image is flawless, nothing is out of place, chaos is an illusion. Everything is perfectly ordered according to a higher Logic. Each thing is perfectly placed. 

Each thing is the Spiritual Sun and the whole Universe. It is our mind that generates the illusion of difference, which is an image that we see, rather than seeing the universe directly. Each form is the same form, which is ultimately Emptiness. I think somehow the astral universe of the subtle mind is a mental overlay that covers the even subtler unity of all that is mind. I see this mental dimension as a mask that the universe wears. I think I see it this way because the coalescence of mind that created the illusion of the separate self has largely been erased, compromised, and displaced in what you may call my individual being. What I intuit now is that each identifiable mental form or thing that we see in our universe (both physical and astral) is actually Christ. I am confident that this Christ will eventually melt into the formless infinite, but for now this is what I see. This appears to me now to be apart of the main mystery of the universe and it feels as though the astral universe is a mask that is slowly slipping off my face. It's remarkable to be in the world and then to momentarily step out of it and see it as an object I could hold in my hand. It is so subtle, yet so simple. We get caught up in the motion of everything and forget what is actually going on. Caught up in the human drama It seems like everything is contrived by the subtle hand of the Holy Ghost, who is like a hidden friend standing behind everything. Pulling the strings. It is like God through Him is a friend hiding within each person and each thing, that we rarely see. In our ignorance we find the world evil. I do not think it is. I think every act comes from a place of Goodness and Wisdom, because all things are done by Him. It is our ignorance that leads us to believe this, not our own intelligence. By turning to Him, we may see what is real, that everything is sculpted by a divine hand. Power doesn't come from how much money we have in the bank, or how intelligent or skilled we are, it comes from God, who in this aspect, is a living force of cause and effect, that is impersonal, yet ruled by unchanging code that mortals cannot interfere with. If you recognize this power that is responsible for every other power, then you can depend on it, and rest in it, and be protected by it. It is unerring judgement, unerring law, that we are very capable of intuiting and perceiving and working with. We are so fixated on what is worldly, so infatuated with what we see that we miss what is hidden yet possesses true power. It is a fundamental relationship you have with God that protects your soul, a simple mathematical formula that you can follow as a prescription, that alleviates all ills. I think this basic formula is overlooked by many, perhaps more in those who believe they are especially gifted, who have a great deal already, and have not tasted bitter defeat and loss.  Who are willing to bet against God, against conscience so that they may have more. You cannot defy Him, for your defiance is built by Him. His law is flawless and supreme. 

The interesting thing is that, in a way, God is listening to us, and in a way, waiting for us to turn to Him. Which is incredible. I believe He wants us to turn to Him, because he wants our souls to be saved, because he loves us. He and a horde of heavenly beings who have turned their hearts to compassion for humanities suffering. God loves us, he watches everything we do, and I believe continually pours out his merciful love for us, to save us as much as he can from danger and suffering. Unfortunate for us, we are so deep in our suffering that we cannot see this and we remain incapable of turning to Him. The more I turn to Him the more I see his love and feel his presence. See him working behind the scenes. More than this is our life, this is a play of God unfolding across the infinite space of eternity. The reality of God's play is far more real than the illusion of our separate selves. 

By listening to God through the Holy Spirit, we may interpret His will and become his servants. We go into servitude to pay for our sins, and to learn how to properly take care of our selves, and I think the universe. I think our soul is always a servant of God, while through this servitude we may become something else, which is I think one who has fully sublimated the Word, Logos, enters into the realm of Christ as Christ. Here, in a way, we are freed of servitude by becoming the Master. We have to pass through the fire of the Holy Ghost to reach He that dwelleth beyond. The Holy Ghost sets fire to our sin which we can only redeem by turning that aspect of our self to God. Where we suffer the most, God is asking the most of us, it is also where we have the most to gain. He is both testing us and tempering our spirit, so that someday we may be greater and capable of hearing what He has to say. We rise to the challenge, by listening, by turning to Him as much as we are capable. Through prayer, and self-sacrifice, through contemplation. I think really it comes down to embracing our destiny, and choosing to life our life regardless of what it may mean for us. The radical and complete acceptance of ourselves and I think the radical and complete acceptance of God who awaits us. I think once we accept ourselves, we can turn to Him and be free of ourselves and find perfect liberty in the seamless Union of our soul with God. He has a plan for us. We can embrace it if we willingly follow Him. We may fear the consequences of servitude to God, but it is nothing compared to being enslaved to sense desires. 

Moving on..and more logic...

 So I am in the astral sea. Working on mastering this terrain. It is like drinking in pure mental data, pure mental landscapes. Ingesting subtle light by the gallon full. It seems like there is an incredible amount to do, an incredible expansion of consciousness is necessary here. Where the impulse driven ego is cast around like a leaf in the wind. Thoroughly out of it's league. A new drive is needed, one capable of sustaining the atmosphere of this incredibly varied expanse. The minutest movements of thought affect my location. It seems like stability of mind is very important. I think a lot of what is necessary is that which is gathered in long term movements, those which much of myself finds displeasing as it desires immediate satisfaction, immediate relief. I pay a lot of attention to these dissatisfied feelings, perhaps too much. They are quite distracting and also very centered in the creature will. These are no longer my priority. A greater vision is needed. I need a self of pure mind as a locus of operation. It needs to be strong enough to overcome these selfish impulses. It needs to have enough distinction that it can separate itself from them and exert control over them in a healthy way. A control that is not governed by impulsive selfishness. This seems to happen gradually. the mental will gaining definition  while the ego will recedes. The flesh will if you will. I think what I am wanting is something I can use to express myself, something that I can depend on, and I haven't clarified anything enough to serve this purpose. I am trying to save myself from drowning, and stop myself from floundering, just trying to get out of the mess I am in. I am, I think slowly accomplishing this, it is just slow. Slow for me. It is hard to bring myself to relax into this pace, to accept it. I am so used to sprinting. It has been difficult to find the proper focus of my attention that suits this new terrain. I feel that once I get control of myself, I will be able to ease into this, and if my calculations are correct, this is inevitable, because this stage is about controlling ones emotions and mastering them, not through a desire for selfish dominance, but through the steadying effect that intellect has on ones impulses. I believe when the individual is ready, the intellect naturally gains superiority and dominance, the ego will and thirst of the beast is quieted. 

Logic is the trail that leads to greater things. It is the key to understanding the hidden avenues of the universe, the great structures that lie beyond ordinary awareness. Logic requires self sacrifice, for the ego is too heavy to travel through the subtle universe that surrounds us. The ego relies on blunt force, in which it not necessary to thoroughly understand, it is only necessary to understand enough to manipulate the variable in ones environment to serve one's own purpose. To see deep enough, we must be prepared to leave ordinary understanding beyond, so that we can accept the extraordinary. If we are lucky enough, logic will open up the incredible energies within us and we may live a live in this new space. Here we have much more control over our destiny, much more freedom, and much more capability to overcome the unsurpassable that plagues most human beings. We must have a deep respect for this energy, but it has the power to destroy us. If we are not careful enough, it will. It is important to put the Master before us, and respect His wisdom, He has the intelligence necessary to be properly guided through this terrain. Without Him we are susceptible to darkness. If we do not turn to Him eventually our energies will turn against us, karma will show us it's backside, and we will reap our ugly fortune. With developed understanding over the subtle energies, we gain the power to overcome illness, fatigue, to expand the limits of our senses, to step into the miraculous. The examples of many who have done so prove the superiority of the mind over matter. To misuse this power is not an example of the shortcomings of the intellect, but of the perversion that one can stoop to when they place the priorities of the flesh above the principles of Logic which are both ethical and Spiritual. I believe Logic comes from a place of perfect order, which I believe translates to purity of heart. I believe the universe is perfectly ordered by Logic, and that imperfection is only a projection of ignorance, rather than a stark reality. I believe Logic is inherent in all things. I believe it is created by the Holy Ghost, which creates and organizes the entire universe. I believe the Holy Ghost is Logic. It would make sense if Logic or Logos, The Word of God, was that which created the universe, that the Universe was the living word of God because a word is an idea and an idea is an image. It makes sense that the world would be an image composed of Light. With the power of the Word, you can see that anything moves into the realm of possibility, especially when the world itself is nothing more than a floating image in God's mind. Instead of shifting and rearranging physical objects you are shifting the subtle orientation of light. Logos teaches this. If we approach it wholeheartedly as a servant, it will serve us, to do so to seek to manipulate it for selfish ends is self-destruction. We must lose our self to gain our self. If we wish to fully understand Logic, we must serve it and where it leads us, rather than seek to use it to serve ourselves. We pursue Logic because it is right in so many ways. It leads to righteous as righteous living and also as Righteous being Christ itself. I believe Logic is a purifying force, I think it may be the same as the throat Chakra Vishuddha which makes sense in the way that both Logos, and the throat chakra are associated with speech. It would make sense to me if Aum resided within the throat chakra, if it was it's heart. This would make purity Aum itself which would make sense if Aum is the force by which we reach Christ. For Christ is Saintly. It would make a certain sense if Logos is the throat chakra, Christ is the third-eye and God the Father is the Crown Chakra. You would literally have to pass energetically up the energy channels of the spine through the Word to reach Christ, and Christ to reach the Father. In my experience it is the Word, then the Christ, then the Father, each a successively higher spiritual plane 

Christ within the astral sea

 Christ is the shepherd of our souls I believe as we journey across the astral sea to the mount of Christ which I believe is the entrance to the causal realm. In the astral dimension, which we can be elevated to while we remain in our Earthly bodies, we must purify ourself before we can fully transition to the causal realm. I believe that the causal realm is likely more or less the domain of Christ consciousness and that it's essence is Christ. We must purify our hearts before we can make this journey. The only way to do this is to accept God as our Lord and to learn from him what I believe is Logic. Logic is the framework on which the astral universe is composed, and therefore the framework on which the entire physical universe depends. Logic, I believe, is taught to us through the medium of the Holy Ghost. Logic, I believe, straightens our way so that we may pass through the astral sea and reach Christ, or as I see it, the Haven that is the causal realm. I am still unsure whether these two terms are synonymous. I am more certain however, that Christ layeth beyond the astral sea, or within it, and recently I discovered that I believe Christ can be our shepherd as we make this journey. I believe we may be able to take refuge in Him as we journey across the astral sea towards moral purity. In this way it seems that Christ reaches out to us through the astral sea, to bring us to Him. Once we reach Him, I imagine that our doubt is dispelled and our faith is perfected, I think in this case we have fully united with the Lord in such a way that we are composed of His essence and dwell in a realm that is composed of His essence. This I believe is the causal realm, this is where my surety falters. Last night, I awoke to Christ in a way that I have not before. I felt that He was the purpose of learning decency, I believe that He is the aim and the goal. He is what we are searching for in this great and wide universe and in the this vast ocean of astral potency I believe He is what is generated by fully realizing it. I believe the mastery achieved by the creature will is it's death and perhaps also evolution into a being that transcends the physical universe, a being perfectly and fully mental or subtle. This is a new birth, or a rebirth of the creature's being into something totally different. The laws of this new life are equally novel and require a different set of skills. I think this is our astral body, or astral life. I think we may be able to die to our creature will so completely, even while retaining our physical life, that we fully enter into the astral or subtle universe, again, even while maintaining the same physical body that we were given at physical birth. This is only possible because our understanding of the universe and in particular the nature of the physical universe was fundamentally flawed. This major flaw led to the perception that there was a physical universe, that there is physicality. Dying to our mortal life I believe is the realization that the physical is an illusion. I think we are born into an astral universe in which it appears that our being or our soul is immortal. That no physical death can harm us. This doesn't mean an end to the Earth and our earth-body life, it is an end to a perception that is dominated by the reality of physical solidity and fleshly mortality. The Earth becomes an image floating in a greater mind that is only part of our existence, only one window of many. It's essence is not solid, but now mental as we see it. It is an aspect of mind apart of a greater mental universe with horizons we have never before imagined. Our body is a energetic vessel sailing through this mental sea of pure energy. The life we had before was a temporary state of mind, a temporary state of consciousness, that now has unfolded into a far more expansive and extraordinary space. Welcome to the astral sea! 

It seems to be a sprawling place full of life, full of an incredible variety of expression. Yet I think a soul journeying through it must wonder why all of this, what is the point of all this. I think it all points to something greater and I think this is Christ who lay beyond or beneath, or within it. I think Christ is more visible here because the layer of the mortal physical consciousness is gone. It think this deeper meaning is more obvious. I think there is so much to be distracted by in the astral plane because it is so wonderful. Yet I think all of this wonder is a reflection of a deeper life, like the ripples on the surface of the water made by a mysterious underwater creature. I think it would be easy to ignore the deeper significance and get lost in the endless play of subtle lights, to float for what would seem like an eternity without having to think to much about existence. But eventually one would get tired of the endless transformations of form and wonder where it all came from. They would get tire of drifting and would long for a higher purpose. I think here is where God comes in, and eventually where Christ intervenes by declaring Himself and His deeper reality. A reality which puts the variety of form in the astral universe into a more proper light, in which we goggle at them less and take things a little more seriously, soberly and move a little closer to the still center of our being. 

More to discuss

It seems to me that we desire things because of what we believe they are, what we believe they can give us. We believe that specific things have the power to satisfy us, to make us better, to make us more complete. For this reason we establish an agenda to obtain things and use them to suit our own purposes. We think it is appropriate to set out to gain what we can from the world for ourselves. I think this entire prospect is misled because this fundamental perception is untrue. I think heading out in such a manner leads to bondage rather than fulfillment. Each of these things we deem worthy out in the world is only worthy as long as we are attached to it. If we look closely, this attachment is not based off of real need, but of infectious desire, that spreads mindlessly from one thing to another. I think there are things that are appropriate to take care of, but nothing that is worth desiring. I think desire is truly poison. Even when we make an effort to take care of necessary business, there is no need to be attached to succeeding in our aims. I honestly do not think it matters if we succeed or fail. Not that this won't have consequences that affect other people for good or ill, not that it won't be important to us, but that underneath all the layers of this world, none of it is what it appears to be and none of it is real. While we remain in the world, it seems best that we divert all our efforts to eliminating the illusion of differences between things. I am talking about the difference between the true nature of things, they will always appear different, but they never will be. Additionally, even as we go about eliminating this illusion, never do so from a place of attachment. Let this endevour spring from the nothingness that comes from realizing the indivisibility behind the illusory surface of reality. Doing so from a place of attachment, is doing so from a place of desire, even if it a desire for the highest good. I think you will find that you cannot eliminate desire altogether immediately, especially a desire for achieving goodness on Earth. It is not necessary to do so, nothing is, this is the point. The more we realize the emptiness behind creation that is all that is real, the more we naturally do good things. The greatest things we can do is to let go of succeeding in fulfilling goodness from a place of ultimate surrender, not to be confused with a place of surrendering to evil and darkness. Ultimate surrender is truly selfless, a selflessness where there is no self, not a heroic self, where the self melts into the foaming sea of I AM, Emptiness. The more this is established the clearer our direction will be, and as we gather all of ourself and head towards liberation, we will remain motionless and participate in nothing at all. The latter is the primary mode, liberation is not worth being attached to, nothing is. Every thing we can believe in is equally illusory, equally a projection of self, equally ensnaring, equally undesirable. It becomes apparent that desire and self are bound in the same tangled not that is conditioned consciousness. It appears as an object in the mind where self, desire/thirst, attachment, conditioned perception of reality/aka worldliness are all one conditioned body. When it is seen as thus, it becomes apparent that it is not who we really are, not that our self is something else, but that we are not self, conditioned being. Until it is clearly seen what conditioned being is, we will have trouble stepping away from it. The clarity that eventually comes from the awakening or blossoming of Self in consciousness eventually leads to the insight that there is no need to step away from it, because there is no it, there is no self to step away from and no self to do the stepping away, the movement is pointless and impossible. Reality is simply Self which may not be the best word at this moment. The ultimate nature that all profound religion points to is the same underlying Reality. It may take awhile to recognize this, it is not essential that it is recognized. Perception ultimately simplifies to this fundamental nature that is nature in it's entirety, for the multitude is ultimately not real which leaves an already existing sea of Here I AM. There is no dharma we can hold onto, if we close our eyes properly we will find that we are already bathing in a sea of it.  

More answers, more questions

 I do believe it is true that God is at the heart of the astral Universe. I believe that the center of the astral universe is also in a way, the end of the astral universe, because from here, we journey into God and I believe God eventually turns into Christ. I am not sure which God this is. I think it is one of the Trinity. I believe it to be the God of the Old Testament, which makes sense because this God is the law bearer, and from my feelings, it is He that introduces Logic to the Jewish people, and as they make covenants with Him, they begin their journey across the astral sea to Him that lays in it's heart. It would seem that God the Father is the appropriate name for this aspect of God. I am no so certain though. For up to this point I believed God the Father to be the Highest form of God, God as absolute, as pure formless spirit, that is completely transcendent of Creation which appears to me now to be different from the God that rests at the heart of the astral universe which is God yet to be Christ. It seems to my knowledge that the God within the astral sea is the Father of our Souls, being composed of subtle light. Jesus also refers to those that believe in Him as is brothers and sisters, but now to which God he refers to I am uncertain. I believed it to be God as absolute, but now I do not know. His claim seems to be applicable to both. I am thoroughly perplexed by these thoughts...though I am happy to have a better understanding of the part of the Universe that extends from the astral to the absolute. My understanding of the trinity, and of the relationship between God and His souls in the astral sea, and their journey is taking shape. Understanding this feels vitally important to me. It is true that God is the same God in each aspect of the trinity, for they are all One. God is singular. I ask then, oh Lord, which of you is the Father of the Holy Trinity? And who Father is the God of the Jews that lay at the heart of the Astral sea? Lord, it seems to me that as Jesus is your son, that He would descend from Thee and you would be Higher than Him. That You would be He from whom all comes. Lord, may I know who is this God who speaks to us from within the Astral Heavens, who calls us to journey across it to Him? I ask thee Lord, is this God your hand which art the Holy Ghost? Is the same Father of the Jews, He that your son, Jesus Christ, refers to my Father who art in Heaven? Lord, I know from Yogananda that the Hand of God is before the Christ, he saith that the Holy Ghost surrounds creation and creates it from the Holy Aum, where God does this lie? Lord, when he refers to Creation, does he refer to the Universe that lies within the Astral Sea, that is the Astral Sea descending into matter? Lord, I am confused, Yogananda also speaks of the Causal realm, I know not if this is the realm of Christs, or does the Holy Ghost lay outside it's borders as well?  Father, I sense your inspiration coming from within my mind, from the astral sea. I sense the Holy Ghost speaking to me. Must he not speak from within the astral sea to mine ears? Must I not hear it from within my mind, from within the Astral currents. God, from where doth He speak to me? How can I here Him thus. Does He not speak from within the Astral Heaven? Does He not lay within it's heart as it's source? Is it not Him that calls me to make the journey to Him? To leave the Earth and it's ways behind forever? Is it not His hand that reaches out across the Universe to touch my heart and my mind. To share with me the secrets of Creation and of you Yourself oh lord high in Heaven. How did the Jews know you oh Lord? To whom did they speak? Did they know of Christ? Of you that lay beyond Him, Highest in Heaven? Lord it seems if they knew of Christ that they would have been more familiar with Him when He came? Did they only know of you as you speak out through the subtle sea as I know you now? It seems that the Jews were on a journey and that Christ is the end of that journey and many of them knew him not before He came. It seems to me that their tale in the Old Testament is a tale of this Journey and that Christ may mark the end of it. Lord it seems to me that they paved a way for Him, that we can learn from them of the God they knew in such a way that we may know and be prepared for He that came after. Lord it seems essential to me, to know you as they knew you, so that I may fully receive the Christ that Jesus brang to the Earth. Lord I know that you have spoken to many different people throughout time, and that you have many prophets and Christs and Sages, yet I feel that I may learn much from this story in particular. I feel apart of it's story unfolding throughout space and time. I feel it is important to know of thee as our Father who art in Heaven, and that we ought to learn Logic from thee through Faith, to make our progress through the Astral Heaven so that we may dock in it's heart and merge with Thee there so that we may come to Christ and fully know Him. Lord, I believe my soul calls me to do this and that I am on my way to you. I wish to know of thee and thy Way so that I may come to thee. Lord, it seems to me that as the Holy Ghost is the Word, that the word may be Logic itself, Logic fully embodied and fully present. It seems to me that Logic is the glue that holds everything together. It is the sinews of the world. It seems that through Logic we are conscious of the multitude of form, and that the Universe that we know is an image that most of us have not fully rendered. It is through the cultivation of Logic that we process this Universal Image. I believe the scope of this image is limited. It is an image that is all that lies within the mental dimension of the universe, so the mental and the physical. It seems to me that all of the images that we call forms are truly each the same image that may be this Logic. I think it is our spiritual ignorance that makes us believe they are different. I think cultivating Logic is how we learn to see this complete image and how we overcome this delusion and fully render the Image.